Dietary Hell

The Mcdougall protocol of going high carb and low fat was a disaster.  I felt better for a few hours eating meals that were primarily starch, but then I had excruciating heartburn.  Then I looked at myself in the mirror today, and I have pale skin with large bags under my eyes.  I look like a damn zombie, or that I've aged 30 years, just like that occultist I kept tabs on.  I've also been napping several hours a day. 

It doesn't help that the US government is taxing me $1000 when I didn't even make 20 grand last year.  I'm sure my tax money will go to the meat grinder in Ukraine.  Maybe I just won't pay my taxes, nor pay the fines for not paying.  Hey, at least in prison I don't have to pay for food and shelter.  There could be a 'Bubba issue' though.

Anyway, I'm done with dietary protocols.  I'm just going to eat whatever I want and not care anymore (within reason of course).  The main focus needs to be having a stronger mind and will.  Diet can only go so far with that.

"The Occultist" Who Has Been Attacking Me Moved to Akron, Ohio in 2021

Akron, Ohio is 66 miles from East Palestine, Ohio when using mapquest.

Me deflecting his attacks hopefully didn't backfire in the manifestation of the train wreck in Palestine.  He had an insane level of dark occult power, but it would be narcissistic of me to entertain too much the possibility of my deflection of his attacks resulting in the biggest environmental catastrophe in US history.  (The severity of harm from the chemicals is on the same level as being hit with a nuke.)

The movie made staged in Ohio just weeks before the disaster proves that this goes beyond myself and "the occultist."  

I (reluctantly) created a facebook with a fake name so I could go to his page to check up on him.  The guy doesn't look like a threat now.  I saw him in some recent videos, and he looks like he's aged about 30 years starting at around 2019.  He looks old and weak. 

A Deeper Look into High Carb Low Fat Diets

Some people may find the subject of diet boring and a dead end, as there are so many contradictory claims, but I cannot over-stress the importance of how much diet affects physical, mental, and spiritual health.  (I'm using the word "diet" for convenience.  The word "diet" doesn't have to have a negative connotation.)

There are three main diets.  Two of the three diets obtain positive results, while the remaining one causes disease.  There are also diets that are in between, as it's quite a spectrum, but here are the main three:

1. High fat, low carb.

2. Low fat, high carb.

3. High carb, high fat.

The main cause of obesity, diabetes, and disease among the population comes from the trend to go with #3.  #3 is a diet that includes sugary sodas, foods fried in vegetable oils, candies, and so forth.

In my opinion #1 gets far too much attention, becoming more like a cult.  #1 may work well for others, but what about people who have a vegetarian blood type?  I've repeatedly tried #1, and my blood sugar did go lower, but I always had other disastrous psycho-physiological effects from #1.  This post will therefore be exploring #2.

Dr. McDougall who goes into #2:

"Eating starches make my blood sugar spike.  How is that good?"

https://youtu.be/uxGKQYKV6Uc 

McDougall's macronutrient protocol is: 

75-90% carbs in the form of starch.

7-15% protein from non-animal sources.

10% or less from fat.

Low fat high carb diets often fail because people eat low fat products with huge amounts of added sugar, such as low fat sweetened yogurt and the like, and then they go for 'heart healthy' vegetable oils, which turns the diet into a high fat, high carb nightmare.  As I've stated before, people poison themselves with added sugars and vegetable oils.  There is still a way to go high carb and have very positive results if going low in fructose and keeping the fats and vegetable oils to a minimum. 

My version of #2 is a hybridized version of McDougall's protocol.  I am still avoiding starches high in saponins.  Rice, polenta, and some refined bread (the bread must be low in added simple sugars though) are what can be eaten instead of whole grains, quinoa, beans, and the like. 

To throw out some numbers, the sugar and fat intake each can be 15g or less per day.  Carbs from starch can be 200-300g per day - something like that.  (This isn't an exact science but one gets the idea.)  I will give this a go and report on the results. 

One can go back 100 years or so, and look at what people were eating in other countries like Japan and China.  They ate a large amount of starch in the form of rice, but they were definitely not diabetic and overweight!  People started becoming diabetic and overweight when fats, oils, and the sweet stuff was added.  When rice started being fried in oil, for example, this is when diabetes and obesity emerged.

The Power of Words

If disempowering self-talk happens, or if I hear disempowering thoughtforms directed at me, I will focus on the I Am Presence that goes beyond words. 

I Am Presence can be accessed at any time, regardless of being attacked or not being attacked.  

There are many experiences that cannot be labeled with words. 

Words need to be used primarily for balancing and self-empowerment purposes.  This doesn't mean that words cannot be used to call matters out though, because calling something out can be a form of self-empowerment. 

Regarding online interactions, someone chooses whether or not to become upset by the words of another.  In comments, no one can harm another with their words, unless this is allowed by the other individual.  I repeat, no one can be hurt by the words of another unless this is CHOSEN to be ALLOWED.  Being triggered is a CHOICE.  From past interactions, I owe nothing to anyone else, and no one else owes anything to myself.  I choose not to limit myself to past online dramas.

Regardless of being defined as good or evil, as some put it, it's important to go beyond the limitations of being defined as good or evil.  This doesn't mean that abuse is acceptable, but many times people are too hard on themselves, believing themselves to be evil when they are not.

The real self is the undefined I Am Presence that goes beyond all words.  Words can, however, be powerful tools to disentangle the undefined self from limitation.

Examples of self-empowering words:  

"I don't care what anyone thinks of me.  I am present beyond words."  

"I am balanced and in harmony with my environment."

When a disempowering thought is sent to oneself, reply, "I am not that thought, and I return that thought to the sender."

"I don't compare myself to others.  The real self is beyond the limitation of comparisons to others." 

When a disempowering feeling emerges, reply, "I am beyond all disempowering feelings."

When something doesn't go my way but I can't do anything about it, reply, "It just is.  I let this go."

"I free myself from anything disempowering from the past.  I am undefined, beyond space and time." 

(People can use these word combinations, and/or make their own if they feel guided.)

Prove Me Wrong (Updated Twice)

2012portal and the Light Forces are critical of Russia, but I understand why Russia is taking action.  There's a recent video found by Hal Turner that explains quite a bit:

https://htrs-special.s3.us-west-2.amazonaws.com/The-Truth-About-Russia-Ukraine-War.mp4

The Light Forces expecting Russia to just sit back and allow Ukraine to become a nuclear threat to them is completely ridiculous.  

Did the Light Forces stop Covid and the resulting horrific abuse from the vax campaign?  No.  Why would Russia expect the Light Forces to protect their country then?  The Light Forces were never able to do anything tangible for humanity on the planet surface.  Russia is simply doing what it must do. 

No, I don't want China ruling the world.  But no, I don't want the WEF to keep their cabal stronghold in Ukraine either, and the cabal in the US need to be removed from power, and it should be painfully obvious by now that the Light Forces (and Underground Resistance) won't be the ones to get the job done.

Unless there's some intel from 2012portal that shows how I'm wrong, I'm going to leave this post up.  (It's a near certainty that this post will remain.) 

14 months after the Divine Intervention Activation, the message is very clear:  The surface population is on its own. 

I don't want to be right.  I'd love to be wrong, but reality keeps proving me right.

Update with some closing thoughts:  

Looking back, it was stated by 2012portal on April 22, 2013:

"The Light forces had a plan to trigger the Event in 2012 inside one of the Windows of Opportunity. That would require conscious cooperation and a degree of unity inside the Liberation movement on the surface of the planet. As you all know, that unity did not manifest and in addition to that, certain key individuals made wrong decisions in crucial moments, as it often happens within the surface population.

The Light forces beyond the surface of the planet have thus chosen a more waterproof approach that does not rely so much on the surface population.  They are removing obstacles one after the other until the situation in ripe for the Event to occur. This approach takes longer, but it is much more certain to be successful."

http://2012portal.blogspot.com/2013/04/short-situation-update-many-people-are.html

It was implied that with or without the unity and cooperation of the surface population, there will be planetary liberation.  Why then would 2012portal several years later go on and on about "key lightworkers" messing everything up?  Why would the Light Forces also place so much blame on the Russian Generals?  Pointing the finger like this after basically saying "We can mostly do this ourselves" does not bode well at all. 

I've done more than my part to participate over the years.  I've gone 'above the call of duty' to support the meditations, especially the End of Coronavirus Meditation and Divine Intervention Meditation.  But I will not be guilt-tripped or manipulated in other ways to continue with this when the cognitive dissonance reaches a certain threshold, and that threshold has already been far exceeded.

2nd Update:

The latest post confirms the black holes I've been seeing as pitch black dots though:

http://2012portal.blogspot.com/2023/02/situation-update-and-cobra-ascension.html

So, maybe I'll do some more Lightwork, maybe not.  No one ever knows what I'll do.  I prefer to be unpredictable.

It Just Is

Anymore, I just don't have it within me to be positive.  I've seen too much abuse and have been abused too much. 

I do, however, have it in me to be neutral.  I can harmonize with my environment in a neutral state, beyond the duality of Light vs. Dark.  Then, ironically, equilibrium and a positive state can come forth naturally.  Yet, there is no 'reaching' for anything.  There is no more trying to 'hold the light.'  Such ideas are artificial.

I just am.  Reality just is.  An adept I used to know said it well:

https://youtu.be/aWPyjOvLVfs

It is possible that God/Source is not centered around humanity.  There are many other types of lifeforms that can supersede humanity.  Perhaps Source has other plans that do not include humanity.  Again, this is stated as a possibility.  As always, time will tell.

The Latest Attempt On My Life (Warning: A Bit Graphic and 'TMI'), and The Cosmic Forces

With me at least, the attempts on my life are 2 main ways:

1. Using my metaphysical abilities against me, putting dangerous ideas into my mind, primarily in the realm of diet and health protocols.

2. Severe attacks in the dreamstate.

The latest attempt was the first way.  I got the idea to eat primarily cashews and peanut butter to get my fats in.  This caused a very close call of having diverticulitis.  I was getting very tired and was dizzy when standing up.  I then had to 'take a dump,' and I knew it was a big one.  The dump was so huge and painful that my body started convulsing and I nearly lost consciousness.  This was after using an enema.  

If I had continued eating nuts for fats, this would have surely caused me to either die, or wish I was dead from the medical bills from having to go to the emergency room.  

(I was also drinking aloe vera juice, which made the problem worse.  It's interesting how specific combinations conveniently happen to attempt to cause my demise.  This is definitely not the first time something like this has happened.)

The more war energy on the planet, the more my primal nature takes over.  Also, the closer I come to death, the more primal.  This latest bout was the most severe I've ever had.  The eating of so many nuts and near miss with diverticulitis must have really amplified it.  

I heard the thoughtform earlier, "You must die."  I've also been seeing thoughtforms as pitch black dots.

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Regarding the latest from Siris King, he states that if a human becomes too powerful, the dark brotherhood comes and kills them.  It's also stated that cosmic forces conclude that humanity has to evolve on its own and won't receive and special help.  I have this to say:

The cosmic forces say there won't be any extra help, that humanity has to evolve on their own, but if someone becomes too powerful the dark brotherhood kills them.  No fair.

Health Foods Are A Dangerous Scam (Updated )

I kept wondering why certain issues have been coming up, and big time.  I've been going gluten free, with the only source of starch being quinoa.  This has been an absolute disaster.  I would eat the quinoa, and I would get hungry and unstable afterward.  

Quinoa is extremely toxic, even if rinsed.  The saponins even damage the metabolism.  I've been through such intense hell over the last few days to the point of considering suicide, and now I know why. 

https://carnivoreaurelius.com/saponins/

Update discussing plant foods and the microbiome:

Fruits and vegetables have these toxins as well.

In the distant past, humans had much stronger microbiomes/guts and could handle plant toxins.  In modern times though, humanity has very weak microbiomes (to a large extent - there are of course exceptions).  This is why people who go on the carnivore diet get such positive results, because they are no longer eating plant toxins that mostly can't be handled anymore.

It's not that the carnivore diet is the healthiest diet of all time.  It's just that for a species that has a very weak, non-diverse microbiome, avoiding all plant toxins is less harmful.

(Ironically, refined bread is less harmful than quinoa, because many of the plant toxins are processed out of the wheat!) 

In the distant past, sure, "eat your fruits and vegetables" was sound advice.  Given humanity's current weakened state though, it's no longer sound advice.

Some say that the adversity of ingesting plant toxins strengthens the microbiome, but I've tried this, and the same negative results occur every time - there is never any improvement.  This is also the case with others I've researched who went vegan for several months, but still felt terrible when eating plant foods - their microbiomes did not get stronger from the adversity even after a long period of time.

Just Like Clockwork (Updated)

Update on 02/18: Now I'm reading that the Ohio train derailment is being blown out of proportion for clicks. 🙄 I'll leave this up though, because it is still just like clockwork.

I hear news about the cabal losing power and being brought to justice, but there is strong evidence that the cabal are still very much in power.  

A film was made about the train derailment in Ohio not long before it happened:

https://www.atlasofwonders.com/2022/12/where-was-white-noise-filmed.html

I watched this film a while back, and it definitely showed what was being planned.

If the cabal can keep telling people what they are going to do in films before they manifest it, then how exactly have they lost power?  

The plandemic was in movies and video games before it happened:

https://youtu.be/FQPQsUiaaEc

https://youtu.be/4sYSyuuLk5g 

https://youtu.be/8lSNNyHzmc4

And of course there are references to 9/11 before it happened:

https://youtu.be/Tz6Tf5bs6po

The disaster in Ohio is said to be killing animals on a mass scale and making people really sick for up to a 200 mile radius.  People are evacuating, and I wonder how long they will survive after being exposed.  This could turn out to be a mass murder event.  It's said to be the biggest environmental disaster in US history, and a film was made about it, that was primarily filmed in Ohio as well, just weeks before it happened.

So yeah, I'll hear about all this wonderful progress being made, but once again, reality does something else, with that something else being the cabal manifesting their plans, just like clockwork. 

I would love to be proven wrong.  The Light Forces are more than welcome to do so.

Are You Listening?

Over the past few days, my back has been twitching almost nonstop.  It was quite annoying and was interrupting my sleep.  So, I focused on finding out why.  The answer came to me:  I have been eating 2 hard boiled eggs every day for the past 2 weeks.  The choline from the yolks made my acetylcholine levels go too high.  One of the symptoms of too high acetylcholine levels is muscle spasms/twitching.  I also would get flushing at times, which is another symptom:

https://men-elite.com/2020/06/26/the-high-acetylcholine-syndrome/

(I'm not saying never eat eggs of course.)

Since no longer eating eggs for a while, the twitching has stopped.  How did I learn that this was the cause?  I silenced my mind and I listened.

What was the cause of my heart problems when jogging?  There are three causes.  First, I wasn't breathing correctly.  I was breathing through my mouth when jogging.  Mouth breathing is very unhealthy.  The physical and mental state of humanity would be off-the-charts healthy if people knew how to breathe:

The Hindu-Yogi Science of Breath (1903) by Yogi Ramacharaka

https://youtu.be/V72L6RH3OD8  

Second, I was jogging in a city full of cars.  The mouth breathing combined with breathing in toxic fumes from the busy city was very compromising.  Third, I jogged too much:

https://cellaxys.com/running-can-be-more-dangerous-than-smoking-heres-how-to-prevent-jogging-injuries/

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4625209/ 

I silenced my mind and listened, so I learned the reasons why my jogging caused me to have heart problems.

Did you know that you can turn water into medicine just by speaking to it?  Here's a book on that:

 

(Sorry - this one cannot be found for free as an audiobook.)

I silenced my mind and listened to someone else's suggestion, and learned about the true healing power of water.

I'm still avoiding anything that tastes sweet.  This includes avoiding stevia and the like.  I silenced my mind and listened, and found that the sweet stuff is what causes me great imbalance.  I will instead eat bitters maybe a couple times a day.  However, I will try eating 1/2 of a small apple every other day.  Maybe that would be ok. 

Not all knowledge can be found in books.  There is knowledge that has never been written in a book.  Beyond reading books, it's possible to tap into knowledge by listening.  I suggest a combination - read books to gain knowledge, but also develop the art of listening.

Update: Very Useful Information on the Dreamstate Has Been Found

I gravitated information regarding the dreamstate from this book:

Out of This World by Neville Goddard

https://youtu.be/aO_XltYHGWc

The information applies to the deeply relaxed state, the hypnotic state, and the dreamstate.  In such states, the mind can become a 'manifestation machine.' 

It's extremely important to stop the influence of negative dreams to prevent them from manifesting in 3D.  This is kind of what I was doing when I became so upset about the negative dreams.  In my own way, I was negating the unwanted dreamstate scenarios.

The above book allowed me to have a much more constructive approach to the dreamstate.  Matters that previously didn't make sense, now make sense.  

From what I presently know, the 3 mentioned states are useful for:

- Precognition to be able to prepare for and even change the future.

- Seeing into the subconscious.

- Seeing which kinds of entities and influences are present.

- When combined with intentional imagination, creates desired manifestations to later be experienced in 3D. 

Furthermore regarding the dreamstate, when something negative happens in a dream, it's of course troublesome, but it can still be 'shaken off.'  The real damage is done when something negative manifests in 3D.  For example, I could have a dream about someone putting a gun to my head, but if someone had a gun to my head in waking 3D life, this would be traumatizing for quite some time (assuming I survived).  The real damage is done when it manifests in 3D.  This also applies to the other side of the spectrum, as something positive/beneficial. 

As a final note, the mentioning of self-transformation in the book is indeed noteworthy.

The Most Undervalued and Disrespected Dimension of All, and In All Fairness

If dreams want to warn me about something to be careful about or avoid in the future in 3D, that's fine.  If dreams want to let me experience realms like 5D and above, that's fine.  But if dreams are just a bunch of neurotic stupid bullshit, I will completely disregard them, because they have zero value.  Here's the latest bullshit from my dreamstate:

A bunch of druggies are driving my car and making me do drugs in my car, and then the druggies take over the house I grew up in, and refuse to go away, armed with guns. 

Then I wake up in the morning, and guess where my feet go?  The floor.  Guess what dimension the floor is in?  Is it 4D?  5D?  Nope!  It's...(drum roll please)... 3D!

What does the above dream have to do with anything?  What validity does it have?  Should I get into dream interpretation?  Not thanks.  

So many people get into metaphysics but they don't even have a life in 3D.  That's why metaphysics feels so fake, because it disregards the world we all live our lives in.  3D keeps getting thrown in the trash can.  

Any metaphysics that disregards 3D is just something to make people go insane, and this has been made quite evident in the 'spiritual community.'  

The previously mentioned ascension experience I had was awesome, but I came back here. 

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Regarding the fallen state of humanity, there are those who believe that humanity should be on its own.  Yet, humanity is an extremely young race by cosmic terms, and humanity didn't get messed up on its own.  

The cosmic forces need to remove the negative interference so that humanity has a fair chance to get out of its fallen state.  If the negative interference is removed and humanity still remains in a fallen state, then ok, then it's on humanity.  But obviously the negative interference hasn't been removed, so I don't put all the blame on humanity.  Humanity wasn't born messed up - humanity had a lot of help.  

I understand that some adversity can assist with evolution, but with the ancients (from the qlippoth), the dark brotherhood, the satanic jinn and other negative jinn, the negative factions of the annunaki, and all the others who absolutely hate humanity and want humanity to fail... there's a difference between healthy adversity and outright unfairness.  

God forbid anything actually be fair. 😏🙄

Addressing Imbalance

When 2012portal deals with "clearing the chimera," these are beings from the tree of death, or qlippoth.  Lighworkers basically get thrown straight into the qlippoth when working with 2012portal.  Entities from the qlippoth are the most unstable in existence.  Occultists such as Aleister Crowley worked with the qlippoth in his later years, and this drove him insane.  

Therefore, understandably, Lightworkers are not stable.  It's not 'personal character flaws' that make Lightworkers unstable.  It's because of being thrown into the qlippoth.  Then, Light is brought through, which is great, but the number of beings and entities from the qlippoth, and the extreme instability of the qlippoth - this becomes an overwhelming force.  

2012portal stated quite some time ago that trillions upon trillions of negative entities were brought down to a much smaller number, and I am seeing some amount of progress with some entities being cleared, but the qlippoth has not been cleared.  I venture to say that the qlippoth still has trillions upon trillions of entities.  Also, even the most advanced adepts, who have been balancing themselves with great discipline for several decades, still get thrown off course by the qlippoth if they decide to confront it.

2012portal rarely has meditations to take on beings from the qlippoth and/or chimera.  Most of the welovemassmeditation meditations are focused on bringing the Light through in various ways.  However, by association, the qlippoth becomes a major force that Lightworkers come into contact with, knowingly or unknowingly.  I myself was foolish in previously making a meditation to clear the chimera.  I am also responsible for harming Lightworkers in this way.  My intentions were good, but good intentions result in a true nightmare when there are essential missing pieces of the puzzle.

So, why the earthquake?  My take:  Imbalance.  Why the imbalance?  It's the qlippoth, and the negative forces who work with qlippoth, and the dark brotherhood that is still in power.  Or, it could even be naturally occurring, but if there is a strong earthquake, this means the planet is imbalanced because humans are imbalanced, so Earth has an earthquake to balance itself out.  But again, why the imbalance?  Do you see how this is all connected?

Obviously the qlippoth is still a problem because it has not been cleared by the Light Forces.  We're also talking about entities such as molech and so forth - none of which have been cleared.  Just this morning in the visionstate I saw being from the qlippoth.  The term 'fugly' to describe this being would be an understatement.

It's important for Lightworkers to understand the cause-and-effect reasons behind why things are the way they are.  Lightworkers are not being told critical information, and then they expect the world to be 'sunshine and rainbows,' which creates even more imbalance when the world does the exact opposite.  

My suggestion, take or leave, would be for Lightworkers to, rather than focus on clearing such entities, instead seal them off into their realm, where they belong.  I don't know the specifics on how to do this, but perhaps the change in focus will help.  At any rate, the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results.  Combine doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results with being thrown into the qlippoth, and oh yes indeed, everything makes perfect sense.  (I'm not saying to avoid the meditation to help the people from the earthquake though.  These people desperately need help.  Also, any mediation that helps to create balance definitely helps.  It's just something to maybe keep in mind.)

As a sidenote, to help get more balanced, cut out simple sugar intake - no more of anything that tastes sweet - this also means no fruit.  At least in my experience, for some reason the sweet stuff amplifies the pre-existing imbalance from the qlippoth.  I'm now down to less than 7g of simple sugar per day.  (Simple sugar is not to be confused with starch.  Starch by itself does not have the sweet stuff, or fructose.  Unsweetened dairy does not have fructose.  Do the amount of carbs that work best, but avoid the sweet carbs, and read food labels.)

My Ascension Experience, and a Question

Around 2011 in the dreamstate, I had 2 experiences I can never forget.   First one - I went to a realm where there were planets, but there was no void in space - the space was made of Light.  Second one - I was taken up in a golden vortex with singing voices.  The realm I went to had structures made of pulsing Light.  My body was pure energy a few seconds after waking up.  This one made everything in 3D seem like nothing at all.   I can't remember how it felt though because the 3D mind is incapable of knowing this.   It definitely felt like some kind of ascension.  I didn't do anything to initiate this - it was spontaneous.  Crazy as it sounds, the metal heater in my room was somehow connected to the portal.

I wonder, is this what it's like to be human?

https://youtu.be/PIIWNXBxLzs

How to Know What's Real, and an Update on Russia

The best way I know of to deal with a hyper-polarized 'reality' is to take opposite extremes, and draw a line somewhere down the middle.  Here are a couple examples:

In the US, the Left claims that racism is systemic, while the Right claims that vastly, no one is racist anymore, with the exception of the KKK.  However, I know of towns that are racist - not the fake projected kind from the Left, but real racism.  The middle is: 

The Left takes it too far.  Racism is not "systemic."  However, the Right also goes too far in saying that only the KKK is racist.  Racism is not as bad as the Left claims, but not as nonexistent as the right claims either.  It's somewhere in between.

Another example:

Regarding the planetary situation, there are people who claim that everything is gloom and doom, with negative forces having a stranglehold over Earth.  To these people, everything that happens is from the manipulation of the negative forces - all is hopeless.  Then, there are people who believe that Earth is being liberated at an exponential rate (such as NESARA material and so forth), with everything being 'rainbows and unicorns.'  The middle is:

The 'rainbows and unicorns' perspective is definitely out of touch with reality, but also, Earth is not a hopeless dystopia doomed to absolute subjugation by negative forces.  It's somewhere in between.

We've all heard that "The truth is somewhere in the middle," and although this has become a cliche phrase, it's true.  

Bringing opposite extremes into a midway conclusion is a powerful tool for knowing what's real.

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Furthermore regarding what's real, 2012portal says neither side will win, but Russia is using technology far superior to anything from the West:

https://youtu.be/JwYR8EdUJgs

This is why it's important not to give reality away to outside authority figures.  It's essential to know what's real for oneself.

Updated with Final Thoughts: The End of Insanity

The vast majority of my dreamstate 'experiences' are either pointless or negative.  I won't go into the graphic details on the negative ones anymore.  I'll just say that it's reached a level where I will be disregarding the dreamstate entirely.  Positive dreams (which are extremely rare for me) will not be paid attention to either.  It's just not worth it anymore.  The dreamstate has become a torture chamber for my mind, so it's time to make my main focus the here and now in the physical.

The only purpose I can see for the dreamstate becoming a torture chamber is to get me to realize how abusive the mind can be, so that I can go beyond this.  With all the chaos 'elsewhere,' the here and now in my immediate physical environment is all that remains that is calm and stable.

If I had super positive dreams would I be saying this?  Probably not.  However, the astral, or 4D, is the real maya, or illusion.  To no longer be bound by 4D is to go beyond the insanity of the mind.  

Not all of the mind is insanity, and the mind is an important tool.  Only the parts of the mind that are viable shall be kept.  Abusive aspects have no place in creation.  It's the abusive aspects that cause unimaginable suffering.  The abusive aspects must be purged.  Therefore, the entire dreamstate must be purged (at least in my case), because it has become pure chaos and insanity.  This doesn't mean I'm a 'cat being declawed' though.  One can be aware of abuse and be prepared for anything, but from a standpoint of no longer being tormented.  But yes, the fate of abuse is to permanently end.

Update: Maybe I should be grateful for the torment, because if I had good dreams I'd probably get stuck in 4D, creating an artificial heaven in the afterlife.  Actually, there's an artificial heaven one can create, but one can also create an artificial hell.  The reality beyond both is something the mind does not create.  The reality beyond both is 5D.  What 3D and 5D have in common is independent structure, but maybe 5D's structure is permanent, not being subject to decay, unlike 3D.

Ultimately, everything is mind, but not everything is human mind.  4D is the mind-world of humans (among others as well but that's a subject for another time), being subject to the heavens and hells of the human psyche.  5D is the mind-world of the elementals, and their world is very structured and always maintained, never faulting.

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On another note, I did a search for "Starlight432," and this is what came up at the top of the list:

https://www.deviantart.com/starlight432/gallery

This was maybe the cabal doing a joke on the name.  No, I don't do "I love Pony" drawings.

In the X-files series, Operation Starlight was mentioned as a project to transmute matter into light.  The name Starlight was just something that sounded good at the time though.  I've actually grown weary of the name.   

The Perfect Example of Someone Manipulated by Jinn? (Updated)

At the timestamp here,

https://youtu.be/rG_cMDm7U1A?t=1323

he states, "Who is the one person really in charge of everything, making sure everything happened?  The annunaki - the ruling annunaki families.  The ones here in America, he's gotta go because he's gonna tell the world that we exist and everything else."

As was stated before, the jinn are a huge part of Et disinformation.  The jinn do this in order to conceal their identity.  "He's gotta go because he's gonna tell the world that we exist and everything else."  Jay Essex could be manipulated by the jinn, and the jinn are coming through and saying this through Jay without him even realizing it, as a slip-up.

I could be incorrect, and Jay Essex is the real deal, and when he gets out of his body he's going to do all the things he says he going to do.  There's no denying that Jay has some serious abilities.  However, Jay looks like he's healthier compared with a few months ago.  He's lost weight.  And, he's been saying he's going to get out of his body for nearly a decade now.  So, I'm going to approach this from the previously suggested angle, asking the question, "Is this source of information a manipulation from the jinn?"

Even though I'm trying to conceal my identity, I'm sure I'm going to take some serious metaphysical hits for this.  The jinn do not like being exposed like this, if that's what's happening here.

I wonder who the annunaki from the US is? 

Annunaki vs. jinn?  My oh my... 

Update: SK says the Annunaki are the slaves of hybrid Jinn.  Makes sense.