Planetary Needs Vs. Personal Needs - Do Both!

The solution to the dichotomy of personal needs vs. planetary needs can be solved by having two separate practices, as follows:

1. Planetary Needs:

- This involves focusing on the Violet Flame and Flower of Life Sphere around Earth with aided light from the Cosmic Central Sun being sent to all Central Suns in this universe, through the Galactic Central Sun, through all beings of Light in our Sol system, through all beings on and within Earth, through oneself to the center of the Earth, for the clearing of chimera and anomaly.

2. Personal Needs:

- My own magickal practice takes about 30 minutes a day.  I am also actively learning about the positive side of the occult from various books and sources, as has been mentioned in previous posts.  I also take time to ground with my physical surroundings, which is often underestimated in importance.

Emergency Meditation to Remove All Remaining Chimera

The idea came through that these chimera I encountered in the dreamstate are guarding the AI quantum computer.  Therefore, I'm asking as many Lightworkers as possible to meditate on dissolving these chimera, along with all remaining chimera on Earth!

We all know the steps in the meditations by now.  Invoke the Violet Flame.  Bring through Pink Light from the Cosmic Central Sun through the Galactic Central Sun, and then imagine the Light Forces dissolving the remaining chimera with the Flower of Life sphere.  Visual is here for the Pink Light:

https://youtu.be/31n5YjpENOA

Violet Flame can also be used to dissolve the chimera.  Do what feels best.

Let's finish this, once and for all! 

Major Attack by Chimera!!!

In the dreamstate last night, I encountered an entire 'family of chimera!'  I was attacked very strongly, and even PHYSICALLY felt something touch my left arm!!!  These were giant tarantulas attacking me all at once!!!

I had a second dream about the chimera early this morning.  People were in a movie theater.  The first two or three rows had people with a goth-like appearance with these pitch black tarantulas crawling on their faces.  These people looked zombified by them.

The Jinn could be tricking me, but I don't think the Jinn could be making this one up.  

There are definitely more chimera to be cleared - a huge number of them!  I thought most had already been cleared.  That was the impression anyway.  Definitely not the case!

Angels and the Light Forces

When doing Violet Flame meditations, I notice that when this is in a context where the Light Forces are interacting, the energy becomes much stronger.  The Light Forces probably make the Violet Flame much easier to access for those on the planet surface. 

2012portal has mentioned Archangel Metatron before:

"...Archangel Metatron will activate our Solar System into an Ascension portal connected to Galactic Center, with the exception of sublunar space and planet Earth itself, which still need to remain buffered to a degree."

http://2012portal.blogspot.com/2020/05/portal-2025.html 

The Light Forces probably work for and/or alongside many different Angels.  There are various books describing Angels and how to contact them that may be worth looking into.  

Angels have the ability to improve manifestation.  Different angels can help with different requests, and interacting with them helps to anchor more Light on the planet surface.  Perhaps the Light Forces allow easier access to Angels as well.  (It's important to not only associate Angels with Christianity.  Many religions throughout history mention Angels in one way or another.)

I Suspect that Most Lightworkers Only Have Surface Level Knowledge of the Occult

I don't know for sure, but I suspect that the vast majority of lightworkers don't have the ability to see the astral in the waking state at will.  I suspect that the vast majority of lightworkers know the terms "astral," "etheric," "plasma," "mental," and so forth, but they don't know how these planes operate, with their different subplanes, and so on. 

When it comes to actual metaphysical abilities and awareness, I suspect that the vast majority of lightworkers are extremely undeveloped compared with adepts.  Doing lightworker meditations is fantastic.  It's extremely advanced to pull Light from the Cosmic Central Sun and Galactic Central Sun.  However, what about all the other levels in between?  I suspect that the reason negative forces have one up on lightworkers is because lightworkers don't even have basic level understanding of the occult.  For the cabal, it's probably like 'taking candy from a baby.'

A common misconception about the occult is that all of the occult is negative.  This keeps people from learning about it.  Not all of the occult is child sacrifices and adrenochrome and so forth.  There is a positive side to the occult that is very self-empowering!  There's actually far more (positive knowledge) to learn than ever imagined! 

2012portal has occult knowledge, but the knowledge is very surface-level.  This is why it's important to gain occult knowledge from other sources.  This can be a bit risky, as there is disinformation, but discernment can be used to gain ground.

There are ways to bypass the 'current situation' on an individual level. Here's an example:

Spagyrics: The Alchemical Preparation of Medicinal Essences, Tinctures, and Elixirs by Manfred M. Junius

Elixers can be created for very powerful healing. If searched for enough and acted upon, there are already resources available to become super human by comparison to normal humans.

There are some resources available from Cobra, such as tachyon products, but to be holistic, it's important to develop occult abilities with information that goes beyond 2012portal.  There's hermeticism, shamaninsm, alchemy, and gnosticism, for starters. 

The best part of existence on Earth can be experienced NOW. Advanced occultists know this, but lightworkers remain ignorant of this. I'm trying to change that. There's more that's already here than ever imagined!

Regarding 2012portal, here's where I stand:

Lightforces haven't physically intervened so far.  Maybe they will in the future, but I'm not going to depend on this for my well-being.

I can live an amazing life with or without intervention from positive Ets.  I just need to apply myself to delve into the mysteries of creation.  Either way, I have something to look forward to!  Either way, my life has meaning!

Things can change if people own their own power!  This planet is awesome because there's so much to learn, grow with, and explore, on so many levels that I didn't realize before!

Attacks Continue, But Slow and Steady Wins the Race

The attacks from a particularly baneful magician continue.  The prickly feet were very intense last night as type of 'magickal binding,' and I heard the thoughtform, "I will bring you through hell!"

This may be the one who I refer to as "the occultist" in a previous post.  I'm not completely sure though.  Whoever it is, this is what I have to say.  This goes where it needs to go:

Maybe you've done some good works, but the negative works you've done far outweigh the positive.  The number of innocent lives you've ruined far outweigh your positive works.

You may think you are powerful now, because using baneful magick through the Left Hand Path gives results very quickly compared with the Right Hand Path.  Decades into the future though, when you are on your death bed from old age, you will be sorry, but then it will be too late.  The other side will be waiting for you, and you will go to the lowest subplanes of the astral, where oblivion awaits.

Siris King says, "Slow and steady wins the race," and he's 100% correct.

Taking Discernment to the Next Level

I asked Siris King if I could reveal some of his information on Ets, and he said ok.  This post has information from his patreon channel.

With Et information, there are so many different claims being made.  Many claims made by various Et contactees contradict one another.  So, how does someone know what's actually real? 

I've learned that the astral, or 4D, is a dimension that can be used to trick people - extensively.  Most people who die end up in 4D, living out made-up scenarios, believing them to be real.  The purpose of this is for planning out the next incarnation.  

There are many aspects to 4D which take a degree of effort to understand.  A really good starting point is the book mentioned in a previous post called The Astral World, by Swami Panchadasi.  

Because consciousness creates scenarios in 4D, this can also be used to make up stories about Ets!

Here's where Siris King's info comes in:  

There are not only human consciousnesses in 4D.  The Jinn are also in 4D, who can manifest themselves in 3D under certain conditions.  Generally, the older the beings, the more powerful they are.  The Jinn existed before our big bang, from 2 big bangs ago, while Angels are from 3 big bangs ago.  The Jinn are masters at deception.  The greys I kept seeing in the dreamstate, which I just had another 'oh-so-fun' dream about just hours ago, are not Ets at all, but are actually Jinn!  (The Jinn don't get along with humans so well, and the reasons why is a long story for another time.)

In the vast majority of cases, people say they have experiences with Ets, when it's really the Jinn tricking them.  The Jinn did this because they don't want humans on earth to know of their existence, and for purposes of control. 

There are 6 levels of civilization, as follows:

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Level 1 - Weather is controlled.  One world government (non-dystopian hopefully).  People live beyond 120 years old, maybe up to 200.  (Currently, earth is around level 0.75.)

Level 2 - Colonization of the solar system.  Power is harnessed from the sun.  Consciousness can be placed in new bodies.  Messages can be sent through time.

Level 3 - Colonization of galaxies.  Power is harnessed from multiple suns.  Power is also harnessed from matter and anti-matter explosions contained with magnetic fields.  Time manipulation/travel.  This is where Jinns come in, as Jinns have taken about 150 billion galaxies in this universe. 

Level 4 - Control of universes, possibly up to one multiverse.

Level 5 - Beyond human comprehension.  Only the Jinn and Angels can perceive level 5.  Control of multiverses.  Control of time.  Reality itself can be rewritten.  Multiverses can be created.  Multiverses are even created just to store energy!

Level 6 - Completely beyond comprehension.  Level 6 will take on the form of level 5 just to be able to interact with level 5.

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Most outlets of Et information are at best only talking about level 2s.  To be fair though, 2012 portal discusses the galactic central race and cosmic central race.  These races would be around levels 2 to 3.  But there are 6 levels!  I would be overjoyed just to be in a (non-dystopian) level 1 civilization, but it's important to know all the levels to have the best possible perspective.

Of all the Et contactees, (in my opinion) Ananda Bosman has the most holistic view, because he's the only Et contactee who goes into the metaphysics of 7 divisions of dimensions in his book, The Unity Keys of Emmanuel.  In that book, he also discusses the omniverse.

For the most part though, people who talk about Ets are making things up from 4D manipulation.  For example, there are people who claim to have contact with 9D Ets when they are really just being tricked by jinns in 4D.  E'Asha Ashayana's work/keylontic science could definitely be a manipulation from the Jinn.  Such trickery happens all the time!  

Regarding UFO sightings, keep in mind that holograms can be created using project blue beam.  This doesn't mean there aren't real UFOs, but real ones are at level 1 or 2, unless they are levels higher than 2 stepping themselves down in order to interact with 3D.  The question of them wanting to do so is another story.

When encountering Et intel, ask the questions, "What level of civilization does this intel refer to?" and "Could this be 4D trickery from the Jinn?"  Asking the right questions will bring discernment to the next level.

Important Message Regarding Ets and Standing a Chance

I'm not going to expect to be picked up by a ship.  Sorry guys, that's not happening.  People need to start getting right with nature and the metaphysical realms.  Don't rely on Ets to come save you.  That's not only foolish.  It's actually extremely dangerous, because when under this impression, people disregard their well-being, both physically and metaphysically.  I've seen this happen way too many times.

Not to be gloom and doom, but we are in serious trouble.  Don't go thinking all the chaos is ok because The Event will save us.  Ask the question, "How does this information change my life in the here and now?"  If it doesn't help, throw it out.  

If people get balanced and unite with nature, take care of their bodies, and know a good magician or magicians (not the evil (unbalanced) kind, but the kind who know the importance of being nice to animals), they might stand a chance.

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Thing is, I can take a lot of abuse from being hit with stuff. Problem is, I get older. It starts to wear me down, but they don't let up, and the aging process weakens me to the point where they finish me off.  Hopefully it's not too late, and I can get back to where I'm supposed to be, back to the basics - nature, being present, and healthy/safe learning about dimensions.  Also, possible assistance from people who know what they are doing.

Let's Talk About the Astral!

Lightworkers have been told names of 'planes' such as "astral," "etheric," "plasma," and "mental," but actual true knowledge regarding them is lacking.  There may have been a diagram or two presented on 2012portal or welovemassmeditation, but this is grossly insufficient.

The astral is the first plane (it's not really a plane, but a state of vibration) that needs to be known, since it's the next stage above the physical.  

Did you know that there are occultists who can see the astral at will while in the waking state?  Did you know that the five senses can be trained to perceive the astral?

Most people are psychic, but not in control of their abilities.  There's a huge difference between being psychic and being able to use the full spectrum of astral senses at will.  Developing true astral senses can take several years to perfect.

Years ago, I asked Siris King which books are best for learning about the deeper mysteries.  One such book was this:

 

 

This book doesn't give a bunch of mumbo-jumbo.  It gets straight to the point, and is one of the most mind-blowing books I've ever read!  

Although there are advantages to physically reading books, the audiobook is free here:

https://youtu.be/97R048jWD8M

Lightworkers can do the violet flame meditations of course, but the more that is known about the anatomy of the metaphysical realms, the more enriching and empowering life will be!  

We truly live in a vast and amazing creation!    

Keep Going

When working with the Violet Flame with certain beautiful and powerful melodies that 'run chills up the spine,' very strong light activates and can be felt within the body.  

Do I, a non-adept, non-initiated individual, dare say that this the beginning of ascension?  Yes, I dare.

Why such strong efforts to keep me in a fallen state?  Why so many attacks?  Maybe this has something to do attempts to block the ascension process.  Such attempts are failing.

If this is not ascension, still, extremely high realms are being accessed - this is undeniable.

Many others are having similar experiences.  

Keep going.

Corey Goode Being Exposed is a Major Blow to the Cabal

(Thank you to DayStar for posting the video below in a previous comment on 2012portal.)

Corey Goode calls his own works "intellectual property."  Intellectual property is fictional by nature.  Corey Goode even admits that his work is fictional, as can be seen at around 45 minutes here:

https://youtu.be/dJwH2kK5MDE

From watching the above video, and hours of other parts of the depositions, Corey Goode is definitely a disinformation agent.  His purpose is to distract people from the actual, real secret space program.

I'm going to go as far to say that Corey Goode may actually wind himself in jail from exposing his own money laundering in the depositions.  Also, the people Corey Goode is suing are people Corey Goode himself took money from.

This exposure is a major victory!  All the lies Corey Goode has been peddling, trying to make the Light Forces appear to be the villains and so forth - it's over!  Innocent people who were duped can finally move on from the confusion and turmoil Corey Goode has parasitically inflicted!  

All disinformation agents on Ets are committing crimes against humanity, because the consequences of the disinformation are negative on a planetary scale, as this damages first contact with real positive Ets, slowing the process of planetary liberation.  All such individuals need to be brought to justice.

PS: The video in this post needs more people to see it to increase awareness of Corey Goode's deception, so please share it as much as possible. 

There is No Stopping the Inevitable

I've learned quite a bit over the last few days of binge listening to Siris King's patreon.  In addition to breakthrough knowledge regarding Ets and the occult, there is also breakthrough knowledge regarding the sexuality of women there.  I won't go into it specifically, and Siris King has nothing to do with 2012portal, but there are some thoughts I'd like to share. 

I agree with 2012portal that men need to learn to be more heart-centered, and women need to be sexuality liberated.  Men being more heart centered balances out their being primarily sexually centered, and women unlocking their full orgasmic potentials balances out their being primarily heart centered.  

The cause of men being less heart centered is from programming that being heart-centered is weak.  Historically, men were taught to be strong warriors, with none of that 'sissy stuff.'

In general, women have suppressed their sexuality because of being historically sexually abused on one extreme, and on the other extreme, sexually oppressed through programming from various religions around the world.  Because of this, women closed off their sexuality to a great extent.  Making oneself not feel is a way to feel safe from being hurt.  This is what (by and large) women did with their sexuality.

I agree with 2012portal that a sexually oppressed world is easy to control, and the sexual liberation of women will probably be the most powerful force for planetary liberation.  Women's sexuality is extremely powerful when fully (and safely) unlocked, which is why the archons and so forth sought to subjugate and oppress it.

If I ever have a girlfriend, I would not be selfish.  I would want to help her unlock her true sexual potential, which is perhaps why the negative forces took great effort to cut me off from all sexual contact with women for my entire adult life.  (I could have put myself out there more though - some of this is on me.)  I suspect that such efforts are a more widespread phenomena than people think.  If the kundalini of the surface population really is rising (with great care) from the intervention of the Light Forces though, no amount of covert manipulations will be able to stop the inevitable.  

This May Sound a Bit Harsh, But it's True, and Needs to be Said

Being in waiting mode for The Event and intervention from the Light Forces, with one's own life standing still, is one of the worst places anyone can be.

Learning and growing with science, metaphysics, the occult (hidden knowledge), and personal development (all of which are intertwined) - living life to the fullest - is one of the best places anyone can be.

I am not abandoning 2012portal.  Each day, I set time aside to meditate on the Violet Flame.  Yet, I need to continue learning and growing.  

Let's face it.  2012portal doesn't update very often, and there is a vast amount of valid and beneficial knowledge that is not covered on 2012portal.  For example, I learned something that's a huge game changer regarding greys, reptilians, and Ets in general from Siris King's patreon that 2012portal never revealed.  My mind has officially been blown.  Seriously, mind = blown from Siris King's patreon regarding Ets, and Ets is just one small section from Siris King.  For anyone who's wondering what I'm talking about, listen to Siris King's segments on the Jinn and aliens.

I still have problems, but I'm really excited to learn more about those problems so they can be solved.  I'm being proactive instead of waiting for The Event and the Light Forces.  2012portal is important, but should not take the place of ones own life.  

I've seen people in the comments on 2012portal who complain about the waiting, and I've been there myself, but my patience for that mentality has completely run out.  Stop complaining, and live!

Again, I still work with the Violet Flame, along with the Cosmic Central Sun and Galactic Central Sun, and I have very powerful experiences with this, but that's one part of a very large framework when it comes to having a life on Earth.  It's absolutely essential to keep learning and growing!  No one should feel stuck in waiting mode!  Those days are over.

Follow-Up on Siris King, and Possible Realization About The Violet Flame

Siris King covers both the Left Hand Path and the Right Hand Path.  He gives an overview of the occult from a mountain eye's view.  Lightworkers may not resonate with everything he says, as I don't, because I don't resonate with black magick, nor do I resonate with working with the Jinn.  However, I also realize that we all come from different backgrounds, and I have tremendous respect for his experience and how he reveals the occult.

I'm being careful regarding what I say because this is Siris King's information.  It would be wrong of me to reveal information that is on his patreon.  I've been biting my lip regarding various information I've learned there over the past couple days, but I think I can get away with saying this:

One discovery of many I've gained from Siris King is that the Angels are very powerful because they've been around quite a bit longer than the Jinn.  Angels are ultraviolet, and perhaps the Violet Flame opens the doorway to accessing the ultraviolet.  The Violet flame may act as a bridge between humans and Angels.  It's unknown if Angels are the same as the Light Forces.  Maybe there is an overlap. 

Much Of The Internet Has Been Feeling Stale And Empty, So I Found Somewhere To Go!

The main disadvantage to not being an initiate is that there's a very weak foundation from which to know most aspects of reality.   

I've said I was fed up with the occult in the past because of all the abuse I went through over the last several years, but there are still occultists who want to help others, who do not abuse their power.  

Lately I've been hungry for knowledge.  I kept getting on the internet looking for knowledge, but mostly found emptiness.  I look within for knowledge of course, but sometimes it's nice to encounter knowledge from someone who's more experienced.  

I debated who to take seriously in the occult world, and have found that there is very mind-blowing information that can't be found anywhere else from Siris King's patreon channel:

https://www.patreon.com/Sirisking?fan_landing=true&view_as=public  

I am still interested in updates from 2012portal, but was also looking for a place to go with a more active and deeper discussion.  Previously, I very strongly asked the universe for more regarding knowledge online.  Siris King's material was the reply!

I Was Attacked But They Didn't Expect Me To Keep Going

The attacks last night were some of the most extreme attacks I've ever had.  Usually, when attacked like this, I go into victim mode, but this time, I decided to keep pressing forward no matter what.  Each time I was attacked in the dreamstate with pure evil (for lack of better words), many stinging sensations, 'prickly feet,' and loud noises going through my head, I called for help.

One can call upon (aloud it possible) many different positive forces all at once, such as, in no particular order:

Violet ray from the Cosmic Central Sun to the Galactic Central Sun through all beings of light in our solar system through one's body to the center of the Earth, then repeating over and over "Violet Flame" while resonating with the Violet Flame, White Fire of An, Archangels and Angels, the Communion of Saints, Ascended Masters, positive beings from various religions such as Jesus Christ, Krishna, etc, the Light Forces, the 12 21 and 771 commands, the Holy Cross, the Buddhic Column of Light, Goddess Presence, and anything else that one can think of to call upon.

I called upon assistance from many positive forces with purifying myself internally and externally.  I had finally had enough and decided to become more proactive than I've ever been, and in the end, this paid off.

I will no longer allow attacks upon me to subdue me.  It's time to finally and forever clear out all dark forces!  To all who are being attacked, keep pushing through!  So much is available to you!  Call upon their help!

Dissolution To All Remaining Chimera

You can say something like this when working with the Violet Flame:

"I am One with the Violet Flame, Earth is One with the Violet Flame."  "Violet Flame, Violet Flame, Violet Flame!"

Passion is power:

https://youtu.be/56glEzsliWc  

(Re-tune using A432 tones as needed after listening to music in A440.)

May the Violet Flame be with you.

Dissolution to all remaining chimera.

Divine Intervention Activation is on the 7th/8th:

https://www.welovemassmeditation.com/2022/11/reminder-of-full-moon-meditations-and-international-remote-healing-sessions-between.html

A Change of Focus

There is a great clearing taking place, but also, the cabal create new negative entities to send.  In my experience at least, until the cabal are physically removed, the dreamstate and visionstate is and probably will be 95% abuse and garbage.  Here's one example out of countless examples:  I just woke up from the dreamstate to see a laughing demon that 'lives in my nose.' 

Imagine having years upon years of abuse and nonsense from the dreamstate and visionstate - what a waste of mental resources!  Imagine wondering who's thinking various thoughtforms by hearing them telepathically over several years, when the thoughtforms are really quite uninteresting - what a waste of mental resources!  Imagine getting all these stinging sensations and wondering what's doing it, and then getting frustrated because "I thought this was all going to be cleared by now" - what a waste of mental resources!

Only the 5% of the dreamstate and visionstate that isn't abuse and garbage will be paid attention to.  As for the rest, get lost!  I'm not 'putting my head in the sand' by saying this because the dark forces are probably trying to enslave my mind by consuming my attention with all the abuse and garbage they keep sending.

I live in a physical body.  So, shouldn't my main priority be the Here and Now?  

I'm turning my back on the occult.  I see the way magicians live their lives.  They are so caught up in managing their metaphysical arena that it consumes them.  I prefer to bypass all of this with the Here and Now.  My empowerment is when I harmonize with what's physically Here and Now.  Can it really be that simple? 

Does this mean I won't do Lightwork anymore?  I still like working with the Violet Flame.  And, the Light of the Sun, and Central Suns is still a part of physical reality.  Light can be experienced physically.  Light can clear out the garbage in the metaphysical, and provide physical protection through gravitating more positive synchronicities.

There's so much to explore in the Here and Now!  There's so much to learn about the physical world!  Being present in the Here and Now has been keeping me sane over all these years.  Ironically, (assuming that one is not in a physically abusive environment) maybe the best way to ascend is to be in the Here and Now.

I have been doing the 12 21 and 771 commands.  I have experienced healing from this, and we all know what needs to happen to truly be healed and liberated.  Progress is being made for that purpose.  Very high pitched frequencies can be heard at various times.  The frequencies are so high that they can barely be heard with human hears, and are not necessarily external (the frequencies can still be heard when the ears are plugged).  Intuition tells me that these frequencies are indicative of anomaly/entities/implants/AI systems being removed.

Updated: A Soft Restart

Update 12/04: I was having a very difficult time when writing this post, but I'll leave it, because there is an element of truth to be found.  (I'm feeling more optimistic now.)

All that is false is removed.

All evil that has been done shall be undone. 

All that is true remains.

Victory of the Light.

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There are those who have not committed crimes against humanity, but, like many members of the cabal, may need to go to the Galactic Central Sun for a complete restart.  These ones are not evil, but they have become damaged and mutated to such an extent that the best option is a restart.

There may also be the option of doing a 'soft restart,' where the current life is deleted, but the rest of the being remains intact.  And/Or, various negative past lives are deleted, and the more positive past lives remain intact.  This may be an option for lightworkers who have been abused in this lifetime (and possibly other lifetimes) to such an extent that healing is no longer possible, but wiping the lifetime(s) away can allow them to continue their development with a much cleaner state.

Personally, I want to start over.  This current life has not been a total disaster, but ever since the age of 18 or so onward, my life began to become distorted.  Also, with all of the metaphysical attacks upon me over the years, with countless forms of abuse I'd rather not be specific on, this has become another mess on top of the mess that is my life in the waking state.  In my case, I feel that there are too many problems/distortions that are too severe to heal.

The reason I like Eckhart Tolle's books and lectures so much is that he says only the Now exists.  In the Now, I can experience relief from the extreme amount and severity of abuse that has plagued my adult life.  The only clarity I can ever have is when I am in the present moment, set free from the bondage of past abuse and distortions.  Yet of course, all the other 'stuff' keeps coming back.

I really wanted to make a positive difference, and maybe I have, but this came at a price.   

I don't believe in a victim mentality, but I do believe in solutions.  It's not a solution to be perpetually tormented.  It is a solution to have a soft restart.  

I have been focusing on clearing entities with the Buddhic Column, and have experienced a recent success, but I'm also realizing that it's too late - too much damage has already been done.  I could be incorrect - maybe my current life is not beyond repair.  Yet, even if I could heal, I feel that others will always look down upon me, and as much as I like to think that I don't care what others think of me, human nature says otherwise.  I feel that I would be stuck for all eternity with guilt and shame as my only companions, and that is simply unacceptable.  Perhaps there's something I'm not seeing though.

Negotiation With The Occultist?

I won't name the occultist for reasons of privacy, and will use "the occultist" as the term for him.  He had been trained in the occult since early childhood.  Judging from my (long distance) experience with him, he is able to work with both the Light and the Dark.  When he feels that someone deserves to have Dark forces attack them, he sends them.  When he feels that someone deserves healing and/or other assistance, he sends healing and/or other assistance.

I probably will not message the occultist, because that would require facebook, and for obvious reasons I don't do facebook.  Even if this is not physically read by him, the thoughts 'go out into the universe' and can probably be seen by him on 'other levels.'

Another occultist I was working with in 2016 (in physical proximity) had the ability to see the metaphysical in the waking state, which is very rare.  She had angered different covens.  I don't know what her history was with them.  She said she could see Bear Heart metaphysically fighting the other occultist, but he was able to conjure up too many entities and traps.  Either Bear Heart lost, or he had a negotiation with him.  

I recently emailed Bear Heart, but he has not replied, and I doubt he ever will.  I'm left only with my own intuition to be able to know 'what went down,' which is very difficult and prone to manipulation and distortion because of the complexity of what happened.  

I was told that the occultist killed a girl who was in her mid to late 20's who was working with Bear Heart.  I had a dream of this as well, with Bear Heart holding her dead body in his hands.  I don't know if this is true.  I do know that the occultist is able to send Dark energy to people, which, if concentrated enough, could cause death.  This doesn't necessarily mean that's what happened to the girl.

The occultist had some interesting intel.  He calls the cabal "The Guild."  He knew of other occultists who belong to "The Guild" who he and others like himself stay far away from.  

(Before the occultist was helping me, I was working with the other occultist to go up against him, as mentioned with Bear Heart above (not in physical proximity to Bear Heart) but she later said she wanted nothing to do with me, so I went to the occultist afterward, and was (momentarily) on his good side.)  

I was getting help from the occultist before I quit drinking, and I took his help for granted and tried to use him as a 'seeer.'  I kept asking him about various people with 'esoteric followings.'  He eventually got annoyed with me, and then one night I mouthed off to him in an email.  His anger toward me may have been enough for him to go after me.  Just yesterday, I still see the harassing U-turn sigil that flashes into my mind in the waking state.  Although I suspect that some of the attacks are from him, of course not all of them are.  I've probably managed to anger the cabal and so forth, and the remaining chimera could be a problem, although they may be mostly gone by now.

I'm willing to negotiate with the occultist.  I was arrogant and foolish to treat him they way I did, especially since he has had occult training since the age of around 5 as a hereditary witch.  Such rare individuals deserve respect (not worship of course) for their experience and abilities.  If I were to go up against him, I would of course fail.  He has over 20 of years experience on me, and in general, the earlier in life the initiation, the greater the power.

Regarding the occultist working with the Dark when he deems it necessary, I make no judgements.  This is just what he knows.  I have no right to judge someone else when I haven't got a clue as to the depth of their experience and knowledge.  I was way out of my league even associating with him.

I make efforts to stay in the Light, because I know that I never could control demonic forces, goetic spirits, and so forth.  The Light is safe, but the Dark doesn't have a safety net.  Some occultists may think I'm a pansy for this, but I didn't even know the definition of the word "occult" until I was in my late 20's!  I have no initiation whatsoever.  Had I been a hereditary witch who was trained since the age of 5, this would be a different story, but this is not the case.  

I'm going to continue working with the Light and with the removal of negative entities and anomaly, and focus on being more present.  That's the best course of action for someone like myself.  I will not end up as one of those fools who thinks he's 'all that' as some 'great occultist' when he has no clue what he's getting himself into.  I've 'been there, done that.'  It's highly overrated.   

I know I said that all who attack me would be destroyed, but it's not that simple.  It's wise to, if possible, negotiate first with those who may be open to negotiation, and then allow higher forces to do what needs to be done, instead of acting at the 'whim of my personality.'

It's always true that there is no higher power than Source, but how Divine Intervention operates and occurs is far beyond my comprehension, as is creation.