Mind Clearing and a Synchronicity

The pdf of "Mind Clearing" can be downloaded here for free:

https://zlib.pub/book/mind-clearing-the-key-to-mindfulness-mastery-181mebkn0a38

All the best.

 

 

A Concern I've Been Putting Off, Common Sense, and Dealing with Chaos

Something I've never been able to see clearly is the linking of the heart center with the sexual center, as mentioned in Cobra's latest interview:

https://www.welovemassmeditation.com/2023/06/sisterhood-of-rose-interview-with-cobra-portal-of-light-activation-part-2.html

If the heart is linked to the sexual center, sexual arousal would activate the heart.  Also, any time the heart is activated, the sexual center would be activated as well, correct?  So, if someone has a moment that is heart-centered, such as petting a dog or helping someone in need, wouldn't their sexual center activate as well?  Obviously this would create many awkward moments, as there are countless scenarios that are of the heart but definitely do not call for sexual arousal!  This has been a long-standing concern.  

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Regarding the mentioning of lightworkers not using common sense in a frustrated and judgemental way: 

Because the physical plane is a plane bound by space and time, behavior is deterministic.  Not understanding unfavorable behaviors is a denial of cause and effect, as there is a cause to every behavior.  Failure to understand unfavorable behaviors is a failure to understand cause and effect.  With others who are not at the adept level (virtually all lightworkers in the surface population), I would expect them to be frustrated by a lack of common sense, but I would not expect to see such frustration from Cobra, as an adept should know that being frustrated by a lack of common sense is in itself, not using common sense.  

I'm not justifying the lack of the usage of common sense, but if something is not understood, it cannot be resolved.  Everything has a reason.  The reason may not be liked, but every effect has an explanation. 

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Regarding increased chaos in the external world for a 'surface dweller,' I've found that it's liberating to no longer care and let go.  When constant stupidity is thrown in my face (I don't consider myself to be an adept by the way), the only solution to not being bound by the stupidity on an internal level is to not care and let go.  It's impossible to completely not care, as this would result in the body becoming catatonic, but the level of not caring can reach a point to where what must be dealt with must be dealt with in the external world, but the dealings create as little internal discord as possible.  With each passing day, external chaos continues to grow, but the soul does not have to be ensnared by it.  Also, the soul does not have to be ensnared by internal discord from personal issues.

Advice though: 

Never believe that you are a master of neutralizing extreme duality and chaos.  The moment you think you are a 'pro,' that's when 'the matrix' will find a way to shove something in your face that is so aggravating and stupid that it will set you off, big time.  Never, never get 'smug,' and always anticipate the possibility of failing to transcend 'volatile stimuli.'  If something succeeds with pulling you in to put you 'in that one place,' don't be angry with yourself.  Learn from it in order to better be able to 'slip through the cracks' the next time around.

The Most Underestimated of All Time

What someone puts in their body and avoids putting in their body is the single most underestimated aspect on the planet in terms of effect.  Most people I encounter are destroying their bodies (and minds, as minds are integrated into bodies) without even knowing it. 

Although some of these findings are universally true, this is not me telling anyone what to eat and what to avoid.  These are just my own findings, take or leave:

If eating starch, don't eat noodles.  The blood sugar effect of noodles is destabilizing.  

For those who are not vegan or vegetarian, I've heard from multiple sources to avoid eating dairy with meat.  I'm not Jewish, but from my own experience, they are correct on this.  It's really the protein that should not be combined.  The exception I've found that works is to combine a small amount of butter with meat, as butter has virtually no dairy protein.  Anything else, such as hard cheeses, soft cheeses, milk, yogurt, and kefir, should not be eaten with meat.  Some say to wait longer, but in my experience, waiting a couple hours to eat dairy after eating meat is long enough.

Avoid too much sugar.  No sodas unless low in sugar and sweetened with stevia (hard to find).  No fruit juices, as fruit juices are just like sodas.  No donuts.  No candy.  If eating carbs, eat fruits that have less sugar.  

It's nearly impossible to completely avoid, but limit vegetable oil.  Limit fried foods.

If eating carbs (mostly in the form of starch), limit saturated fat.  (This is difficult if eating dairy, because low fat dairy is fortified with vitamin A, which is toxic to the system.  Even organic low fat dairy is fortified with vitamin A!  Cereals are even worse, having higher amounts of vitamin A fortification than low fat dairy.)  

If going low carb, saturated fat does not have to be limited.  (In my case though, low carb has always been a complete disaster.)

Completely avoid caffeine.  (Again, this is just what works for me.  Others may do ok with caffeine, but in my case, caffeine is extremely destabilizing.)

Don't drink alcohol.  (Again, this is just me.  I do some vanilla extract in plain yogurt, which has a small amount of alcohol, but I don't consume any alcoholic beverages.)

Don't smoke marijuana.  No THC.  I've never seen anyone who can really handle the stuff, although they like to fool themselves.  

No hard drugs.  (This one should be obvious.)

Psychedelics?  I've tried psychedelics in the past a bit, and most of my experiences were negative.  The only experience that wasn't negative was peyote.  I don't currently do psychedelics though.  I'm 100% 'psychoactive-free.'

Dream of a Nuke Going Off

I had a dream a few hours ago of a nuke going off and killing several millions of people.  The dream was very clear and disturbing.  After the dream, I saw this:

https://warnews247.gr/moirazoun-stoles-rvchp-ston-rosiko-strato-ekriktika-se-dyo-pyrinikous-antidrastires-o-zelenski-ekane-prosomoiosi-ekrixis-vomvas-15-kilotonon-sto-kievo/

I'm not saying a nuke will go off.  This is just what I dreamed.

The Foundation

The value a given society places on a certain product or service determines the price of the product or service.

The foundation upon which a given society stands is water, food, and shelter.  When a given society fails to see the value in the foundation to a severe enough degree, the society collapses.

In modern society, most people place more value on entertainment than on the fundamentals.  Someone who works in retail, for example, is looked down upon for having such a ‘low position,’ because the fundamentals are taken for granted.

People of course wake up very quickly when their fundamentals are no longer available.  If a grocery store is empty, or people can no longer afford food and housing, people definitely ‘change their tune.’

(Automation is not at the point to be able to replace workers.  This is actually a good thing, because of course the ones controlling automation would be the World Economic Forum and the like.  A reality of automation being controlled by psychopaths is not a reality worth existing in at all.)

Entertainment has its place.  Self expression has its place.  The arts and sciences have their place.  For example, the sciences can enhance access to the fundamentals to make life easier.  Yet, all of the higher aspects of a given society rely on a firm foundation, which must be honored and respected if the society is to survive.

Put simply, if a job needs to get done, someone has to do it.  People could have all the money in the world, but if no one works because the value of work is not appreciated, the work doesn't get done, and everything collapses.  This is common (but not so common) sense.

Everyone wants to live the good life.  Everyone wants to make it big and live in a castle in the sky.  So did I.  But that’s not how the real world works.

Message to the human population:

Take a look at your home if you aren’t homeless.  Take a look at all the technology in your home.  Take a look at even the simple things, such as the bed you sleep in.  Did you create any of it?  Probably not.  Most or all of the things you have come from the hard work of others.  Is this valued by anyone anymore?  Is this appreciated at all?  

An Example of An 'Implant Chain'

Here's an example of the programming of implants:

Pattern: "You're doing this the wrong way."  This goes back to childhood.  I was playing soccer the wrong way.   I would get in trouble in class for not listening and not following directions.  Later in life with jobs, I would not be able to follow orders right and get yelled at.  The more I would try to follow directions, the more I would do the wrong thing, as a vicious cycle.  When I was able to do good work, I would disappoint managers when I refused to move up to a higher position.  

I would anger (positive) occultists because I would not agree with them and I was "Not taking action" and so forth, failing my commitments to any long term occult practice.

Even in the area of romantic relationships, I would mostly not know what to do.  Women were rarely attracted to me, and when they were, I would mess things up. 

(This is one pattern of many.) 

Most people are a combination of countless negative programmed patterns that dictate their behavior.  Perhaps the first free will choice from anyone in the surface population is the decision to surpass negative patterns from the implants.

When negative programming is momentarily broken, glimpses of the natural state come forth.  The natural state can be categorized as very positive, but is also beyond definition.

When all negative programming is fully and permanently dissolved, permanent liberation beyond one's wildest imaginings will occur.

An Attempt to Perceive the Implants and Attacks

There are experiences I've been having that may be associated with implants mentioned by 2012 Portal. 

The book "Mind Clearing" that was suggested by 2012 Portal goes into breaking free from chains of destructive thoughts.  

When external circumstances overwhelm me, I will have very destructive sets of thoughts.  I'll fantasize about suicide as well.  The destructive thoughts became so severe today that I decided to run a 'clean sweep.'  I strongly thought to myself, "I'm not going to play these thought games anymore," and then I began to only focus on my physical movements (this was at my place of work.)  After running the clean sweep, at first I felt better and at peace, but then I started to get stinging sensations in the legs, along with feelings of anxiety in the area of the implant between the navel and solar plexus.  

Perhaps the clearing of destructive thinking caused the implant to activate.  The first activation is destructive thoughts, but when the 'chain of destructive thoughts' is broken, the implant then proceeds to activate destructive energy.  Or, the destructive energy's secondary form is destructive thoughts, and then it reverted to it's primary form when the destructive thoughts were discontinued, as destructive energy.  

Another possibility:

The implant between the solar plexus and navel brings about destructive energy, and the implants behind the eyes bring about destructive thoughts.  The two areas work together as a feedback loop.

I also noticed that there have been times when I would become corrupt internally, and then I would hear a high pitch ring in the ears, and the corruption dissipated - I returned to my former self.  Perhaps this was a direct clearing of the dark forces and/or subquantum anomaly 

Perhaps the primary method of attack from the dark forces is corruption itself.  Perhaps stinging sensations occur when the corrupting force fails to obtain its goal.  Or, stinging sensations are a side effect of the programming of the dark forces, which later manifests in the form of internal discord and corruption.   

This was my attempt to see into the nature of the implants and attacks.  There are many variables - this is extremely complex.

More Specifically

My intuition keeps telling me that way too much attention is being placed upon me, almost to the point of being an obsession.  However:

"Return To Sender" is not directed at any lightworkers and so forth.  Although there have been minor conflicts with other lightworkers in the past, lightworkers are not related to the scapegoating agenda.  This is about negative forces (and the cabal, who are a part of the negative forces) using people (or rather, sheeple) like puppets to target me, in order to make me into a scapegoat, in order to take the pressure off the real criminals. 

To the sheeple who are a part of the scapegoating agenda:

You are helping real criminals get away with real crimes against humanity.  You are part of the problem, and when you are forced to realize what you have been supporting (there's no escape from such a realization as it's a part of the planetary liberation process), you are going to hate yourselves, as you should.  Very, very hard times await you, and if it were up to me, I'd send you to the Central Sun.  You're damn lucky it's not up to me...

Return To Sender

Regarding being judged by others, this is my attitude:

https://youtu.be/sI4BxD706sg

To all who judge me, this will be returned to you, whether you are physically incarnated or are nonphysical, no matter how high in the 'hierarchy' you are, no matter how powerful you think you are.

If someone wants to put a bullet in my head, go ahead and do me a favor - I wouldn't have to exist like this anymore.  No one has, so I guess I'll keep living, doing the best I can.

To those who get paid to target me (hypothetically speaking of course), you don't have real jobs, because it should be extremely obvious by now that I'm a threat to no one.  

Definitely, with those who target me and stab me in the back, it says more about them than it says about me.

And again, return to sender. 🙂 

Free Will

Free will is defined as:

"The power of acting without the constraint of necessity or fate; the ability to act at one's own discretion." 

Most people act based on necessity, leading to various fates.  

Here is the definition of discretion:

"The freedom to decide what should be done in a particular situation."

Do people really have the freedom to decide when most of their existence is a reaction?  Up to this day (and probably counting), the vast majority of people are not at the level of being able to control their environments to any significant degree.  Therefore, for the most part, free will does not exist on Earth.  The most high level adepts are the only ones who get close to having free will.  (Even though I have certain abilities, I myself am definitely not even close to being at the level of adept.)

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Those who accept that good cannot exist without evil do not know what they are really saying.  Someone who believes that the world has to have the good with the bad, as though this 'is the way things have to be,' would change their tune if experiencing how far abuse really goes on the spectrum of evil.  For example, the prison system in the US has about 23 million people.  I recently saw a video of a guy who went to prison, who talked about many men being gang raped by other prisoners on their first day.  Someone who says that bad needs to exist in order for there to be good would 'change their tune' after being gang raped by a few prisoners in jail.  And, what's so insane is that the spectrum of evil can go much further than the example of being gang raped.   

The truth is, that which is good does not require evil in order to exist.  There are many examples of good existing without evil, or positives not needing negatives.  Here are four examples:

In order to know that a food tastes good, it's not necessary to know what it's like to eat food that tastes bad.  

Someone does not need to be raped in order to know a healthy and loving sexual experience.

Someone doesn't need to do meth in order to know the importance of taking care of their physical health.  

There are many positive energies that can be experienced, and these positive energies can be known as being unique from each other, without ever having to experience destructive, evil energies. 

It's not necessary to experience evil in order to not take good for granted.  Good is the natural expression of the universe, and evil is a mistake.  

Creation can still be managed though.  Evil creations that are irredeemable can be destroyed.  Destruction can still exist, as long as it's the destruction of evil.  (Don't confuse small evil with large evil.  One can know evil from evil's extremes.)

(Evil can also be known as "extreme imbalance."  I'm using the term "evil" for convenience.)

In many ways, nature has evil within it.  I once saw a documentary of male dolphins ganging up on a lone female dolphin, as a form of gang rape.  (Newagers take note.)

I changed my mind about the mega-tsunami.  Evil needs to be permanently removed on Earth, so 'let her rip.' 

Personal note:

I'm being accused of something that I didn't think was my fault, but maybe I really am part of the problem.  I may have had too much contact with the anomaly, so I may need to be deleted.  If so, then so be it.  

No matter how messed up and toxic I am, I can still at least have a vision for what reality is originally intended to be - good that requires no opposite.  Most everything else about me has been inverted in the most negative ways though.  What's left for me to do?  

Let go...

A Different Approach to Attacks

I decided to do some Rainbow Flower of Life meditations, and the result was having a very free feeling followed by extreme attacks.  The end result of the FOL meditations was increased chaos, both internally and externally.  Maybe this was just retaliation from negative forces.  The paranoid side of me starts thinking that the FOL meditations are opening a portal to a 'black hole matrix,' but I'm more persuaded to believe that it's retaliation for trying to help clear subquantum anomaly.

The stress level at my job has reached a point I never knew possible.  My heart has been skipping beats and I 'have not been handling the stress well.'  

'Metaphysical attacks' continue to cause pains throughout my body.

What I'm going to do now, and others may do so if they feel guided, is to imagine a silver mirror shield around oneself.  The silver mirror shield reflects everything back to the sender(s).  Positive thoughtforms and energies go back to others, helping them, while those who attack - whether they are cabal or nonphysical entities and so forth - this goes back to the senders too, making them either deal with their 'stuff,' or having it even annihilate them depending on the severity of their attacks.

The mirror shield can be programmed subconsciously as well, repeating 'mirror shield words and intent' when dosing off to sleep.  The state between waking and sleeping can be very powerful.

The negative forces being aware of the mirror shield cannot stop the mirror shield's effectiveness.

This is all I have for now.

All the best.

They Try To Debunk Monsanto Claims But Fail

There are articles that try to debunk the claims regarding Monsanto.  Here's an example:

https://www.statnews.com/2022/02/10/theres-no-autism-epidemic-but-there-is-an-autism-diagnosis-epidemic/ 

However, here's the real science:

1. 1. Pu Y., et al. , Maternal glyphosate exposure causes autism-like behaviors in offspring through increased expression of soluble epoxide hydrolase. Proc. Natl. Acad. Sci. U.S.A. 117, 11753–11759 (2020). - PMC - PubMed
      
      
2. 1. Samsel A., Seneff S., Glyphosate, pathways to modern diseases II: Celiac sprue and gluten intolerance. Interdiscip. Toxicol. 6, 159–184 (2013). - PMC - PubMed
      
      
3. 1. Samsel A., Seneff S., Glyphosate, pathways to modern diseases III: Manganese, neurological diseases, and associated pathologies. Surg. Neurol. Int. 6, 45 (2015). - PMC - PubMed
      
      
4. 1. Swanson N. L., Leu A., Abrahamson J., Wallet B., Genetically engineered crops, glyphosate and the deterioration of health in the United States of America. J. Org. Syst. 9, 6–37 (2014).
      
      (Here's the PDF:  https://people.csail.mit.edu/seneff/Swanson_et_al_2014.pdf)
      
      
5. 1. von Ehrenstein O. S., et al. , Prenatal and infant exposure to ambient pesticides and autism spectrum disorder in children: Population based case-control study. BMJ 364, l962 (2019). - PMC - PubMed
      
      
6. 1. Susser E. S., Lin S. P., Schizophrenia after prenatal exposure to the Dutch Hunger Winter of 1944-1945. Arch. Gen. Psychiatry 49, 983–988 (1992). - PubMed
      
      
7. 1. Neugebauer R., Hoek H. W., Susser E., Prenatal exposure to wartime famine and development of antisocial personality disorder in early adulthood. JAMA 282, 455–462 (1999). - PubMed
      
      
8. 1. US Environmental Protection Agency , Glyphosate draft human health risk assessment in support of registration review (Rep. EPA-HQ-OPP-2009-0361-0068, US Environmental Protection Agency, 2015).
      
      
9. 1. Bayer Agriculture BVBA, Data from “Safety data sheet Roundup Maxload.” Figshare. 10.6084/m9.figshare.13335347.v1. Accessed 4 December 2020. - DOI
      
      
10. 1. Wagner K. M., McReynolds C. B., Schmidt W. K., Hammock B. D., Soluble epoxide hydrolase as a therapeutic target for pain, inflammatory and neurodegenerative diseases. Pharmacol. Ther. 180, 62–76 (2017). - PMC - PubMed 

The Smallest of Things

My experience with peanut butter over the years:  I noticed that when I would often eat it, I would become toxic with my feeling and thinking.  Then I came across research saying that peanut butter is harmful to the gut, which is where most of the microbiome resides.  Ultimately, someone with a strong microbiome should be able to handle peanut butter well, but the vast majority of modern humanity has a weakened microbiome.  

My experience with peanut butter, and other experiences with food prove beyond any doubt that the microbiome determines how someone feels, and how someone can handle various life situations.  The reality is people's physical health, immune system, and mental health is determined by their microbiomes.

What about the merits of positive thinking, changing one's own thought patterns, and meditations (mind over matter)?  The reason people aren't usually able to make changes by changing their thinking and so forth is because their physiology is so off balance.  There are more minds than just the thinking mind in a human being.  The gut is a mind in itself.  If the gut is messed up, mind over matter can only go so far.  The solution is to heal the gut, because without a healthy gut, 'higher powers' will most often be inaccessible.

Most people don't want to go through the work to heal the gut, because this means making one's own bread - most commercially sold bread is full of the antibiotic glyphosate from roundup.  If there is no organic bread at a reasonable price or it's made with too much sugar, organic flour has to be purchased, and bread has to be made from scratch.  It requires great effort to avoid pesticides (poisons) in food.  It's definitely worth the effort though.

I don't know about everyone else, but that Monsanto video I posted a little while back was a seriously rude (but very necessary) awakening.  I knew that Monsanto was bad, but I didn't realize that Monsanto has been killing off the microbiome of humanity and the entire planet.  I didn't realize that even before the vax campaign, humanity's fate was to have 70-80% of people getting cancer by 2035 because of Monsanto and other antibiotics doing exponential damage to humanity's microbiome. 

Most outer conflicts emanate from harmful energies being accessed, which negatively alters the microbiome of people.  This can be done with 5G and associated technology that has become so common on the planet surface.  It's a combination of using fallen technologies and accessing harmful realms and energies to wage war on the microbiome.  It was fallen technologies and negative forces that created roundup's glyphosate.

In the very beginning of life on Earth, certain energies beyond 3D were used to create life.  There are also certain energies that destroy life.  The negative forces can tap into certain energies to bring forth certain microorganisms that kill off humanity, with ancient plagues being an example.  

The statement "As above, so below," and "As below, so above" takes on a whole new meaning when taking the microbiome into account.  It's actually the smallest of things that has real power in the world.  It's the smallest of things that creates life.  Also, it's the smallest of things that destroys life when accessed by the negative forces.  Humanity needs to be willing to work with energies that assist the smallest of things that are on humanity's side, which also involves discontinuing the ingestion of roundup, and not taking other antibiotics except only when absolutely necessary, and many other actions (people probably get the idea).

When someone is behaving in a toxic manner, or when I myself become toxic, I can make certain judgments, but these judgements now include the microbiome.  I now can think, "That aggressive or manipulative person's microbiome and psychophysiology is off track," or "My own microbiome and psychophysiology is off track."

Understanding how energy and intent affects the microbiome brings one into a much larger arena - from the smallest of things.

Even If I Reach Only One Person

Even if I reach only one person with information about the microbiome, this makes it worth all the effort.

Maia said on 2012 Portal:

""Stabbed in the back"
Yes, that could describe how I was gratuitously attacked by a brother whom I appreciate because Cobra had supposedly censored his comment above and allowed my comment with a "transhumanist" clip. It looked humanly like jealousy, then it continued by likening me to a heartless Wall who doesn't give a damn about what's happening on the planet with the destruction of the microbiosystem and the disastrous consequences for Gaia.
disastrous consequences for Gaia and all life.
Well, it's worrying to see that, at this level and with all the tools at our disposal, workers don't know how to handle this kind of attack any better.
So I prefer to keep my distance to protect myself from these negative energies."

My response:

I would like to address this kind of mentality.  Yes, the comment with the video was initially not posted when the comments updated.  The reason I was so upset was because of the nature of the information that was not showing.  The actual real war on the planet is against the planet's microbiome.  All physical and mental problems of humanity can be traced to a weakening microbiome, and/or micro-organisms that get created that are not supposed to exist, created by the dark forces.  The nature of consciousness goes to an entirely deeper level when considering how micro-organisms are actually the ones who determine much of what happens on the planet.  Even astral experiences and so forth could be interactions with and activations of micro-organisms on a multidimensional level.

But no, Maia, I was not attacking you, and to say that I was "jealous" is extremely underhanded when I was trying to get information out about the larger picture, because this is information no one in any Et group has ever discussed.  In no instance did I ever 'stab you in the back.'  You are taking this way too personally.  You're trying to make this personal when I'm focused on information that can change the entire planet if enough people know.  In absolutely no instance did I liken you to a "heartless wall."  This wasn't about you.  This was about saving the planet.  People could definitely understand how it would look when a music video is played but then a comment with mind-blowing information is not posted.  My comments were posted later anyway though, so I deleted the part about the music video.

I even explained my position earlier with some other replies on The Unveiling's blog, but it's like everything I say gets interpreted as an attack.  Yet, reality speaks for itself.  I find it amazing that no one even discussed the information from the Monsanto video.  This is definitely information that should NOT be ignored.  It's very alarming that people are ignoring the information.

Take This To Heart

Thank you SK for sharing.

https://youtu.be/lEE5KNJV3Bw

The Attacks Will Not Shut Me Down

Sometimes life can be like this:

https://youtu.be/OXYzuLd1JX8

I won't delete my last post.  That's how I felt at the time, and I'll own it.  

Basically what's happening is every time I activate my abilities through meditations and chanting, I get attacked in the dreamstate and through thoughtforms.  Being aware of this will help me to not take the attacks so seriously anymore, and to focus more on shielding.  

The goal of course is to completely shut me down so that Light will not come through.  Sorry though.  Once the 'cat is out of the bag,' this cannot be put back.  The only direction to go is forward.  Attacks are a 'dime a dozen,' and I don't care anymore.

If certain others want to stab me in the back, it's not my problem.  'The best revenge is living well,' and that's what I'm doing.

I'll also be staying away from wheat that has roundup.  Homemade bread using higher quality wheat is far superior to all the cheap stuff.

And definitely, I will be working on the art of letting go - to be set free.

Victory of the Light. 

 

When You Lose Money In The Dreamstate

Lately I've been seeing snakes in the grass, and I was told that this means other people are 'stabbing me in the back.'  Then in the dreamstate, I was giving an extended family member money.  I'm pretty sure that when giving someone money in the dreamstate, this means 'soul energy' is being taken.

The soul energy being taken from me is others feeling better about themselves and boosting their 'egos' by comparing themselves to me, with me being a 'failure,' and/or 'monster,' and/or 'ultimate loser,' and so forth.  In the dreamstate this time around, this was a certain cousin taking my money.  (Money can be given freely to help others in the dreamstate, but I keep getting tricked into giving money away.  It can be taken by force as well.)

Regarding my extended family, I was humiliated when young.  I was called the "punching bag of the family."  Later in life, this manifests in other ways, being exploited to the maximum.  Some members of the extended family take my side, while others continue to stab me in the back.  

(Virtually all of my extended family members went along with 'deep state agendas,' falling for the vax campaign and so forth.)

The humiliation continues but the magick of it all is I don't care what anyone thinks of me, and it's probably just a matter of being exploited by the cabal for their selfish benefit.  The cabal rape children, but the attention is on me, when obviously I would never harm a child in any way.

I have extended family members who are quite wealthy and successful, and I'm regarded as a complete loser by comparison, and have been treated as an outcast since childhood.

I was also molested as a child, but not by an adult.  (It's a long story.)

I've also been raped in the dreamstate many times - my navel would be 'assaulted,' although this doesn't happen anymore.

I have every reason to commit suicide because I'm unhappy with my job and seriously don't want to go full time, and the dreamstate is absolutely horrible lately, and 'life just sucks right now,' but I will not kill myself, because I know that's what 'they' want.  Justice may not be served in my lifetime, but maybe, just maybe, I can outlive my enemies. 

However, the (unconfirmed but I can feel it) cancer in my stomach/liver area may kill me if the stress makes it too active.  I've been keeping it at bay for several years but it's getting much worse.  It's like the life gets sucked out of me every time it 'comes around.'  I'll have to keep trying to find ways to manage it - the suffering it's created is on a level I cannot describe.  I guess the motto "tough shit" only goes so far.

Message to those who take from me and stab me in the back or target me outside my extended family: This will fall back on you and I look forward to your deaths.  Extended family members who have been stabbing me in the back:  This will fall back on you.  I will cut you off forever.  I don't care if you die.  I'm not just saying that.  I hate you.  You have been nothing  but fucking assholes from the beginning, and I'm done with you.  (Well, I was a pretty rowdy kid, buy yeah, basically.)

Happy fucking Birthday to me.

Where I'm At

The most difficult thing to do is work in a job that deals with the public and to be into anything 'metaphysical' at the same time.  However, there are healing and protective energies that are coming through.  The protocol will be to completely shut down when at the job, and to open up when not at the job.

So, when at work, be completely materialistic, and after a time of rest after getting home from work (I need time to just goof off and unplug and not have to think about anything metaphysical after work as well), I can be open again.

At work - shut everything down.

After work and after unplugging after work - open up more. 

There are still energies coming through, and my intuition tells me it's coming from the Light Forces.

Point of anger:

"Just put money in my bank so I don't have to do job bullshit anymore so I can be myself."

Resolution to point of anger:

I can still open up to the Light, but only at certain times.

When Light comes though anyway when at work:

That's fine but I need my focus to be on my job when I'm at work.  I'll be neutral when experiencing this.

Songs I hate that get stuck in my head because the radio is always playing at work:

No resolution for this problem.  I mine as well be considered autistic.  A huge amount of damage is being done to me in this way.

True perspective on job: 

My abilities are being wasted, but it's not my fault.  I will maybe have a state of being much more detached.  By not caring what happens at the job, but also going through the motions, maybe I can get the stress level down.

People who want to attack me because I don't want to participate in metaphysical stuff all the time:

You have no idea how hard it is to put up with what I'm putting up with, and I owe you nothing.

Conclusion:

I'm being stretched too thin and will probably have to cut off certain groups and followings in order to at the very least, maintain my sanity.  I don't expect anyone to understand my situation.  With other people, a lack of understanding has always been their primary feature.  Nobody understands me and then they make all these expectations and projections, and it's not fair, but I can simply cut them off and let it fall back on them.  It's not my problem.

The larger picture is that there's something to this.  I don't want a mega-tsunami, but the Light will do what the Light will do.

Follow-Up Notes on This Is Where I Stand

There are many who say the vax will cause cancers and deaths to soar.  However, it was known before the vax that Monsanto's roundup and other antibiotics would cause cancers and deaths to soar.  Even if there was no vax, 70-80% of the population will have cancer by 2035.  With the vax, the numbers could definitely be even worse.  Either way, people saying it is the vax, or people saying it is Monsanto... both the vax and Monsanto are from big pharma, so it's the same people like Fauci, Gates, and all the rest who will be held responsible by the public - regardless of what's believed to be the culprit.

On another note, I do feel energy coming from the Light Forces, or maybe this is so.  I can't just ignore reality though.  Reality never gets addressed.  If there can be 3D intervention to clarify everything, then I could change my position.  Anything short of that... I can't support the death of the flora and fauna of Earth from a mega-tsunami.  I didn't give it much thought back when it was mentioned by 2012 Portal in January of 2019, which was a mistake on my part. 

But who cares what I think anyway.  

Carry on.

This Is Where I Stand

It took me a long time to be able to get as 'solid' as I am to be able to challenge 2012 Portal without buckling down like I usually do.  Here is where I stand:

I do not support the pole shift mega-tsunami scenario, because I do not support the destruction of the flora and fauna of the planet.

I do not support doing meditations and waiting on the Event and Light Forces to 'save the day.'  Although meditations are beneficial, many people are not proactive enough to take a stand against the microbiome of the planet being destroyed.  I knew that Monsanto was bad, but I didn't realize Monsanto was actually doing far more damage than the vax campaign and everything else combined.  Monsanto (and the cabal who run Monsanto) is officially the #1 enemy of humanity and the planet.  If lightworkers had not been so distracted by 2012 Portal and all the other Et stuff, they would have been more likely to have been activists trying to stop Monsanto, which would have helped to save the planet.

If people want to think I'm being manipulated by the cabal because I don't want the microbiome of the planet to be destroyed, because this would mean the end of all life on Earth, hey whatever you guys say, but this is where I stand.

Summary of Video On The Microbiome and Saving The Planet

By 2035, it's projected that 1 in 3 children will have autism, and 70-80% of the population will have cancer.  Taking care of this number of people will bankrupt countries very easily, and death rates will soar.  Here are the numbers when the video was made in 2018:

 

Here is the graph for autism:

 

Here is a US map of antibiotic use and rising cancer rates.  The dark blue area is for increased antibiotic use, and the same area in red is for increased cancer rates:

 

Monsanto's glyphosate (roundup) is an antibiotic, and it's in our soil, in our food, in our water and rivers, and even in our rain.  This one chemical is destroying the microbiome of not just humanity, but of the entire planet.  Monsanto is of course owned by big pharma. The real damage to humanity, and the entire planet, was being done before the vax campaign.

Here's a surprising fact: Gluten sensitivity was not a thing until after glyphosate was used on wheat:

 

 

With the number of viruses, fungi, parasites, and bacteria in the world, humanity is not a mistake, because these organisms could have killed humanity off a long time ago.  Many of these organisms are actually what allowed humanity to exist in the first place.  For example, there are countless beneficial bacteria that fight off cancer, but of course, Monsanto's glyphosate kills off these beneficial bacteria.

 

 

(Although this was later on, thank you 2012 Portal for posting the video.)

Has Monsanto ever been brought to justice for almost successfully killing the microbiome of the entire planet?  With all the rainbows and unicorns, have Bill Gates, Klaus Schwab, and all the other goonies been brought to justice?  To this day, they are still allowed to continue their diabolical agendas with impunity.

Anyway...

Solutions that are proposed:

 

 

And, as the title of the video states, eat dirt.  (Just make sure the dirt doesn't have roundup in it.)

(There is much more to this video.  It's 1 trillion percent worth watching, from start to finish.  Thank you  again to Siris King for posting the video on his awesome patreon page!)

A Harsh Awakening

I knew it was bad, but I had no idea how bad, until now.

https://youtu.be/HL6OPzQe9Is

Thanks SK for sharing this.