The Cons of Meditation (Updated)

There is a massive level of promotion of the benefits of meditation, but could there also be detrimental effects? 

This video goes into a much less heard perspective of meditation, which is actually being trolled and silenced by the spiritual community.  This is a must-see for anyone who wants to know the entire spectrum of the effects of meditation:

"Why do so many meditators want to Kill this Neuroscientist?" 

https://youtu.be/KpZBENXzutM

I'm not saying people should stop meditating if they feel it's beneficial to themselves and/or to the world.  2012 Portal meditations can help clear subquantum anomaly and liberate the planet.  But definitely, gurus and spiritual teachers are suppressing information on a mass scale.

The website the interviewee mentioned for "meditators in distress" is:

https://www.cheetahhouse.org/

Update 2/1:

Reps are angry about the Cobra conference.  Saw them in the dreamstate.  One was in a human body.  Then I saw a really angry dragon.  Must be a sign that the conference is very much needed in the US.  I hope it goes well!

Sometimes It's Ok To Be Aggressive

Eckhart Tolle would say that it's to be unconscious to get upset with one's mind, and that it's just the egoic mind when getting upset with one's mind, but I'm finding that there are times when it's better to take a more aggressive approach.  Telling my mind to shut up is actually quite liberating.  Sometimes there's just no other way to get it to stop being so noisy and stupid.  I'm also finding that it's liberating to make fun of my mind.  

(Eckhart would say that it's identification with the mind to call it "my mind," but I'm not sure how else to state this.)

Pretty much, my mind has become a freak show.  The minds of others who secretly judge me who have been spying on me (unrelated to Lightworkers) have also pretty much become a freak show, so it's a freak show over a freak show that's happening.  I'm not taking their minds seriously either - I often make fun of their thoughts about me.

Yeah, I'm really messed up, but I'm not judging my real self, because I know all this 'egoic mind stuff' is not the real me, so ultimately, I'm not really messed up.  It's just a matter of the messed up stuff coming to the surface so it can be dissolved.  I don't have to entertain noise and stupidity for that to happen.  No matter what, it dissolves, and there is an end to this, I just know it!  If others can't see that, screw them.  

Nothing wrong with having some aggression every now and then.  Nothing wrong with that at all.

The Power of I Am Presence

Eckhart Tolle stated in one of his many lectures that one's presence is far more intelligent than thoughts.  He said that in fact, one's presence is one's source of intelligence.  

One's presence, or I Am Presence, is the you that is experiencing you.  When mental noise ceases, one's I Am Presence can shift from being in the background to being in the foreground.  

Experiences that cannot be defined with words may be part of the intelligence of I Am Presence.  Connecting with the essence of plant life and other environments can be experienced as undefined. 

I extrapolate that I Am Presence is among the highest sources of Divine Power.  I Am Presence combined with the Violet Flame is particularly powerful.  Perhaps Saint Germain would agree.

Personal observation:  My own battle against the dark forces has been a battle over my I Am Presence.  The dark forces wish to suppress my I Am Presence through a multitude of energetic attacks.  I become present beyond thought, which heals and empowers me.  Then more attacks ensue, and so on.    

(I also of course utilize Lightwork, which is strengthened by I Am Presence, and it's possible to do Lightwork without doing an official meditation or giving any outward signs.  One can do Lightwork at any time, during any activity.  Of course, official meditations are great too.) 

Having a strong scientific side is also important.  Often times mainstream science is not real science - this is definitely true in regards to diet.  Many so-called 'healthy foods' are actually toxic. 

Taking a Stand, and Going Beyond Thought

I'm glad to see that finally, there is a coordinated effort to go up against the cabal in the United States.  I'm not political, but yes, the border is being exploited for drug trafficking, human trafficking, and for bringing dangerous criminals into the US.  It's possible that the cabal want a civil war in the US, but this doesn't feel like it's cabal-orchestrated.  Something had to give.  Enough is enough.  I'm excited to see what happens next with this!

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It's important to go into presence beyond all thought:

https://youtu.be/P_0ICsolRcU

Eckhart Tolle's works are not an end-all.  There's no such thing.  However, 'hitting the reset button' allows one to have a much more effective and functional mind when in use.  Negative thought-patterns can be weakened and broken up when going into a state of presence beyond all thought spontaneously throughout the day, even if it's only for a few seconds.  Brief intervals of presence beyond thought can be accessed in many ways:

- Focusing on 1 or more breaths with presence beyond thoughts.

- Focusing on one's body, or parts of one's body with presence beyond thoughts.

- Focusing on an object with presence beyond thoughts.

- Focusing on one's environment with presence beyond thoughts.

- Focusing on the universe with presence beyond thoughts.

- Focusing on the space between physical matter with presence beyond thoughts.

- Focusing on a 'now moment' from memory that was beyond all thought with presence beyond thoughts.

- Focusing on a daily task with presence beyond thoughts.

- Listening to high quality music with presence beyond thoughts.

- Focusing on physical movements with presence beyond thoughts.

- When eating, focusing on the experience of eating with presence beyond thoughts.

- Combinations of the above.  (Example: focusing on one's body and environment at the same time with presence beyond thoughts.)

- Other ways of access one can come up with that I haven't mentioned here.

By going beyond thought, it can become easier to access constructive and beneficial thoughts upon returning back to thinking. 

On a personal note, I either soar amongst the skies, or sink into oblivion.  It's being made very clear to me in some very 'not-so-nice ways' that the days of limbo are over.     

The Importance of Versatility

I was able to be very free from the negative aspects of the mind when putting space between myself (I Am Presence) and negative programming.  However, I did this exclusively, and ceased to do work with the Violet Flame and other Lightwork.  This left me more vulnerable to attacks. 

It's a disadvantageous human tendency to want to do all of one thing or all of another thing.  Versatility is the solution.  Versatility is key.  

(Is this a contradiction to a previous post about the merits of singularizing focus?  Yes and no.  Versatility can be a useful strategy within singularized focus.)

Disentanglement from negative programming and bringing Light through - very powerful.

If It Helps, It Helps

Some say he's "too successful," and thus should not be listened to, but I disagree.  If what he says helps, I listen.  And indeed, what he says helps.

Eckhart Tolle - Enjoying Every Moment - Full Movie 

Beautiful Paintings of Nature - A Compilation

In addition to real life nature, artwork of nature is also quite beautiful:

Sorry, I Need a Break

I need to take a step back and go into 'watcher mode,' detaching from the mind, being the witness of the mind.  By "mind" I mean thoughts and emotions.  The reason for this is because I'm traumatized over the accident that could have killed me if circumstances were slightly different (there's also the possibility of this accident harming me financially), and because my mind is a mess, and because the world is a mess.  

Regarding the world, I'm sad about what happened to Gonzalo Lira, who was tortured for months in prison before recently dying.  I'm sad that I live in a country who's government openly supports the genocide of Palestinians.  I read some testimony of what's going on in Ukraine on Hal Turner's website with men and young men being kidnapped and being forced to fight in the war where they are basically slaughtered - this too saddens me.  There are wars taking place on so many fronts that just being aware of this has become a source of trauma.  

The economic and political climate in the US and world - there's another mess.  And, oh yeah - energetic attacks continue.

I'm not going to be focused on improvements in the world.  I'm giving up on that, because the wars continue without any drastic intervention.  People keep getting abused and killed.  I also don't believe in waiting until a couple weeks before the Event to see major breakthroughs in the world.  I don't resonate with that at all.  That mentality may be one of the reasons why the world is in the mess it's in.   

I needed to let all that out before saying:

I postponed the inevitable further fracturing and collapse of my consciousness until after Pluto entered Aquarius.  Now though, I really need to detach and let go, keeping it simple.  I can step outside my collapsing consciousness so I don't 'sink with the sinking ship.'  I need to be in the present moment, as the I Am Presence that is outside of thoughts and emotions, which includes expectations of what 'should be.'  I can wipe everything clean, harmonizing with my physical body and environment.  

In summary, right now I need a major break.  I guess I'm human after all, and there's only so much I can stand.  When I'm stabilized enough, maybe I can come back and support various efforts.  Maybe February will bring great progress with various clearings.

In the meantime, I looked up some nice artwork of nature.  I will upload the paintings as the featured post.

Archon Freaking Out, An Accident, and The Upcoming Meditation

Last night in the dreamstate, I had some interesting awareness come through that cannot be explained in words, followed by the most extreme screeching in my head that was physically experienced as I woke up.  It was like having my brain being put into a blender.  This was the most extreme 'fringe experience' I've ever had because it was so intense and loud.  The archon doing this may have been the grey that's been harassing me for over 10 years.  Perhaps the archon matrix is finally being dissolved. 

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Today I got into an accident that could have easily killed me if circumstances had been slightly different.  I'm still a bit shaken up by it, but I'm physically unharmed.  

To say that things are being 'laid on thick' would be an understatement.  It must be the dark forces panicking over Pluto entering Aquarius.  I'm going to focus on staying calm and will not be traveling anywhere until after the 21st. 

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I figured Cobra would update with the Welovemassmeditation link for the upcoming meditation, and he may still do so in the next couple days.  Either way, all the information for the Pluto entering Aquarius meditation on January 20th/21st is here:

https://www.welovemassmeditation.com/2024/01/meditation-for-pluto-entering-aquarius-on-january-21st-at-1250-am-utc.html

Let's Go!

Time's Almost Up

Tick Tock, Tick Tock

🙂

Health and Wellness is Plagued with Disinformation

Someone wanted to sound smart when they said it's a vested corporate interest to claim that breakfast is the most important meal of the day.  Yet, the evidence, and my personal experience, shows that breakfast is indeed the most important meal of the day.

Through years of going down dead end roads, alas, I conclude that almost all health information is disinformation.  Low carb is a scam.  Veganism is a scam.  Intermittent fasting is a scam.  Oh, and Dr. Berg - I can't stand that guy!  (He's a member of the low carb cult.)

This one is the closest I've found to being truly scientific:

https://youtu.be/G3-EW7nWCbU

(I had to sift through many fad health videos that promoted fasting when typing "fasting is a scam" in the searchbar to find the above video.  Oh how far have we fallen when even trying to find a counterpoint to something, only mostly promotional videos pop up for the opposite!)

I found it interesting from the above video that the alleged benefits of autophagy only happen after a few days of fasting.  16 hours of fasting doesn't even come close to enough time to activate autophagy.  Many claim that intermittent fasting is the holy grail of health, but it's always been a disaster for me when I tried it.

Findings regarding exercise:

- Walking 45 minutes per day puts my body and mind into a state of inflammation, causing heart palpitations and depression.  (My previous post when I was walking between 5,000 to 10,000 steps per day yielded disastrous results.)  Therefore, only a 15 minute walk will be done, and not every day.

- Jogging causes even more severe physical and mental inflammation than a 45 minute walk.

- Sprinting 30 seconds, even only once per day, causes drastic psycho-physiological problems. 

Pushups are beneficial, if not overdone.  I do one set of 25 in a row per day.

Weight lifting is beneficial, if not overdone.

This one is 'over-the-top' in his presentation, but what he says makes sense:

https://www.youtube.com/shorts/pMbk86vmCUs

Of course, some health information is individualized.  My body may very well be a 'mystery of science.'  But I've seen so many people fail with diet and exercise, I conclude that:

Real information regarding health has almost become like 'finding a needle in a haystack.'  Of course that's what the dark forces want.  When people don't have accurate information regarding health, people are more likely to do the wrong things and become unhealthy, and unhealthy people are rendered powerless - both physically and mentally.

The dark forces did a fantastic job screwing up real science.  It takes a special kind of tenacity and an 'iron fist' to get to the real deal.  As the clearing continues, I look forward to the reversal of the inversion of science. 

Rest in Peace, Gonzalo Lira

Gonzalo Lira has died in prison.

No one should be tortured and murdered for exercising free speech. 

https://twitter.com/TuckerCarlson/status/1733581286256607619

I kept hoping he would make it.  He will be missed.

Embrace the Rainbow Light! (Updated)

At around 9.5 minutes in, Sarah Adams talks about the Rainbow Light:

https://youtu.be/H7tB48ViLAI?t=582

(The entire interview is well worth watching.)

I strongly feel that Earth is the most beautiful planet in the universe.  She needs love and healing to be free again. 

All the frequencies of the Rainbow can be accessed on Earth.  Her skies and oceans are blue.  Her plant life is green.  The sun gives white Light in her day, golden-yellow Light in her morning and late afternoon, and orange and red Light at her sunrise and sunset.  Her flowers have all the colors of the Rainbow, including pink and violet.

May the Rainbow Light Shine Through!

Update:

In this conference, Sarah explains matters in a very unique way, and discusses the purpose of Golden Light in the Q and A:

https://youtu.be/k2EYxBTYRR8

Perspective on what Sarah says about those who abuse power in the above video:

Many people in the world who are abusing their power do have a hurt child within them and would make much better decisions if they healed.  I don't know enough regarding the worst of the worst though, who are said to be destined for a restart in the GCS.  (I'm trying to fit this within the paradigm of 2012 Portal.)

Regarding Twin Flames

I often unite with nature and the sun as a replacement for a romantic partner.  This actually can be done to the extent that I start to believe I don't need a relationship with anyone else.  When I really put for the effort, I can feel a strong connection to Source that can bypass the desire for human relationships.

 

However, I also ask myself, why do I watch clips like these?

 

Love Will Find A Way

 

I know it's Disney (which is of course is a cabal-run company) and I could be made fun of, but yeah, I would watch this kind of material in High School and even later on in life, longing to be with my other half.  Therefore, I can't say I'm beyond the desire for a partner.  

 

Regarding twin flames:

 

The primary message of The Matrix Resurrections is the power of twin flames.  The reason twin flames have been kept apart is because their reunification would cause an end to 'the matrix.' 

 

Within the surface population, the ones who've been kept away from love the most are those most capable of liberating the planet.  Blocked from reunification by the dark forces, their power has been kept in check.  Time for that to change...

Go for a Walk! 😸

There are claims and testimonials that jogging is healthy, and there are claims and testimonials that jogging is unhealthy.  

I used to jog several hours per week.  This was too much jogging - it caused my body to go into a state of inflammation.

However, with walking, there are only positive health claims and testimonials.  The powerful health benefits of walking are both physical and mental.  

A youtube search of "Walking 10,000 steps per day" came up with several videos that further inspired me to stick with the recent decision to go on daily walks.

I calculated my walking, and so far, I'm walking about 6,000 steps per day.  It takes 1.5 to 2 hours to walk 10,000 steps, depending on walking speed.  Many say it takes them 1 hour and 45 minutes to walk 10,000 steps - this could be the average time for most walkers.

According to the above hyperlink, there are also benefits with less than 10,000 steps per day:

"By now, you’ve probably heard the 10,000 step goal thrown around, but should that number really be your goal every day? Turns out that fewer steps may have benefits.

A 2021 study published in JAMA Network Open found that for people ages 38 to 50, 7,000 steps was associated with a lower mortality rate. If 7,000 still seems steep for you right now, a 2019 study published in JAMA Internal Medicine found that in older women, just 4,400 steps a day lowered mortality rates, compared with less active women, who took 2,700 steps.

So if 10,000 steps is not feasible for you to reach today, remember that small gains still make a difference. “The reality is that every step counts and every mile matters,” says Shulman."

Regarding ATVOR

Personally, the duality between wanting to be one with nature, the planet, and the sun, and connecting to the ships above has been an issue.  The conflicting intel on Ets confused me quite a bit as well, and I developed trust issues.  However, the duality and trust issues are no longer so prevalent.  

Maybe I just don't care about the internal conflicts and ambivalence anymore.  Maybe it's possible to both be connected with nature and work with ATVOR.  

I was relaxing a little while ago and imagining how wonderful it would be to be on a star ship like in Star Trek, and then I felt some nice energies come through.  So I figured, why not pursue this more? 

"One important aspect of that new technology is ATVOR. It is a technology of pillar of light. It was first presented on the earth at the time of Atlantis as a simple pillar of light. It was greatly expanded to fit to the surface of the planet because there is too much anomaly here. So much more advance form of ATVOR have been used, and recently, they have a certain technological breakthrough. They have merged ATVOR and Mjolnir. Whenever you activate ATVOR, the light forces are using Mjolnir technology which removes subquantum and quantum anomaly."

https://prepareforchange-japan.blogspot.com/2023/11/chiang-mai-ascension-conference-day-2.html

The exercise with the sky blue Light to activate ATVOR is also mentioned in the conference.  

I was unable to find the exact words for the acronym.  

AshTar VORtex?   

It All Depends, and a Thoughtform Heard Earlier

There are different meditations people will be more strong with, and perhaps there are certain meditations that should be prioritized to meet specific needs.  For example, as shown in a previously mentioned video, someone's kundalini could rise up a bit, but then go back down, which causes imbalance.  Many Lightworkers also need more shielding from attacks - who doesn't these days?  Therefore, the Rainbow Flower of Life Sphere could be a primary focus.  The Rainbow Flower of Life provides shielding, harmonizes/balances kundalini, and helps to reverse inverted kundalini.   

There are many possibilities though.  Others may do better with the Violet Flame being a primary focus.  Others yet may do better focusing on all meditations equally. 

Meditations that go outside the scope of 2012 Portal can also help.  I really like accessing golden solar energies, so I sing A432 frequencies while looking at or imagining really nice scenery such as this:

 

 

The Light from doing this feels very warm and blissful.  Solar energies merging with Plant energies merging with Earth energies - this cannot be described with words.  This has to be experienced in one's own unique way(s).

Everyone has different strengths with what they access.  Some are strong with the Violet Flame, while others are strong with Pink Goddess Light.  Some are strong with both, or other combinations.  It's important to use intuition to do what feels best.  Energies come through as feelings, so one could ask, "What do my feelings guide me to do?"  In my own case in the past, I would ignore my feelings, making decisions more based on a sense of duty, which only proved to be detrimental.  It's important to meet one's own energetic needs.

If energetic needs are not met, and instead one self-sacrifices, this causes harm to the planetary situation, because self-harm equates to planetary harm.  Those who hurt others hurt themselves, and those who hurt themselves hurt others.  Those who meet their own energetic needs create a better world.  It's also true that the act of giving can help with one's own energetic needs and can be a win-win, but self-sacrifice, where significant harm is done to oneself, is a lose-lose scenario.  Forcing oneself to meditate when not feeling guided to over a several-year period could be considered as self-harm.  With such matters, it's far more easy than previously realized to damage consciousness.  Of course, no one forced anyone to do anything.  It's all based on free will.

The flip side of the above argument states that only through self-discipline and consistency can real progress be made.  "You go on runs on scheduled days.  If it rains, you still go on runs.  If it snows, you still go on runs."  Interchange "runs" with meditations:  "If you are feeling sick, you still do the meditations.  If you are being attacked and having a horrible day, you still do the meditations."  The most powerful positive occultists only gained ground through unwavering consistency.  So, now I'm uncertain which mentality is best.  I guess it all depends.  Sorry I could not have more clarity in this matter.  Still though:

What about those who don't meditate at all?  Those who don't feel guided to meditate are not bad people or lazy.  Everyone is at different degrees and priorities of evolution.  It's important to not judge or condemn anyone based on what they feel guided or not guided to do.  It's very good that not everyone is the same.  The microbiome illustrates this.  Everyone has a certain 'microbiome signature,' which is far more complex and unique than fingerprints.

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I heard the thoughtform, "We're really only at war with ourselves."  This statement would only be completely true if all the dark forces - both physical and nonphysical - were completely cleared, and all that remained was residual programming.  "You are your own worst enemy" and other similar statements are half-truths. 

(Updated) What I Saw and Heard in the Visionstate Regarding Why 2012 Portal Has No Monthly and Yearly Report

This post has been removed because I'm probably just being manipulated or my imagination is running away with me.  The only true part of it may be the sadness (in the form of sad piano music) the LF are experiencing over the escalations being made in an attempt to bring about WW3.

Thank you to Libra for pointing out that in the past, a monthly update has been delayed up to 9 days.

Update:

There is a massive amount of infiltration.  This just happened:

 

 

The infiltration is both online and in the astral.  I've never seen it at this level.  Could this be a final attempt from the dark forces before Pluto enters Aquarius on the 21st? 

Getting Out of Quicksand - Thank You for the Rope! 💖

I had some really positive support from a couple Lightworkers.  I'm feeling much better now, and can see why it's important to not always 'go at it alone.'  

Audenis stated:

Greetings, i personally started having incredibly strong depressive attacks from the DF, also to a point where i have thoughts most of the time to commit suicide, or that i am a really bad person that needs to be disintegrated into the central sun because of past actions etc. It started happening a lot lately, especially after participating in the latest divine intervention meditation. It's all just an attack, the Light forgives, redeems, does not judge. If you see yourself in that person's place, and you understand that if you were in that place what you might have caused (you know the whole ''we are all one, what you did onto another you have done onto yourself'' deal), simply ask for forgiveness, and that will be granted (because you realize where your actions were wrong, forgiving yourself means being forgiven by the whole/one/source etc. because all of us are an aspect of the one). 

This is just another attack, same is happening with me. Only the dark forces want you to stay in the guilty mindset because then your third chakra aka your willpower gets blocked and you become a slave to them, and now suddenly you're stuck in this ''i have to redeem myself and beg for forgiveness'' christian cult bs mindset, instead of taking positive steps towards planetary liberation and healing yourself. Move on with your life and your work, NONE of us here are saints, we ALL have done something bad because of our injuries, you know the whole ''trolley problem'' etc. This is Earth. Things are not black and white.

If you have done negative actions or have negative thoughts, the Light offers healing and MORE love, not judgement like this. Actions speak louder than words do, this is a critical moment in history and it's definitely the dark forces trying to keep you down from doing what you're supposed to be doing, because light empowers and builds you up, dark diminishes and destroys, all of this is evident in the ''dream'' you have received, very obvious who's who. Move on and keep fighting brother/sister!  

https://2012portal.blogspot.com/2015/03/forgiveness.html

Also from some Cobra interview:

Richard – How can we work on our judgment towards other peoples and toward situations?
Cobra – Simply by understanding that they went through hard times somewhere in the past and they simply don't know how to behave better.
Richard – Thank you.  How can we work on losing jealousy and envy?
Cobra – Simply by understanding that each person has their own mission, their own position in life and their own position in the human society and nobody can replace nobody else.

Look at this:

https://2012portal.blogspot.com/2014/12/isis-portal-activation-part-ii-report.html

''The Light forces have communicated that it is very important for everyone to start visualizing our lives after the Event as our visualization and intent speeds its manifestation. They have also communicated that it is time to start practicing unconditional forgiveness towards ourselves and others. There is no more time to dwell on the past, it is time to create the future and live in the Now''

Then this:

''Rob – Yes, I can feel the energetic shifts have been very very intense. In the light-worker community, there has been lots of dissension and various things. I’m not going to name names here. People are just reacting, misunderstanding, overstating over expected things. There’s just been a lot of tension amongst certain light-worker groups. People are going through a lot of Infighting within themselves. What do you recommend to do when they see these different light-workers who were, maybe had been working together and all of a sudden they’ve come apart. Some people might want them to deny some of the information. If these guys are fighting, it can’t be real. That’s not always the case is it?

Cobra – OK. It’s basically people being triggered by the Archon network. 1. Do not get involved with the drama. 2. Forgive, forgive, forgive. Do not get involved into any type of judgment because that is not productive. This is a time to unify our forces and not divide them. I would just say it again as I’ve said many times, anyone involved in the liberation process, do not judge each other- unite forces. This is what we need at this time.''

''Cobra – The whole idea of Karma is an Archon creation – is because they want you to feel guilty for something you haven’t done and they don’t want you to resist the negative action of the cabal. it’s not that we have done something wrong and we are punished or we need to learn a lesson. The only lesson we need to learn is to say “NO” to those creations to the Archons, to the Cabal to the illuminati, say no and Liberate the planet.''

Also look at all Cobra posts about karma and punishment, this is not what the light forces promote. Your dream shows this karmic programming and punishment system that we have in our modern society (think companies digging up old, politically incorrect tweets to keep you from a job). If you're still feeling down because of your past actions simply look at what Cobra has been saying all along and you'll know that the dream you saw was complete BS, because look at the consequences of what it has done to you, not the intent to ''deliver ''justice,'' it very clearly does not align with the best interests of the light forces and what is known about them.

I know it might make logical sense to you, you did something wrong so you should bear the consequences, but you're forgetting the very basis of what the source and the LF represent: forgiveness and unconditional love. And as already stated numerous times by Cobra, various previously VERY dark entities now work TOGETHER with the light, makes no sense for you to be excluded from YOUR VERY PURPOSE THAT YOU FEEL AT YOUR HEART (and therefore it's sources own will) because of that. Do you think it makes sense that there are so many light-workers and warriors on the surface, 99% of them having done at least SOME negativity because of trauma, because of their war wounds, because we're still in quarantine prison anomaly nightmare planet, that the LF should disassociate and PUNISH us because of that? Friendly fire much? Also think about all the implants, possessive dark entities, DEWs, scalar mind control etc., that were active at that time, those actions might not have even come from you.

I would recommend you put up protection immediately, do the following meditations:

"Protocol for protection against negative energies and entities"

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_DiQWMMpZWg

"Personal Optimal Timeline" 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9eF3j-6P5d4

The rest should become clear to you. Keep going, we're almost there.

"Citizen Soldier - You Are Enough (Official Lyric Video)"

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rZLVIVByZn8

(End quote)

There is also Libra's post of a video that helps illustrate how much the dark forces use illusion:

"When Archons whisper in your ears #2" 

https://libraspacegirl.blogspot.com/2024/01/when-archons-whisper-in-your-ears-2.html 

The archons really went all out on this one, with their deception being extremely elaborate in the dreamstate.  They couldn't destroy me over the years with overt attacks, so instead resorted to attempts at tricking me into destroying myself, with this latest attempt being the most tricky one of all.

Thank you to both of you for the help with pulling me back up! 💖