Message to the Light Forces

Human beings are not built to be able to be abused chronically.  Even the toughest of the tough will break down if they are chronically abused.  

Just about every time I do the commands, I get abused.  This is probably the dark forces retaliating.  If the abuse was short term, then it would be possible to keep going.  But when the abuse becomes chronic, consciousness starts to break apart.  I've recently been seeing literal cracks in my own consciousness.  (These cracks are not to be confused with 'cracks in the veil.')

If someone gets beaten up day after day, their wounds don't heal, and previous wounds get worse to the point of the person dying.  If someone gets psychically and psychologically beaten up day after day, the result is the same, because the damaged mind and soul starts manifesting as physical health problems, such as chronic fatigue, cancer, etc.  

Again, short-term isn't a problem.  But years upon years, spanning for over 10 years and counting... it is probably a violation of cosmic law to expect anyone to be able to keep going like this for such a long period of time.  I'm not surprised at all that the lightworker grid collapsed.

Someone who is abused on a chronic level becomes a liability.  Many lightworkers are therefore liabilities, but this is not being stated as a judgement upon them.  This is just what happens when the timeframe for intervention becomes too long.

Message to the Light Forces:

Until you 'get it together,' I'm not going to put myself in harm's way anymore.  I'm not doing this because I'm a coward.  I'm doing this because I don't want to be a liability when chronic abuse causes my consciousness to break apart.  I would be in a far better state to hold the Light by focusing on being as happy as possible and appreciating the small things in life instead of trying to be a 'big shot' and getting myself hurt to the 'point of no return' when the dark forces perpetually retaliate, unabated.  

(It's also possible to take a break for weeks or months and come back after healing.  This would be another option.  Many times I've left for a time and came back later.)