Letter of Resignation
(My perspective has changed because I found out that I've been poisoning myself with a silica supplement, but some things needed to be said, so I'll leave this post as is.)
I have a constant set of sounds in the background that go on in my brain. One of the sounds is almost like a vacuum cleaner. There is another one that is like the vacuum cleaner sound, but at a lower pitch.
There is a low rumbling sound outside at night, like some kind of very low frequency soundwave. (I plug my ears to make sure it's not inside my brain. It's a definite external sound.)
I get pulsing sensations in my head as though I have a fever, but without the high temperature of a fever.
I get very brief localized pains in different parts of my head. This doesn't happen too often, but is often enough to take note.
I have extremely bizarre dreams. My mind thinks its ok at the time. After I wake up and know better, it can be very disturbing.
The above symptoms regarding sounds in my head, the pulsing in my head, localized pains, and other dysfunctions - all of this leads me to think that I may have a brain tumor. I have no health insurance and no way to afford medical care. I know that I'm alone in this, and no one will help me. (If anything, I could be considered to be a danger to others, although I am not.)
I've been holding back some of this information. I haven't been telling people how bad it really is.
None of these problems are my fault. Sometimes there really are victims in this world. People - especially law of attraction worshiping newagers and occultists, will often say that everything that happens to someone is that person bringing it on themselves. This is only a half-truth. Although I don't believe in victim mentalities, I am being victimized - slowly tortured. This is unfair.
Sorry, but I'm tired of 2012 Portal. I'm tired of it all.
Others may try to offer energetic help, but what I really need is to be physically taken off world. It really is that bad.
I'm no longer fit to be a part of the planetary liberation process.
This post is a 'letter of resignation.'
Sometimes the only viable option there is on the long-term is getting out of a toxic environment after you tried so many different options and I've definitely been there, maybe not the same exact situation as you but yeah.
ReplyDeleteYeah, it's so toxic - just can't do this anymore.
DeleteLibra, I'm similar in that there are complex reasons why I can't interact well with others. I see myself as never being able to be most people's friend. I have to be fake for most people to like me. I have friendships with real people that are completely artificial.
DeleteSome core problems are so great that nothing can help, at least not with the current technology of the surface population. You need a different body. I need a different soul.
I need a different life.
DeleteI don't understand why this is happening. I did everything right - no alcohol, no drugs of any kind, a good diet, all the self-help in the world, but it's all over - done.
ReplyDeleteAlarming is definitely an accurate description. I remember others like Sacred Architect 5D who left.
Odd timing also! This is going to sound quite serious; but I recently created a second blog and published the following article stating a declaration of my willingness to speak up, as a Starseed representative, in first contact matters as things are getting too out of hand down here. https://communities-for-ets.blogspot.com/2024/02/it-is-time-for-intervention.html
ReplyDeleteIn that article, I said the following: "I see all of these Lightworkers dropping on the floor exhausted and giving up"
Yeah, I know Sebastian spoke against doing this, directed to the white hats but I'm no hat, and I'm at a loss and also at my n-th breaking point, I cannot allow myself to be a bystander any longer. So this is my failsafe. I waited for too long. I can't tolerate being pinned down anymore. Don't care if the Galactic Federation threatens to jail me for my daringness.
I swear one of those days I'm gonna get that landing or whatever contact, and I'm going to have a serious talk with the ETs. So I'm going around on FB trying to find people to go CE5 hunting with me.
Am I the only one who cares about real, concrete stuff concerning freeing humans anymore?
Apologies, just very frustrated today.
Tay Sam Pharol, sounds reasonable. I agree - no more tests. No more games.
ReplyDeleteLibra, you make a good point as well. I'm releasing all resentment.
ReplyDeleteThe LFs need to chip in some kind of direct communication.. or give an option to those who want to be removed from the surface before The Event... People who're absolutely worn out can't contribute anything to progress at all.. or they need to absolutely amplify ATVOR volume to get an instant boost of energy whenever required........
ReplyDeleteMy case at least:
DeleteI'm less oriented on intervention, and more focused on what I can do myself to have more energy, such as changes to diet and other wellness protocols. It only generates loosh to be fixated on intervention.
Hello, Starlight, I want to tell you that in my countless reincarnations, no one will always accompany you, including your twin soul, because each soul has its own journey, so you are the only one to rely on, the only one. accompany. Eventually, you will become that person’s favorite person. I hope everything is best for you. I love you.
ReplyDeleteThis is the truth of the universe, only you can accompany yourself to the end ！♥️
ReplyDeleteI finally discovered that I am the only one who understands me best. Even my twin soul cannot understand me, so I decided to give up everything and return to myself. I am the true source.🩷
ReplyDeleteNo one can understand and feel my feelings on this road, including my twin soul. Only I know me best and understand me best, so I will accompany me to the end. This feeling is good because I can always be satisfied. I will be disappointed with my expectations for any relationship that includes twin souls, but I will not let myself down. I am grateful to have met you, but it is enough for me to have myself. I am very happy.🎇🎇🎇
ReplyDeleteI have walked this road alone, lonely, cold, and dark. I have never had a soulmate to accompany me. I have always accompanied myself.😊
ReplyDeleteThe only thing that accompanies me, the only thing that loves me most is the love from the source. This is also the only reason why I continue to hold on. For love, love is the simplest energy, because everyone knows its existence, but truly understand what "love" is. "There are very few people on earth !♥️The movie The Matrix says that LOVE is the origin of everything !
ReplyDeleteThe matrix is no longer what it used to be, but has become a new "meta-matrix". The key to cracking the "meta-matrix" is still the basic and simple answer: love. As the epilogue of the film says - "Love is the origin of everything.
ReplyDeleteOn earth, everyone who loves others thinks that I love you and you must love me too. I give and must be rewarded. But the true source of love is letting go. I love you and I give you everything I have. Love, I don’t need your return, I just want you to be happy, I love you, but you don’t have to love me, because I hope you can become the freest and happiest you.
ReplyDeleteResponse to "Love," who deleted their account and is now Anonymous:
ReplyDeleteActually, love becomes manipulated, just like intuition. That's why logic needs to balance this.
Yes,Love has always been exploited and traded by everyone on Earth. Love has become a business, but love is also the only reality left in this world.
DeleteSo I want to say to my twin soul, I decided to let go, I hope you can be the freest you, I love you, you don’t have to respond to my love, I just hope you can be the freest, happiest existence, even if If you don't love me, you can't accompany me, and I will always love you ！
DeleteWhen you need me, you can find me. You also know my email address, but you never have to repay my love. I just always exist. If you need me, you can find me.（Gmail: loujinyan111@gmail.com)
DeleteThis is my love for my twin soul, and I wish him the best forever ！
DeleteOn Earth, love has become a commodity, but the Matrix said that“ love is also the only final reality in this world.”
ReplyDeleteThis is the last time I talk to you, I decide to let go, I don’t want controlling love, if you need me, I will always be there, you can send me an email, this is my latest change, my shadow, You don’t need to love me, respond to my love, I wish you to be the freest, happiest and truest version of yourself !(my Gmail: loujinyan111@gmail.com
ReplyDeleteI really love my twin soul, but in the end I found that the only way I really love him is to let go, not to control him, satisfy my own selfish desires, or let him repay the love I give, so I decided to let go because I don't want to , my love becomes his bondage and pressure, I hope he is free and happy !
ReplyDeleteI know in my heart that he (twin soul)loves me, but love is not about selfishness or control, but about trusting each other and being a strong support for each other without disturbing each other when they need help.
ReplyDeleteBecause I believe that my twin soul loves me, I decided to let go, because I trust him, so I will not disturb him anymore, and I trust him.
ReplyDeleteA background check has been done for the email loujinyan111@gmail.com. No results have been found. I did, however, find this youtube video with the name:
ReplyDeletehttps://youtu.be/GSM6jgLaMn4
This is not my video, I have not left any information on the Internet ！
DeleteI will not use any network to publish personal information or tell about my personal life. I have no traces on the Internet, but Chinese has many homophones. My Chinese name is very complicated and has many strokes, jin (瑾)
DeleteAll I can say is that my hidden mission is to work with light. There is a lot of light and unity energy in me. I won't let them down. I swear on my soul that this mission will always remain a secret because I don't want anything in return !
DeleteOk
DeleteI have deleted all my online traces. The Internet is not my sacred mission. I don’t want to leave any traces on the earth. After completing my hidden mission, I will leave.
ReplyDeleteAn occultist once told me that the internet is the physical representation of the astral, and the astral indicates what's going on in the subconscious. The subconscious of humanity is brilliant, but still has a very messed up side, although maybe this is finally starting to improve. Because the internet brings out people's subconscious, it's definitely "a place where genius and madness are often not far apart from each other!"
ReplyDeleteI can relate! It can get pretty bad sometimes.
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