The Spectrum of Wealth and How Strong Humanity Used To Be

Industrialized nations have more of a tendency to have income be based on merit, but third world countries do not.  For example, someone who consistently works hard for as long as it takes in an industrialized nation is more likely to (sooner or later) be well off, but someone who consistently works hard in a third world country for as long as it takes probably will not be well off because third world countries don't have these kinds of opportunities.

Actually, when thinking of what it means to be "well off," it's a vast spectrum.  The spectrum is as follows, in order of most scarce to least scarce in the context of monetary wealth/resources:

1. Homeless and starving to death in a third world country.

2. Having a very crude home in a third world country but working all day to barely have enough food to eat, and/or being malnourished.

3. Being homeless in an industrialized nation.  (This is higher than #2 because most homeless people in industrialized nations have better access to enough food and generally don't have to work all day.  Some are homeless and employed though.  There are examples that are not covered in this spectrum.)

4. Paying rent in an industrialized nation and living paycheck to paycheck (the lower end of 5 figure income).

5. Owning a home in an industrialized nation and being able to save up a nest egg over time (lower middle class).

6. Making 6 figure income (higher middle class).

7. Millionaire

8. Multimillionaire

9. Billionaire

10. Multibillionaire

Observations:

I myself am in category 4, but a tad better, as I'm in a lucky position to be able to save a bit at the same time.  This 'lucky position' will not last for too much longer though (long story).

I often view myself as being a loser because of being in category 4, but from the perspective of categories 1-3, I live like a King.  Someone in a third world country would do anything to be where I'm at.  Those above my category may not even be comprehensible to those living in third world countries, because it's so far away on the spectrum.  Likewise, I myself cannot conceive of what it would be like to be a multimillionaire.  

To multibillionaires, millionaires and 6 figure income people and everyone below them are perceived as losers.  Of course, everyone wants to be higher on the spectrum.  6 figure income people are unhappy because they want to be millionaires, and millionaires are unhappy because they want to be multimillionaires and billionaires, and so forth.  (Not everyone is unhappy of course, but there's always a longing for more.) 

There's also this type of existence to consider, that is completely outside the above spectrum, mentioned by Siris King:

https://youtu.be/vhF7wYpBBqE

And yes, these people have epic microbiomes!

Here is a tribe dancing around a fire:

https://youtu.be/dTL_TdONVBs

Here's a really nice music video in Africa:

https://youtu.be/at0ftnw3udI

(Thank you to Siris King for these finds!)

Why am I posting on Africa?  All humanity, regardless of race, originally came from Africa, and being able to see how humanity originally lived allows for a much better perspective when it comes to the spectrum.  

Humanity used to be strong enough (and a very small part still is) to be outside the systems we have today.  It's important for people to know this because it allows people to be internally liberated from the mental prison of monetary status, where people constantly compare themselves to each other.

This Changes Everything

(This is regarding Siris King's patreon discussion of the microbiome and its multidimensional aspects.)

The microbiome is more than just time-bound, physical organisms.  The gut (primary home of the microbiome) is a second mind within humans.  The microbiome contains knowledge of the ancestors, going back to the beginning of humanity.  To say that the microbiome's multidimensional aspects are mind blowing is an understatement! 

Humans have become so weak, both physically and 'psychically,' because their microbiomes are less diverse.  With each passing generation, humanity's microbiomes get weaker.  Here are some of the causes of humanity's weakening microbiome in modern times:

- Extreme overuse of antibiotics

- Overuse of hand sanitizers and antibacterial soaps

- Electrosmog from living in cities

- Decreased interaction with nature

- Alarming rate of increase in C-section births

- Gross overconsumption of sugary foods and processed foods

People may think that just by consuming probiotics such as yogurt and kefir that this will make their microbiomes stronger.  Although yogurt and kefir have strong strains of probiotics, it's actually variety that makes all the difference.  Here is a good example regarding the importance of variety when I did some online research:

"The Hadza people of Tanzania have at gut microbiome diversity that is one of the richest on the planet and about 40 per cent higher than the average American and about 30 per cent higher than the average Brit. 

The average Hadza person eats around 600 species of plants and animals in a year and has huge seasonal variation. They have virtually none of the common Western diseases such as obesity, allergies, heart disease and cancer. In contrast, most Westerners have fewer than 50 species in their diet and are facing an epidemic of illness and obesity." 

The more environments someone travels to, the more diverse their microbiome will be.  

I'm even considering purchasing soil from different parts of the world and putting my hands in it to increase my microbiome.

Even having a pet animal can increase the microbiome!

What's so amazing about the microbiome is that microorganisms are a powerhouse of not just the immune system and health, but also of metaphysical abilities.  Someone who has precognition probably never once considers how their microbiome is involved!  

This changes everything.

In the Interest of Fairness

I've been pretty harsh on Et intel lately, because I've been learning some seriously mind-blowing information from Siris King that has caused me to feel betrayed by Et groups and followings, both because of what they said that was misleading, and what they omitted that I needed to know.  However, to be fair, 2012 Portal is different than other Et intel.  I will go into some of the differences in this post.

I can't reveal too much about SK's material, because it's on his patreon.  It's not my intent to be regurgitating what he says either, as some kind of follower who can't think for himself.  It's just that what he says makes more sense than anything I've encountered before.  For example, he goes into the importance of the microbiome.  He shared a video on this today:

https://youtu.be/5DTrENdWvvM

I guess all these fancy Et groups omitted the the microbiome and it's critical importance to evolution, both physically and multidimensionally. 

Back to 2012 Portal though.

SK is hard on intel that says that Ets seeded the human race on Earth, because Ets that are only in physical ships are not remotely at the level to be able to seed life and create solar systems and so forth, and I agree with this.  However, 2012 Portal never said that Ets seeded the human race.  

SK also says that the belief that humans are of Et origin is a deception to distract from the true origin of human race, and I agree.  However, 2012 Portal states that the human race are kind of like the 'cousins' of the Pleiadians, but never stated that humans themselves are actual Ets (correct me if I'm wrong).

Regarding metal ships, 2012 Portal states that the Light Forces' ships are made of light, being something like this:

 

 

2012 Portal's mentioned ships can become physical, but are definitely not limited to being in 3D.  A metal ship that can go back and forth between being physical and being light, and between the physical and non-physical, is obviously much more advanced than typical metal ships that are promoted by Et groups unrelated to 2012 Portal.

I'm also open to the possibility that different groups have different names for the 'grays' (jinn and very old terrestrial beings of a certain kind) that have been abusing me for nearly two decades.  Maybe "archon" could be the term used by lightworkers to describe the same beings.

All the best.

What I Could Do But Won't

With the amount of estoeric information I've accumulated thus far:

I could start a cult, and tell my followers that I channeled the information from God.

I could start an Et group with elaborate intel and claim to be in contact with Ets who gave me special knowledge.

I could fool everyone with what I've learned (I won't though), because most people don't do their homework.  Most people don't read books like this, which was published in 1908:

 

I've heard lightworkers and newagers say many times, "As above, so below."  This is actually the Hermetic Principle of Correspondence from the above book.  I'm definitely betting not many lightworkers or newagers could tell me the origin of "As above, so below."  And guess what?  The Principle of Correspondence is only 1 out of 7 hermetic principles in the above book!  So much spiritual information people talk about today is watered down and incomplete!

And what about the jinn?  Why doesn't any Et intel talk about the jinn?  Is it because the jinn hide their identity behind being Ets?  I've been told by Siris King, who's read hundreds of esoteric books and who has more esoteric experience than anyone I've ever known that yes, the jinn run quite a bit of Et intel and yes, the jinn pretend to be Ets, such as the grays!

Furthermore, lately I've been feeling guided to stop paying attention to all the Et stuff, because when I connect to nature, I find that all the Et stuff is not in tune with nature.  When I connect with the plant life and the land to heal, all the Et stuff feels artificial by comparison.  Most of human civilization feels this way as well. 

Stop Running From Pain To Make Real Changes

Originally, getting back to non-distorted states did not require suffering, but much of humanity has gotten so off track, in order to make positive changes, suffering is unavoidable.  The suffering is not permanent though, subsiding after various amounts of time.  Here are some examples:

Taking a cold shower or ice bath seems unbearable at first, but after a couple minutes or so, the water starts to no longer feel cold, and the mind, body, and soul are rejuvenated.  Chanting in cold water is especially effective.  

To cut out sweet foods from the diet, seemingly unbearable sweet cravings will manifest for someone who is used to often eating sweets.  Yet, after a couple days or so of not eating sweets, the sugar cravings disappear.

Doing pushups when not feeling up to the task can seem like an agonizing chore, but after the pushups are finished, the mind and body are enhanced.

Meditating and/or doing breathing exercises when not feeling like it can feel like an eternity at first, but afterward one is more clear and content.

(There are many other examples, but these are some that come to mind.)

Increasingly, we live in a world of comfort seekers who want to avoid suffering at all costs.  The irony is that by trying to avoid suffering, this creates incredible suffering in the long run.  

Example: 

Someone eating sugary foods every day (maybe 100 grams of simple sugar per day) for several years, which causes diabetes and other chronic health conditions that manifest astronomically more suffering than the scenario of this same person avoiding sugary foods for several years. 

Not all healing is pleasant.  Tough shit.

Why Waiting For The Event Is The Most Toxic And Damaging Thing Anyone Can Do

Back in the Spring of 2018, I was a major participant in 2012 Portal's "Contact Dish."

I participated in this project when visiting family at a family reunion, on family land.  

I was planning on not having to pay taxes the next year, because I strongly believed there would be first contact with positive Ets, full disclosure, and mass arrests of the cabal before the April 2019 tax deadline.  If I had known that 5 years later there would be no first contact with positive Ets, no full disclosure, and no mass arrests of the cabal, I would have worked harder to make more money so I could have more options, and would have taken action in various other areas to live a better life.

What would be the common sense thing to do when being led to believe in 2018 that planetary liberation would happen in a matter of a few months, when these few months turned into over 5 years, and now planetary liberation is being promoted to happen somewhere around 2 years in the future from 2023?  The common sense thing to do would be to not fall for it again, focus on living a better life in the here and now - actually getting somewhere, instead of being miserable with no life.

If planetary liberation happens in 2025, great!  Am I going to have my life stand still for it?  NO!  Been there, done that - I was hurt very badly while watching life pass me by!

I for one will be exercising common sense this time.  (I don't like the term "common sense," because many times common sense is common but nonsensical.  I'm using this term for convenience.)

Regarding 2012 Portal's Timing Of The Event

It's stated that waiting for the Event will prevent untold suffering.  However, maybe ask yourselves - in the world at large, how many people starve to death every day?  How many children get raped every day?  And what about all the abuse that has already happened?  And so on.

Whether the Event is done "at the right time" or right now, either way, the Event has already been stained. 

Have a nice day. 🙂

The Grand Alchemical Process

The following are some thoughts based on Siris King's patreon channel regarding the human program being deleted.

Creation and destruction of life on the microcosmic and macrocosmic scale is alchemy itself.  Regarding humanoid beings, the destruction of all previous races is the destructive aspect of transmutation and refinement within alchemy.  

Nothing ever truly dies though.  If the modern human race is destroyed, humanity will become something else as the next creation, along with whatever else is chosen to be a part of the next creation.  

On a personal note, I am not meant to be as I currently am.  When a toxic and destructive program or set of programs cannot be transmuted in life, the life must end and be reborn anew as something else.  This may be true personally because I keep 'screwing up,' and for humanity at large.

We shall see...

Tough Shit

I am going into a very high amount of adversity.  My job is going to be full time in the Summer, and I'm moving up to a permanent full time position afterward.  There is an increasingly aggressive energy in the public (my job deals primarily with the public.)  More and more, people are on a short fuse.  Most of my attention will be on getting through the storm.  I've actually never had a job that is this tough before.

Reality is reality.  I have to deal with it.  When things get really crazy (every time I go to work things get really crazy), and I start feeling like a victim, I'll say to myself, "Tough shit."  I'll simply have to "man up."  

I don't care that people say the dollar is worthless and is collapsing and so forth.  All I know from my experience - which, experience is all anyone can ever have to know anything - is that without money, there are no options in life.  So, for the first time ever, I'm not trying to get easy money from the stock market, which backfired on me every time anyway.  This time, I'm going all in, making money the only way that has ever worked for me - to work hard.

I will not be giving my energy and attention to false promises of "Operation Dreamland" and so forth.  I won't be complaining that the Light Forces won't give me money, for whatever current excuse or set of excuses that are currently being promoted, and blah, blah, blah.  No.  I will work hard to make money, and if anyone else complains about wanting to be free and not getting results, my reply will be, "Tough shit."

It should be obvious that nothing does itself.  So, I'm not going to put up with any more moping, from myself, or others.  If you want to mope, get a room.  I have work to do.

If you want results, work hard.  This doesn't just apply to money.  This also applies to having a better 'astral space' and so forth.  You want to stop being messed with?  Do the work to get some serious shields.  Research where you have to research to get this information, or use your intuition to make your own techniques, and make it happen.  Be tough in order to deal with shit. 

As for people who want a sex change, and other things that cannot get done without physical intervention from the Light Forces, sorry, but this is not my problem.  You'll just have to deal with this the best that you can, or not.  

I don't get free money from the government.  Druggies who live on food stamps, and countless other people who live off the government go through the checkout lanes.  I guess the free money is for them.  I guess I'll be financially supporting them as well.  Whatever.  I have work to do. 

I still have a heart.  I've been told that my heart chakra is the strongest, but I need other areas to be powerful as well.  Again, I need to be tough as well, to deal with shit that keeps getting thicker.

Wealthy people can live in their castles in the sky, but I'll work so fucking hard no one will be able to deny me my own castle.  I've lived in poverty for nearly two decades, and I'm done with that.  And, when my cup runneth over, I can be charitable, but I won't be giving homeless people money just so they can go buy drugs and booze.  Charity needs to be done intelligently.  Money can go to feeding people who starve to death every day in certain countries.  They are the ones who need help the most. 

All the best.

A Sad Dream - What Do You Feel Is Right?

I was around people wearing double masks, and then I was carried away in the back of a truck, and I was crying.  I was sad because I was being carried away from the Light Forces.

I actually went to my blog to delete it today, but I'll post this instead. 

It's a matter of what people feel they should do, regardless of what anyone says.  

What do you feel is right?

How To Get Out Of The Most Awkward And Insane Position Of All Time

To say the least, 2012 Portal's evacuation scenario is not practical.  Most of humanity has little interest in Ets.  Most of humanity are religious, and if not religious, are understandably skeptical regarding Ets.  Only a small percentage of the surface population would be willing to go up into Et ships.  Also, the mega tsunami would genocide all plant life on the planet surface.  Also, the logistics of saving all the animal life is not practical.  This, along with other reasons, is why I'm more open to E'Asha Ashayana's material.  

Below is my current stance in the context of her material.  This stance is subject to change if there is significant tangible progress from 2012 Portal's 'Light Forces' to explain everything publicly, from 'why E'Asha Ashayana is incorrect', to the Jinn, to proof of the qlippoth being dissolved, and everything in between (there is a near zero percent likelihood that any such disclosures and explanations will occur).

(Metatron came from the ascended consciousness gestalt Giovanni.)  The attempted solution to trapezoidal geometry was metatronic geometry.  Yet, this solution became another problem, and ended up being used to take living systems into black hole systems.  

I don't doubt that there is a war against the cabal from the 'metatron crew,' but the metatron crew are knowingly or unknowingly a part of a much larger deception.  There could be a liberated Earth and galaxy, but if the merkaba requires external quanta, obtaining energy from the creation instead of the Creator, the end result is space-dust, non-sentient return to Source.  Billions of years could go by for this to happen, but the end result always has the final say.  The problems Earth and the cosmos face are extremely layered - layers upon layers upon layers.  One layer of truth ends up becoming a layer of deception in the larger picture beyond the 'larger picture.'

2012 Portal has been saying "We are running out of time" because the fallen agenda that wants to pull Earth into a black hold system is being blocked by the Guardians.  The time for the fall agenda to succeed was within the 7 Jehovian seals/trumpets of death being released.  Now that the final seal/trumpet of death is being dissolved by the Chevron from the Guardians, the time has expired for the fallen pole shift to succeed.  2012 Portal saying "Time is almost up" was true, but was not meant for the real positive forces.

E'Asha also states that the Milky Way Galaxy is an artificial fallen galaxy, and that there is not a central sun in the center.  The center of the Milky Way galaxy is instead a black hole.  I also confirmed this with another source.  Earth, however, is naturally from Source, not originally being from the Milky Way.

If there are not going to be detailed explanations from 2012 Portal to address every single concern and conflicting intel, the logical conclusion is to move to other sources and use discernment to the best of one's abilities, and, as always, find answers for oneself through direct experience, because without experience, nothing can truly be known.

If the Light Forces really are so powerful, people would not have to try to fit reality into 2012 Portal's paradigm in a state of cognitive dissonance. 

Even if 2012 Portal is telling the real truth, I will not believe I am helpless against microchip implants while waiting on the Light Forces to clear out the DARPA pit that should have been cleared out months ago, and/or immediately since all the toplet bombs are gone.  No one should ever place themselves in such a position or frame of mind.  No one should give their focus and power away to helpless scenarios.  Focus needs to be on self-empowerment and the empowerment of others as much as possible.

I'll end this with the following advice:

No one should 'put all their cards in one place.'   

House Gets Cleared In Dream

I just had a dream of uninvited guests being thrown out of a house I was living in.  This directly coincides with E'Asha Ashayana's timeline of a "Chevron" (as they are called) activating today, May 22, to dissolve the 7th and final jehovian seal or 'trumpet of death' that came through November of last year.

E'Asha also stated that there are imposters pretending to be 'good guys.'  This makes sense because there are so many Et groups who are not what they claim to be at all.

The negative forces are probably aware of the Chevron, but no one can stop it.  Good riddance.

Attacked by Ugly Greys in the Dreamstate - Once Again

About an hour ago I had another horrible dream of greys, or Jinn, if that's what they really are.  Yep, I keep getting picked on, and as always, there is no protection at all.  This is why I can't trust Et stuff, because this is what happens.  I hate these things.  I just wish they would all die.  

I watched this video just after the attack, that was posted on Siris King's patreon, which goes into how Et stuff is really the attempted recreation of Atlantis for a 'New World Order' scenario - whereas, Ets are promoted as a distraction from what are really very negative forces that go back to the old corrupted Atlantis.  The current situation is not positive Ets to 'save us' at all.  They are really just trying to connect new satellites to old Atlantean satellites for the next attempted global takeover.

https://youtu.be/ssWLYUQ6vZU

There's One Exception To All Et Groups Being The Same

Regarding my previous post saying that all Et groups are the same, this isn't 100% true.  E'Asha Ashayana's work is very different from the rest.

I've been watching probably close to 20 hours of material from E'Asha Ashayana's live replays over the last week or so, which can be viewed for a reasonable price (in my opinion) here:

https://www.arhayas.com/pages/upcoming-events

(This is what I've been looking at lately - I'm not trying to be a salesman or anything.) 

There will probably be more material from her before the end of the year to finish the series.

I telepathically heard that the "Guardians," as they are called in her material, asked her to forgive me.  I haven't exactly been the nicest over the last few years.  For some reason I didn't see that she was still continuing her work and had not gone silent.  She works harder than anyone I've ever seen, and in my ignorance, I made ridiculous assumptions.  I also did 'energetic activations' that could definitely be seen as being on the side of negative agendas.  Those who watch her material will understand what I'm talking about in this regard.

Definitely, her series has the most advanced metaphysical mechanics and techniques I've ever seen!

She discusses year by year in the current timeframe what's been happening and what will happen with the planet and cosmos.  She also goes into the future for the next 1,011 years.  Without giving too many details, Earth and its inhabitants are being liberated from a very dismal fate.  She states that there will still be some conflicts, but that the conflicts are being blocked from becoming cataclysmic.

I find her paradigm much more balanced compared to other Et intel because false promises such as medbeds, mass arrests of the cabal, etc, are not promoted.  There are no empty promises that continually get moved into the future like a carrot on a stick.  No such nonsense is in her work.  

E'Asha Ashayana's material is definitely worth consideration in comparison to other Et groups and their claims.  If chosen, people can hear her out and then decide what direction to go.

All Et Groups Are The Same

Now this is going on:

https://halturnerradioshow.com/index.php/en/news-page/world/radiation-from-ukraine-reaches-lublin-poland

Millions of people who are not a part of the Nazi regime in Ukraine - civilians - will be getting cancer, and future generations will be getting really nasty birth defects.  The radiation is even going to countries outside Ukraine.

I don't follow the comments much on 2012 Portal, but this is noteworthy: 

 

I am in agreement.  

The pattern with all Et groups, and I mean all of them, is to make promises for positive intervention, while conditions continue to worsen for the planet. 

I'm sure that when 2025 rolls around, there will be a whole new set of excuses as to why there cannot be any intervention on the planet surface.  I'd love to be proven wrong, but unfortunately, thus far I've been proven right every time on this.  Therefore, I am abandoning all Et intel.  If Ets want to intervene, as I've said recently, this is going to have to be on their own merits.  

It has become psychologically harmful to think about Ets while the cabal are perpetually allowed to harm the surface population with impunity. 

Here is the difference of perspectives of Ets promising positive intervention, and Ets not even entering the mind:

Having Ets promising positive intervention on the mind when things keep going wrong, both personally and in the larger picture:

"Why do they allow this to keep happening?  Why won't they intervene?  This is how they show their love for us?  What a bunch of assholes, living in their cozy ships while people down here are being abused like this!" (etc.)

Ets and their empty promises not entering the mind at all when things keep going wrong, both personally and in the larger picture:

"I'll do the best I can to live life the best I can, even with personal issues I haven't been able to resolve yet, and with all the horrible things that keep happening in the world.  Knowing that the problems in my life and in the world at large are not really my fault can help me to let go so that the evil actions of others can fall back on them.  It's worth a shot!"

By the way, here's a book worth investigating.  This and related materials is where it's really all at:

 

 

What if there is a way to take charge of one's own health by learning how to make secret elixirs?  It's possible to prolong one's own life far beyond 100 years with exceptional health.  Nope, sorry.  No falsely promised medbeds involved.  This is plant alchemy.  

There are (non-cabal) secret immortal societies on Earth that know how to live for a very, very long time through positive occult sciences that make Et intel a joke by comparison.

In closing, this is something only a very small number of people would know what I'm talking about when I ask this: 

I wonder what the secret police and chiefs would have to say about all this 'Et stuff?'

Regarding Kundalini

Serpent energy is often talked about very positively in the spiritual community.  However, most people can't handle large amounts of the energy well.  9.9 times out of 10, this energy becomes a corrupting force.  I've come to the conclusion that the documentary "Holy Hell" is an example of a spiritual teacher who was corrupted by excess serpent energy over time:

https://youtu.be/2f2BG43JW0o

Sai Baba is another example of a spiritual teacher who had a sex scandal.  I wonder how many spiritual teachers out there have sex scandals or are not what they appear.  My intuition and other claims say that the number of corrupted spiritual teachers and followers is on an epidemic level.  Many spiritual groups and teachings are termed as "weaponized spirituality" by a previously known individual.  This is a very accurate term.

The reason kundalini energy is called serpent energy is not a coincidence.  Snakes can be found reproducing by entangling each other in sex orgies in nature.  

Extreme trauma and stress can activate kundalini, which could factor into criminal behavior.  There is a strong theory that criminal behavior originates from too much stress.  At the very least, stress definitely causes people to not get along with each other.

There is a way to master massive amounts of serpent energy, but no spiritual teachers and followers have access to this knowledge.  Such knowledge is highly guarded among the most adept of the adept.  Accurate and complete knowledge about it cannot be found in any book or online.  2012 Portal has discussed kundalini energy, but 'only barely scratched the surface.'  Knowledge about kundalini is kept ultra-secret partly to protect this knowledge from being misused.  Kundalini is definitely not something to 'mess around with.'

In and of itself, serpent energy is not evil, but when mixed with humans in excess who don't have above-top-secret knowledge, it causes their reptilian brains to go into overdrive. 

Humans think they are above being animals, but really, humans are animals that have more sophisticated technology.  I was told by someone who really knows what they are talking about to learn to be a good animal first.  Learning to be a good animal is the foundation that people definitely overlook.

What I Must Do

In my case at least, life is becoming too chaotic and difficult.  Here are some things that have been going wrong as of late:

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In the stock market, I invested $2400 of my hard earned money in First Republic Bank when it was at $25.  I decided to do this because I thought the meditations would allow First Republic Bank to go back up to where it was before, which was over $100, or at least to somewhere that would at least double my money.  This was not the primary reason for me doing the meditations to alleviate the financial situation, but I figured, why not give it a go?  For so many years, I've been trying to find ways to not have to work 9-5 jobs so that I could focus on 'higher aspects.'  The motive to 'make it big' has not been out of greed.  I simply wanted to have my attention freed up.  Anyway, I sold First Republic Bank at around $15 and cut my losses.

My phone doesn't work no matter what I do to try to fix it.  I spent quite a bit of time yesterday after a long day's work chatting on my computer with the the phone service to get it to work to no avail.  Although I rarely use my phone, when I do use it, I really need for it to work.  This has been a major stressor, especially since it stopped working when trying to order a very important product when the seller kept blocking my purchase online.

I've been making mistakes at my job to the point where other employees started treating me like I'm 'mentally handicapped,' or at least it seemed so.

The road rage incident.

The tachyon discs really messed me up, and I'm not getting a full refund on one of their products, even though I shipped it back to them 3 weeks ago.  There has been no response when I contacted them about this.  Cobra's tachyon chamber did not have the benefits I thought it did either after doing 7 sessions (8 sessions now, as I did one more yesterday.)

I have a case of 'kundalini syndrome' that gets worse when I place my attention on 'spiritual matters.'  The kundalini syndrome has been a great source of stress and suffering in ways I'd rather not go into.  I'll just say that many spiritual teachers are not what they appear to be at all, because they cannot handle the serpent energy.

My car is having problems that need to be fixed.

I'm still getting stinging sensations in my left arm and other parts of the body.

Continuing stomach issues and other health issues.

Horrible things keep happening in the world, with a list that is practically endless.  Gonzalo Lira being kidnapped by 'authorities' doesn't help either.  If I want to have an especially bad day, all I have to do is look at Hal Turner's news and so forth.  I'm not saying people should 'stick their head in the sand.'  It's important to know what's going on.  But I myself already have a full plate just keeping my own life going.  There's no more room on my plate for the additional stress of 'the world at large' and the cabal's latest tactics that they employ, as per usual, with impunity, despite all the propaganda saying that the cabal are being taken out from Fulford and others (which they've been saying for several years now.)  

I recently had a negative dream about Ets, including a UFO made of light that had a very scary Et come out to 'visit me' resembling the diabolical greys.  This is not the first time this has happened.  Because of these very traumatic experiences, I now subconsciously associate first contact with being in danger from the Ets themselves.  I didn't want to mention this before the Portal of Light Activation, so I bit my lip until now.

My heart is skipping beats again, probably because of the above stressors.  Heart palpitations would of course be an additional stressor.

(This is a just a list off the top of my head.)

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I need to stabilize my 'life situation,' and I've found that if I no longer pay attention to Ets and all the 'other stuff out there,' and instead have my attention on life in the here and now, I'm much more stable.  Maybe the dark forces want me to no longer pay attention to 'all the other stuff,' but I have to do what I have to do, and it's not my fault.  There simply wasn't enough intervention on any remote level to improve my life situation from outside forces, such as the Light Forces.  However, it is my responsibility to no longer give my power away to outside sources of intervention.

Furthermore regarding my place of employment, it's a difference of 'night and day' when I focus on tasks at hand with a mind that is present, as opposed to thinking about intervention to 'rescue me from a life of drudgery' and so forth.  All thoughts about 'being saved' cause me to become stressed out and create a victim mentality.  However, when I let all of this 'intervention stuff' go, I can perceive the stresses at my job as challenges I can overcome, which improves self-confidence.

Critical mass has been reached for the Portal of Light Activation, and the May 2nd and May 5th meditations are completed, which is fantastic, but where I stand now, very understandably, from here on forward, the Light Forces are going to have to 'take action' on their own merits.  I'm not going to sacrifice my well-being anymore, because when my well-being is sacrificed, I'm no good anyway.  

So, this is goodbye, at least for now.  I'm going to put 'all this stuff,' including the Event and everything else, completely out of my mind, in order to tend to my own garden, which is not selfish at all, because a garden that is full of weeds (which in many cases the weeds are not my fault) is of no use.

All the best.