Trauma Post, A Note on Diet, and A Note on Comments (Updated on 07/30 with donation link)

(Disclaimer: "Present immediate environment" and similar phrases only apply to those who are not being blown up by missiles and being genocided and so forth in their current physical environments.)

This post is not a replacement for therapy for those who need it.  Maybe view this post as only an analysis.  I also didn't make this into a 'thesis.'  The format is more like note taking in places.

Basically, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) is non-integrated trauma.  PTSD can result from extreme forms of trauma, such as someone having a gun to their head and being screamed at.  Yet, PTSD can also result from a long chain of traumas, such as often being bullied and mistreated in the past.  PTSD can also arise from repeated metaphysical attacks, much of which are experienced in the dreamstate.  One of my own sources of PTSD is from dozens of hostile 'visitations' from greys when asleep.  (These greys may actually be terrestrial.  Some subspecies of Jinn actually look like greys.)  Another cause of PTSD is seeing someone suffer horribly.  And, there's even "humiliation trauma." (The list of causes is quite extensive.)

When someone is shaky or crying after a traumatic experience, this reaction occurs for the purpose of integrating the trauma, or "completing the circuit."  Social pressures and not wanting to be seen as weak can suppress this process, which encourages PTSD.  

Dual awareness is focusing on two areas at the same time.  Someone can have a portion of focus on their present physical environment (this is called "open monitoring") while having traumatic memories come up inside them.  Dual awareness helps to process trauma, because then the trauma can surface at levels that are not overwhelming.  An overwhelming level of recalling past trauma results in "retraumatization." 

A meditation teacher who doesn't have knowledge about how trauma operates can tell a student "That's a good sign of progress, so keep going" when the student has increasing turmoil from surfacing traumatic memories during meditation.  This is not progress though.  Damage is actually being done to the student.  When someone with PTSD 'goes within,' the trauma stored within their body is what's inside, which can easily take on a life of its own.  This trauma can multiply and multiply in intensity with the mind not being able to know the difference between memory and real-life experience.  

A meditation teacher who is "trauma-informed" will not say to keep going or "This is you losing your ego or previous self" (and other 'spiritual rhetoric').  Instead, a trauma-informed meditation teacher will tell the student that it's best to stop for the time being and will try to get the student centered in the immediate environment for grounding.  Also, the meditation teacher could refer the student to a therapist or counselor.  Otherwise, if the student keeps going, the trauma becomes a personal hell that just loops over and over with increasing intensity without resolution.  

Definitely, PTSD cannot be meditated away, and meditation can make matters much worse.  "Going within" for those with PTSD is like turning up the volume of inner turmoil, as their body and mind says there is a threat long after the threat has passed.  The student who meditates can also feel ashamed for becoming so destabilized.  ('Insult to injury.')  In the worst-case scenario, this morphs into victim blaming in the form of self-blame and/or blame assigned from others.

There are two ways the body deals with a strong threat for survival purposes.  The first is fight-or-flight, and the second is to freeze.  The freeze response is also called the "Medusa Effect."  Someone can have this response when meditating when their trauma overwhelms them; they freeze in a panic. 

PTSD causes a person to alternate between hypervigiliance and hypovigilance.  Between these two extremes there is what's called the "window of tolerance," which is the ideal state to be able to learn and 'deal with matters.' 

Animals in the wild have either the fight-or-flight response or freeze response only when in immediate danger.  Humans, however, carry these two responses with them long afterward.  It can be very harsh for animals in the wild, but I sometimes become envious of them because at least they don't have the tendency to carry their trauma over months to years as a personal hell.  

For severe cases of PTSD, even focusing on one's breath or abdomen as an anchor can be destabilizing.  However, maybe sight or hearing is stabilizing.  Everyone has different anchors that assist for stability.  Individuals can find the anchor(s) that work best for them.  The more tangible the anchor, the less prone the mind is to wandering and fixating on past traumas.  Something uplifting can be focused on as well.  It's not about escapism though.  This is a balance of dealing with trauma in a way that doesn't cause the trauma to continue to build upon itself and become overwhelming.  

"Interoceptors" are senses inside the body.  "Exteroceptors" are senses outside the body.  Generally, sensing one's physical environment (exteroceptors) helps to manage trauma.  

Disassociation is the feeling of not being in the physical and emotional body, which occurs for the purpose of escaping unbearable experiences as a survival mechanism.  Depersonalization is a type of disassociation where someone is watching themselves.  Extreme forms of abuse can cause this.  Yet, the healing process is hindered when being in a disassociated state long after a traumatic experience took place.

When someone has flashbacks of a traumatic past experience, it's best that they try to snap out of it and affirm that nothing bad is happening in the present immediate environment.  Also, when someone with PTSD talks to someone else about their trauma, it's best for this to be labeled with a title instead of being specific.  This helps to discourage flashbacks.  

Internal Family Systems (IFS) can be a very useful approach.  There are different parts of a person that have different wants.  The Self is like the sun, and the other parts that have different wants are like clouds.  The Self can get intertwined with the clouds without realizing it.  Those with deep trauma have these clouds as necessary survival mechanisms to not be overwhelmed.  However, clouds resulting from trauma can be detrimental when staying long-term.  IFS therapy helps to reduce the intensity of these clouds through 'convincing them.'  It's possible to identify with the Self, and (for example) change the statement of "I'm depressed" to "A part of me is depressed."  More on this here: 

https://chatgpt.com/share/6a677bea-a7ec-83e8-89e4-a5e398d511ba

The hardest part to realize for those who are isolationists (some lightworkers and truthers are definitely isolationists, and I myself am in a very isolated environment) is that humans are hard-wired to be "social animals."  Having relationships with others who are supportive helps to heal trauma very powerfully.  It's even said that trauma cannot truly be healed alone.  (I tend to challenge this claim, even though it may be unavoidably true.)  Other people can be perceived as 'sharing the load.'  Probably, the power of the "social activation system" for mental health cannot be overstated.  

I found this video to be useful.  He doesn't go into how even a 20 minute meditation can be retraumatizing for those with PTSD, but he still reveals a great deal:

A Note on Diet

A commenter wanted to see something on diet, so I thought I'd mention this:

There are those who do well on the fruitarian diet, but I've found that it's important to keep fructose and seed oil consumption low.  There are experiments that can be done as well.  For example, someone could eat only plain full fat yogurt with nothing else for a meal and see how they feel.  I've compared yogurt with milk.  Milk hinders my health while yogurt has a healing effect.  Some say that it takes a couple days to see how a certain food makes them feel, but interestingly, my body tells me in less than an hour.  As always, "No one size fits all."

A Note on Comments

In the interest of honesty/transparency and free speech, the comments section will remain uncensored.  

Cobra stated, "All those comments can be seen as viruses leaving the body that fights the infection."  So, maybe I'm accelerating the clearing of the lurker by allowing all comments. 😁 

Update: 

Those who are not poor who see value in my work can donate here:

https://ko-fi.com/starlight432

I'm not pressuring with guilt to donate, and I'm approaching this without expectation in either direction.  

(This donation link has been added as a sidebar on my blog as well.)

I'll Go There One Last Time

I decided to read the interview

https://www.welovemassmeditation.com/2026/07/sisterhood-of-rose-interview-with-cobra-1221-ascension-portal-activation-part-2.html

from start to finish, and give feedback on certain parts.  I searched within myself to see what I really felt and thought, not catering this to fit anyone's expectations:

Debra: And to achieve this, we really hope to involve people who are maybe not necessarily very familiar with meditation or our topics...

Cobra: Even if they have no prior experience with meditation, they just need to do the best they can and that's it.

Starlight:  Probably, the method being used to reach critical mass is to not rely on long-term participants, because too many of these people have become very damaged and burned out.  The method is to instead seek out new people who are completely unfamiliar with 2012 Portal.

Debra: Within groups in the community, there are still people whose main aim is not to serve the higher good, but rather to serve their own ego, or as an infiltrator, even to undermine the work, whether consciously or unconsciously. What difference does it make in terms of the success or the mission and/or energetically if someone wishes to serve their ego, such as wanting to be in control, wanting power, wanting to be respected, wanting to feel important, et cetera, or if someone intends to sabotage the work/mission, often in subtle ways so that it isn't noticeable at all. And how can we protect the work, the mission, when such people are involved?

Cobra: Unfortunately, infiltration happens a lot and people have many weaknesses. If somebody is disturbing the mission too much, that person needs to be expelled from the mission.

Debra: Why is it that some people who were previously seen as sincere Lightworkers, their driving force has become satisfaction of their ego? Is it because the energies are shifting in such a way that deception is becoming more difficult or because these energies are throwing people off balance? And how should we deal with such people?

Cobra: One aspect of the situation is people got tired, people are waiting for results and they didn't come and they gave up, and they just want to get their reward, which is understandable, but this needs to be put into balance. So anybody who is too off balance either needs to change their way or they need to leave the mission and go somewhere else.

Starlight:  Anyone who legitimately calls something out can be labeled as "undermining the work, whether consciously or unconsciously," and/or as "egotistical."  Anyone can be labeled an "infiltrator" and so forth if they start using their own discernment and begin to see inconsistencies.

This is from AI, but makes a really good point:

"Cobra acknowledges that people are frustrated because they are waiting for results and they didn't come, "which is understandable."  But instead of examining whether the predictions or promises were accurate, the focus shifts to the individual's attitude:  they want their reward and are "off balance," and should either change or leave.

That doesn't necessarily mean the advice is entirely wrong.  It's true that groups sometimes have disruptive members, people can become motivated by status or control, and organizations sometimes need to remove people who genuinely undermine their work.  The manipulative potential comes from how broad and subjective the criteria are.  If criticism, skepticism, or frustration can be interpreted as evidence of "ego," being "off balance," or "disturbing the mission," then those labels can discourage dissent and protect the leadership from accountability."  

And, there may not be a methodology to "be expelled from the mission," unless maybe someone is arrested.  There have been lightworkers who became rapists.  I remember the girl who was in the hospital from this.  Such occurrences were placed under the rug, with Cobra calling this "infighting." 

Cobra: Many wars were prevented, many negative things that would have otherwise [occurred] have been prevented. Of course, people have greater expectations, and I also had greater expectations, and we were all expecting things to get better and easier before, but there is simply so much darkness on this planet that it takes time to resolve all of this. So it is not a question if this is working or not. It is just a question how much it has to transform and it's a lot. Believe me, it's a lot.

Starlight:  Actually, it is a question of whether this is working or not, because no one can know with their own experience, nor with any evidence, that “Many wars were prevented, many negative things that would have otherwise [occurred] have been prevented.”  People only have Cobra's word to go on as an authority figure in this instance, and that’s it.  Any and all outcomes often get connected with the 2012 Portal Paradigm.  Yet, there are many other possible causes for events that take place in the world, many of which are quite mundane.

Debra: Okay, very good. So I have a curious question. Is this Part 2 the second half of the 12:21 Ascension Portal Activation, or do you anticipate there being additional parts in the future?

Cobra: This is classified information at this point.

Starlight speculation:  There will be a Part 3 toward the end of the year.  Part 3 will probably go something like this:  “Many hell to heaven conversions have taken place, but to take this to the final level for Source to trigger the Event, Part 3 will bring the quantum field to the final needed stage.” 

Debra: Okay, thank you. In the instructions for the 12:21 Ascension Portal Activation Part 2 meditation, we are to visualize a wave of opalescent blue light of the New Heaven descending from the sky into our heart chakra, all cosmic beings of light supporting this process. Then we visualize a wave of emerald green light of the New Earth ascending from the Earth into our heart chakra, with all subterranean beings of light supporting this process. Then we visualize both energies merging in our heart chakra and creating a field of opalescent blue-green energy of paradise around us. Would you discuss the meaning and power of this opalescent blue-green energy of paradise?

Cobra: That energy is the energy of the 12th Ray. This is the energy which will anchor the perfect archetype for our future. This is like the best possible, super golden, the best possible timeline for the planet. It is, I would say, the most possible positive energy.

Starlight:  I resonate with the blue-green and golden energy aspect.

Cobra: The main thing is if people manifest their Golden Timeline, this is the best approach towards the Event because then they will be less stressed, they will be more balanced, and this is exactly the energy which is needed for the Event to happen.

Starlight:  Yet, it was repeatedly stated in the past that more instability is a “boiling point” that can cause Source to trigger the Event.

Debra: Okay, thank you. There are a few questions about life after the Event. What's approximately the timeframe to integrate advanced technology into the general public after the Event?

Cobra: I would say a few years.

Starlight:  Yet, no one knows when the Event will happen.  When it becomes so cryptic, this is when I start tuning out.

Cobra: What is most important to know is that this nightmare will be over. I don't know exactly when or how, but it will be over and there are already results which can be felt. The energies on the surface are definitely better than they were 10 years ago. If you remember how things were 10 years ago or even a few years ago and now you can feel the difference and things are going in the right direction, it just takes time. So what is important for us is just to keep going until the finish line.

Starlight:  Not knowing how and when is too ambiguous.  Cobra is not God, but this isn't something that can be worked with when neither how nor when is known.  And, how exactly are the energies better now compared with 10 years ago?  This doesn't ring true at all.  

"Just keep going until the finish line" is how it's been done for 14 years and counting.  Followers are made to feel obligated to keep going no matter what, and no matter how long it takes.  This obligation can become a trap that is never broken free of if the Event keeps being postponed into the future.  There has to be a line drawn somewhere.  This extreme level of protraction is a life not worth living for those who are continuing just because they don't want to be 'quitters.'

It's a form of slavery to keep going with the mind fixated on a finish line that is continually out of reach.  Such a finish line obliterates access to the present moment.  (Disclaimer: "present moment" only if not being starved, bombed, physically tortured, etc.)

Cobra: This is the first result of the infiltration of the positive Andromedans and Aldebarans within the Trump administration. There are some people who are not of a human origin who are basically part of the Andromedan and Aldebaran team who are within the administration and they're engineering this. So it is happening because, I would say, the deep state cannot stop this anymore. So they're trying to spin it, but they cannot stop it.

Starlight:  Yet, there are countless people who really don’t like Trump, so they will not be excited about disclosure coming out through the Trump administration.  They will simply tune this out.  And, there are many lightworkers who are not in favor of government disclosure.  (I take no pro nor anti stance on Trump myself; I'm not focused on Trump and Elon.) 

Cobra: I was describing how the implants are structured, what the programming is and how this is being dismantled. And if people follow that guidance, there will be many breakthroughs.

Debra: Okay. Do you see this has been getting better in this area?

Cobra: No.

Debra: So we need to do more work on that.

Cobra: This has not even started.

Starlight:  If the implants were being disabled/removed, this would not solely rely on ‘working on oneself’ and so forth.  The guided self-work can help, but the many implant clearings over the years should have already been having effects that are independent of participation.  After all those 2012 Portal posts about implant clearings, now we get "This has not even started."

Debra: Now in the past you've said that the manifestation of the Event does not depend on the consciousness level of humanity, but yet now raising our consciousness and our vibration by working to manifest our personal and planetary timeline does seem to be important and necessary. So why is it the Light Forces are now asking us to do this, and why now? Have the energies become more favorable for us to manifest?

Cobra: As I have said before, since the activation last August, we can begin to start utilizing our free will, and this is exactly why this process is taking place now.

Starlight:  Cobra’s answer does not address the question.  Having more free will is fantastic (is there really though?), but it’s a massive inconsistency in the narrative to say that humans working on personal and planetary timelines is absolutely needed.  I have no problem with improving 1% and working on golden timelines, but this needs to not be presented in a way that makes people feel obligated.  “No pressure” is key.  When there’s no pressure, people don’t feel strongarmed and will be more likely to give it a go.  The same applies for mass meditations.  The mindset of great urgency can have a sabotaging influence, especially when there are gaping contradictions in the narrative.  (Newcomers to 2012 Portal may be a different story.)

Cobra: Okay, number one is that I know what my purpose is and I follow that purpose. I would say my will is unbreakable because I know what I came here to do and I will do it. This is not to say it was easy; it was extremely hard, but it does not mean that we will not be successful. It just means that it takes longer. There are many disappointments, but the main key is to connect with the Higher Self and to be aware of the highest purpose all the time.

Starlight:  I must admit, I admire an unbreakable will.

Concluding Statement

My main focus will be healing trauma, which means a new line of research I'm pursuing.  I don't want to slow this down by getting caught up in the 2012 Portal paradigm, for or against.  It just goes in circles with 2012 Portal, stunting my research/growth.  Per day, one can spend too much time calling out inconsistencies with 2012 Portal, and too much time being in discord from all the resulting mental prisons in relation to Ets.  My plan is for this post to be the last post that addresses 2012 Portal and related material.  Others can comment about 2012 Portal if they'd like of course, but I myself will no longer participate in this, not even when I agree with what the comments say.  (That's just me.)

And, it's fine for those who need to focus elsewhere and do other things.  There's no obligation.  No pressure.  There's no such thing as quitting when there's something else to start.  Unbreakable wills do not all have to go in the same direction.  There are so many people in the world who 'hold the Light' very powerfully/profoundly who are unfamiliar with 2012 Portal, and who are not into Ets at all.

Just the same, it's fine to continue with the 2012 Portal paradigm for those who feel guided.  Just because I find 2012 Portal to be disempowering does not mean others will.  

I'm not sure how long it will take to read the new material I've encountered on healing trauma.  It's a considerable amount of research with surprising findings.  When mindfulness and meditation is done too much and/or in the wrong way, past traumas can actually surface so severely that a person experiences "retraumatization."  For the most part, this is something meditation retreats and spiritual teachers/leaders do not understand.  Every person has different needs, and just as there is no one-size-fits-all with diet, this is also true with mindfulness, meditation, and 'spiritual pursuits.'  

I'm also in battle with a being (or maybe beings) that I will call "The Ruiner."  This may or may not be the "Lurker."  The Ruiner is one of the strongest adversaries I've ever faced.  I can achieve some of the most superhuman feats in the dreamstate and it's nothing to this thing.  I won't give up though.  I must defeat it.  My soul's survival is in jeopardy if I don't.  

I may take a month or so off from posting. 

P.S.

There are many awesome commenters.  I really resonate with this youtube channel (quite a name for a channel but I don't take the name literally 😂) that someone mentioned:

https://www.youtube.com/@Dark-sd5xh/videos

And last but certainly not least:

An Alternate Scenario, Keeping It Low Key, Where I'm At With 2012 Portal, and Dark Lords

An Alternate Scenario 

In the scenario of no direct Et intervention, with humanity left to evolve more or less on its own (there's nothing wrong with exploring this possibility), it would take a considerable amount of time for humanity to become a type 1 civilization.  If someone wanted to have type 1 civilization tech in their lifetime, the best option would be to prolong their lifespan.  Developments for this are already taking shape:

Yet, earth could become a dystopian type 1.  This would of course make anti-aging and all the other 'nice stuff' available only to the elites, with a setup very similar to the movie Elysium:

Time will of course tell where earth is headed.  We'll see where AI goes, along with all the war scenarios.  There's no need to doom and gloom, but I'm in strong favor of being a 'realist.'  This means seeing both positive and negative aspects of AI and so forth.  The closest I can come currently for "Will earth become a non-dystopian type 1 civilization in the future if there is no direct Et intervention?" is, "Maybe, maybe not."

There is of course plenty of material on X for disclosure of Ets, but as a realist, I recognize that there was plenty of disclosure on Epstein, and nothing really happened with that (no mass arrests an so forth).  I'm not completely closed to the possibility of direct Et intervention, but I definitely take it with a hefty 'grain of salt.'  

If there was Et contact though, the Ets would need to be type 1, as this is humanity's next stage of evolution.  I emphasize that there can be no skipping of evolutionary phases.  Still, there is an ultra small number of humans who are ready for contact with type 2 and above, and a small portion among these who are ready for ascension.

Keeping It Low Key

I recognize the importance of keeping matters low key.  I actually almost didn't even post the above video on anti-aging peptides because there have been so many instances of very negative events occuring.  Remember back when the person with free energy technology was on his way to a Cobra conference and was murdered before he got there?  Because my blog was heavily associated with 2012 Portal, my blog could also be used as a 'monitor station' for the dark forces.  So, it may be best to keep it low key and not disclose developments in the world that are in the direction of type 1, nor personal developments on my blog (including comments).  (I make no accusation that 2012 Portal is intentionally a monitor station for the dark forces.  This could be entirely unintentional.  I'm just observing what's been happening.)   

All in all though, I see that definitely not all developments can be kept track of by the dark forces.  It's a 'whack-a-mole' scenario; they can't keep track of over 8 billion people, try as they may.  That's of course why they are pushing so hard for WW3. 

Where I'm At With 2012 Portal

I'm told that there are accusations against those who call matters out and question Cobra's narrative.  I'm told that Cobra stated at the latest workshop that such individuals are "hindering the process of planetary liberation."  That's what weaponized spirituality does.  It places blame on those who don't blindly follow the particular narrative.  Blaming and shaming is used to keep adherents 'in line.'  I wouldn't be surprised if some of that blame and shame was aimed in my direction.

Anyway, I was one of the biggest supporters of Cobra over the years.  I spread mass meditations all over the planet through various online means.  Six of my blog posts were posted on 2012 Portal.  I have already gone far and beyond the call of duty.  Alas though, I feel that I am done.  

After my family member was brutally tortured from the most extreme unexplainable chronic pain for 9 years, and then died about 5 months after the month Cobra's 'source' said there would be medbeds, with him dying in ICU in a truly horrible location that was said to be in the area of a 'goddess vortex' when this area is absolutely nothing of the sort... that was the final straw for me.  Yet, that's just me.

For those who want to participate in the upcoming 2012 Portal mass meditation, who want to keep going, that's fine.  I will neither encourage nor discourage this, nor will I discriminate. 

For those who want to permanently leave 2012 Portal externally (online) and internally, in order to truly do so, you cannot hate Cobra.  Hating Cobra ensnares you and brings you into darkness. 

Dark Lords

'Dark lords' (I make no accusation that Cobra is a dark lord) who have a narrative with a following operate in this way:

Those who adhere and support the dark lord make the dark lord more powerful.  Yet also, those who hate the dark lord make the dark lord more powerful.  That's the trap that ensnares.  Those who become disillusioned can end up becoming ensnared in hatred against the dark lord, which results in becoming ensnared in darkness, with the dark lord becoming stronger from this.  It's of course fine to call matters out and expose what needs to be exposed, but beyond this, the only way out is to no longer engage with the dark lord and their material.

Update:

An awesome commenter gave this excellent analysis: 

"The situation with Dark Lords you describe is typically the same with all negative, vampiric entities.  They need attention, positive or negative and it feeds them/invigorates them.  Not getting attention or being "fed" is usually the bane of their existence.

The modern internet saying "don't feed the trolls" comes to mind.  Same with people who are haunted or dealing with a negative attached entity terrorizing them:  reacting with hate or anger only delights and empowers the parasite.

Many abusers and criminals also enjoy it when their victims hate them or curse them or even seek revenge, as it "proves" to them they made their impact and accomplished the damage and chaos to others they sought to create."