An Update
There isn't much I've been having on the mind to say lately. I've been noticing self-repeating thought-patterns that go nowhere. It has all become very predictable. Therefore, I'm relying more on feeling than on thought. There are some things I will say about the recent black alert (now it's down to red) and grid ratio failure though. Close to the same time as the black alert and grid ratio failure, I had the most intense stinging on my left elbow I've ever had. Then my upper body began stinging all over. Also, I'm the one who wanted to die, and I was hoping I wouldn't wake up after going to bed on the night of the 25th. I was ready to drop this body because of being so sick and tired of the 'daily grind' and still not feeling all that well. I felt very strongly that my time had come to leave the physical behind. I've never wanted to die so badly. This was even reflected in the comments section with some posting that someone had died....