A Major Victory for the Lightworker Community

I was at first becoming very upset in the comments section on the 2012poral blog with Libra J. M. Aquila.  Then, when she made some audio clips of herself talking, I was no longer angry.  Now, I view her with respect.  

This change in interaction after hearing Libra J. M. Aquila speak reveals that a primary cause of lightworkers fighting with one another is because of only viewing comments.  We live in a 'smartphone culture' that 2012portal mentioned as being a major source of disempowerment.  A vast amount of the interactions online and with smartphones is only in the form of texting, and it's texting that appears to be the most prone to creating conflict.  

I view my recent interaction with Libra J. M. Aquila as a major victory for the lightworker community, because there can be less conflict when lightworkers realize that comments and text alone are more prone to creating conflict.  Through this awareness, lightworkers can more easily avoid conflicts with each other. 

Perhaps in the not-too-distant future, interaction between lightworkers can cover a much larger spectrum of interaction beyond only reading comments.  Doing so would allow for much greater cooperation within the lightworker community.  Many lightworkers understandably wish to remain anonymous, but as Earth is liberated, there will be less necessity to be 'lone wolves.'  

Thank you Libra J. M. Aquila for revealing the great importance of interaction beyond reading text!

Both Sides Believe They Will Be Destroyed

Just now in the dreamstate, I had a dream about homosexuals being oppressed.  I resonated with the mindset of homosexuals being persecuted when in the dream.  In the waking state though, I most often return to a mindset that looks at the larger picture.  I have returned to this perspective:

Left vs. Right is a struggle that never ends, because conflict begets conflict.  Regarding the upcoming mid-term election in the US, the far left believes their side will be oppressed and even genocided if the far right wins, and the far right believes the same if the far left wins.  

To stop civil war in the US, both sides of the political spectrum need (for lack of better words at the moment) to 'chill out.'  

To surpass the cabal/negative elites, it would be far more effective to not have this be tied to any political side.  

People can have various sexualities and beliefs and so forth without allowing these characteristics to define them.  This is once again why the works of Eckhart Tolle are so important in current times, because currently, so many people in the world are trying to have various identities, and these identities then form into hyper-polarized group consciousnesses, often resulting in... civil wars/genocides (history repeating itself).  

(For those who are not into Eckhart Tolle's works, that's fine too.  There are many ways to realize oneself beyond assigned identities.) 

Stop Waiting on The Event Part 2 - An Analogy for Further Explanation

There are those who have taken out of context what I said in my post, "Stop Waiting on the Event."  The message was quite simple, but for clarification purposes, I will use an analogy:

Suppose you are working at a seasonal job harvesting rice.  You have several rice paddies to harvest.  The work is very repetitive and grueling, and it will take a period of 4 months.  Each work day lasts 8-10 hours, depending on the different sizes of the rice paddies.  Some rice paddies take longer to harvest than others, and 2 rice paddies per day must harvested, which is several tons of rice.  Various machinery is used, and several boards are put in the water to round up the rice.  The rice is also along the banks of the paddies, so must be raked and rounded up around the perimeters.  There is a gas powered elevator for that scoops it up into trucks when it's rounded up with the boards.  A shovel must be used to help push the rice into the elevator.  The boards need to be tightened around the rice when being loaded into the trucks.  I could go on and on about the details of the harvesting, and this is not meant to be exactly accurate.  The idea is to illustrate the slow and meticulous nature of the harvest.

Ok, so, what's the most loosh-generating way to perceive the rice harvest?  Probably something like this:

"All I want is to get this over with, but 4 months of this?  This is going to take forever!  I can't even stand 2 hours!  I'm already sick to death of this!  I hate this!  On and on it goes.  It's neverending!  I just want this to be done!  I can't stand this!  So slow... so very slow... oh God it's so slow... I just want to die!"

Just put The Event in place of rice harvesting.  Except that with The Event, it's several years, and for some, even decades.  And, it doesn't help that people were under the impression that The Event would happen in a certain timeframe, and then this timeframe kept being moved into the future.

The healthiest way to deal with the rice harvest (being used as an analogy for The Event), is as follows:

"I'm not going to focus on the end result of the harvest being done.  I'm going to focus on my immediate day.  I will not allow thoughts about the future of being done with the harvest to enter my mind.  I will just do what needs to be done in the moment.  I will also have free time after each work day to do what I enjoy.  There are many things I look forward to at the end of each work day that make me happy!"

See the difference?

Let's Talk About Trust

Category 1 Ets

Ets who have been working to liberate Earth, who have been in our solar system for a long period of time, will not be trusted by most people.  They will be looked upon with great suspicion.  This is because of covid, and all the abuse that went along with covid (genocides in hospitals, mandates, the vast majority of negative elites remaining in power, etc, ad nauseam).  There will not be receptivity to reasons why category 1 Ets could not stop covid.  The only thing that will matter to most people is the bottom line, which is that covid, and the astronomical planet-wide abuse that went along with covid - occurred.

Category 2 Ets

Ets who have never been to our solar system before, who just got here to clear out the negative forces, will be trusted by a much larger portion of the surface population compared with category 1 Ets.  Corey Goode is becoming so popular because he states that positive Ets have just entered our solar system to clear out all the negative Ets that have been occupying our solar system for a long time.  (I'm not saying I believe Corey Goode's version - this is for explanation purposes only).

Alternate Scenario:  The surface population may have more trust with category 1 Ets.  This alternate scenario will be contingent on very clearly demonstrated positive physical intervention on the planet surface.  (To the majority of the surface population, the bottom line of demonstrated positive physical intervention supersedes any and all explanations for the inability to do so.) 

Stop Waiting on The Event

One of the biggest lies is to say that nothing significant will change on the planet surface until The Event.  From this lie, people are concluding that they must be miserable and complacent, and only The Event will save them.  

One of the most extreme ways for people to give their power away is to wait like this.  Continual abuse is allowed by doing so.  This is really pathetic and needs to stop.

Stop waiting on The Event and find ways to have joy in the here and now (common sense).

To Be Fair

There are times when I decide to just let go and forget about everything.  (I'm not sure how other people letting go affects them compared with myself letting go.  Everyone is different - 'no one size fits all.'  Some may not find it beneficial to let go.)

When I let go, I'm more likely to be shown some things in the dreamstate that can change my perspective.  My recent perspective has been to walk away from everything because my patience has completely run out.  Then, just now in the dreamstate, I saw an extremely complex situation possibly related to the current Wipeout Sequence fairly recently posted on 2012portal.  Negative entities would be messing with me, and then there would be others clearing the entities.  An analogy of this would be like going through a huge assembly line of entities that were being cleared.  

There was also a healing flame in my stomach area.  The energy felt very nice.  I'm not suggesting that people do this, but I may have made the flame go silver, or others may have made it go silver - I'm not sure.  

I wanted to know that there is a force out there clearing negative entities independently of my beliefs.  When I let go and disbelieved in everything esoteric/metaphysical, I did indeed experience independent consciousnesses from mine clearing out negative entities. 

I felt that this should be posted out of fairness.  

People may make what they wish out of this.  

Overstanding Psychology to Transcend the Victim Mentality

I asked the question today, "Why are there people who keep having victim mentalities on 2012portal?"  The answer that came was, 2012portal encourages a victim mentality.  How?  By causing people to believe that very soon positive Ets will take care of all their needs, and then this doesn't happen.  Instead, followers get attacked for several years.  

2012portal has repeatedly stated that victory on the planet surface is near, but this never happens.  Meditation after meditation goes by, and nothing ever improves on the planet surface.  Then, it is stated that nothing will drastically improve on the planet surface until The Event, and people are led to believe that The Event is just around the corner, for several years.

I remember a cartoon drawing on 2012portal with someone looking up to UFOs to save them.  What affect does this have on someone when, years after such a photo is posted, there is still no rescue?  See where I'm going with this?

I've been tempted many times to have a victim mentality, and have occasionally given in.  Whenever something goes wrong on the planet surface, there is the temptation to get upset with the Light Forces and Underground Resistance for not intervening.

Toplet bombs?  Implants?  All these years and that's still what's blocking physical intervention on the planet surface, along with intervention to clear all these nonphysical entities and so forth that keep attacking?  Then, recently, a lack of intervention was blamed on the Russian generals.  Right... anyway...

Here's what to do:

Whenever something seriously goes wrong in one's own life and/or in the world at large, stop thinking about the Light Forces and Underground Resistance.  Here's an elaboration:

Things seriously going wrong with the Light Forces and Underground Resistance in context:

"Why won't they intervene?  They don't care about us at all!  They just allow us to suffer while they are in their cozy ships and bases!" 

Things seriously going wrong without the Light Forces and Underground Resistance in context:

"It's a shame that these bad things are happening, but we've got to do the best we can.  Humanity will find a way through these difficult times.  Humanity has survived the most extreme adversity throughout history.  Humanity is strong, and so am I!"

See the difference?  

Sure, bring the Light through, and help clear the implants and anomaly, but stop thinking about Ets and 2012portal so much, because this all-too-often creates lose-lose ways of thinking, which has been revealed in the 2012portal comments section over the years, ad nauseam.  Others complain about the complaining, but I prefer to go to the root of the matter. 

One doesn't have to ultimately abandon the Light Forces, Underground Resistance, and 2012portal, but it's important to overstand the psychology.  Everything that's online is, in fact, psychological.  Analyze what's being said online, and ask the question, "What effect does this have psychologically?" 

The Hole Inside

When I was in elementary school and middle school, there was a girl who was always very nice to me.  She would always want to sit next to me.  I would hold her bag for her.  I had never known that anyone could be this nice to me.  I adored her.  I wanted to marry her when we were old enough.  

Then, when she was in her teens, she went through many different boyfriends.  I wanted to be her boyfriend, but she was disgusted by me.  I wouldn't give up though.  Through high school and after high school, I still thought it was possible.  

After enough time, I did give up.  I convinced myself that I wanted nothing to do with getting married and raising a family.  I convinced myself that my path was supposed to be different.  I convinced myself that I was always this way, when I wasn't.

The family unit is actually the foundation upon which humanity stands.  Those who are in their 30's who are not married with children, or who don't even have a romantic partner at all, will have a huge hole inside them.  They will be much more likely to do drugs and/or commit crimes.  They will be much more likely to behave in self-destructive ways to fill that hole.

The entire reason for being human is to have a family unit.  This is what everyone is designed to be, except of course for the small percentage of the population who are born psychopaths.  Without a family unit - without a wife, or husband, and children to come home to after work and so forth, there will be serious problems staying motivated.

The vast majority of everyone I know who are my age are married with children.  These people are willing put in the extra work at their jobs.  They are willing to go the extra mile for their families.  In my case, however, my heart was broken, and I didn't want other fish in the sea.  I only wanted her.  (Maybe she was my twin flame, or I'm just obsessed.  I don't know.)  I have very little motivation to go to work.  I have very little motivation to do anything.  I'm 38 and have never even had sex with the opposite sex, and whether I like it or not, this puts me at a severe disadvantage in life.  

Ironically, managing that gaping hole inside is far more work compared with raising a family.  I never knew just how much the hole inside could wreak absolute havoc on just about every area of my life.  I was designed to raise a family.  Going outside of what I was designed to be has caused more problems than I ever thought possible.  

The only way I know of for those who are alone like this in life (by no choice of their own) to be fulfilled is to be in the present moment and harmonize with their environments.  (Eckhart Tolle's books and lectures are very useful for this.)

I'm not unique at all.  I wanted the same thing everyone else wanted.  If I actually had done what I was designed to do, I would probably not be aware of 2012portal, and all the other esoteric people and sources of intel.  I would be too busy living the life I was created to live.

Although I respect the family unit, I know that it's too late for me.  Maybe there is a family from above though.  

I accept the course I'm on.  I'm glad to have awakened and to have been a part of planetary liberation.  

The purpose of writing this post is to overstand the hole inside.

SOS (Updated)

I made some huge changes late last month.  I quit my old job and moved.  The new job is overwhelming me though.  It's very grueling, repetitive work, and I'm expected to put in overtime, and it's 6 days a week, all in a row.  My previous job was only 20-25 hours a week and paid well.  I'm feeling very trapped by my new job, even though it's seasonal work.  I was actually better off at my old job and living at my old apartment - I wasn't nearly as miserable.  I don't know what to do.

I need guidance regarding where I'm supposed to go and what I'm supposed to do.  I'm really at a loss as to what my next steps need to be.  I wanted to do something else entirely, but I didn't want to be worked this hard.  I just wish someone could give me some money with no strings attached.  That's how I really feel.  

I also have a health condition - I'm 'shitting bricks.'  It's very painful every time, and I have to 'flush it out' sometimes.  This is really starting to concern me.

On a positive note, although I'm super-exhausted, I still manage to do some meditations, and the Light is very powerful.   I still recognize my previous post "Victory of Being True to Oneself."  Some important points were made in that post, but I still am open to meditations.  I do the meditations in an unorthodox way, combining them with another activity that really relaxes me (a video game with open scenery and nice music).  I probably get into the alpha state this way, which allows me to not try to hard to bring the Light through, allowing for a more powerful experience.  I pause the game off and on, with meditation visuals on another screen next to the game.

But otherwise, yeah I'm in hell.  The job is killing me.  The people there are nice, but I absolutely can't stand not having much free time and feeling like I'm being worked to death.  I am in dire need of assistance to get free from this.  I'm still being metaphysically attacked as well.  I get stinging sensations while I'm at work.  This is really not good. 

I really need help.  No, not just energetic support.  Energetic support doesn't alleviate my health conditions and situation.  For once, couldn't the help physically manifest?

SOS 

Update: An agreement has been reached to work part-time.

Update 2 on 10/13: Going to try more protein with the snacks and give full time another go.  I will make this work.

Update 3 on 10/14: I'm able to keep going with the job.  I was going way too low in protein, and this problem has now been fixed.  This doesn't mean that I should be working menial labor jobs for the rest of my life though. 

The Threefold Flame

According to multiple sources, there are two other flames besides the Violet Flame.  The three flames together is called the Threefold Flame, or Trinity Flame:

(I am not the creator of the above image.)

The Threefold Flame has these three flames: The Violet Flame, the Golden-Yellow Flame, and the Blue Flame.  All three flames are important, and can be used for planetary cleansing and healing.  

Exclusively utilizing the Violet Flame over the other two flames could lead to imbalance.  

There is also the White Fire of An and the Pink Light.  All the chakras have their own colors as well. 

One can explore the spectrum, and find the frequencies that may be lacking, and/or frequencies that may be in too great an amount, within oneself.  In order to heal and be an effective Lightworker, one should work with the entire spectrum of Light.

The Rainbow Flower of Life can assist with this, but one can also use individual hues to see how they feel.  Or, if one feels that 45 degree geometry is better, this can be utilized.  It is possible to have an endless Flower of Life with 45 degree angles.  I was just shown a 45 degree angled Flower of Life in the dreamstate, although I currently don't have the software to create it.

Victory of Being True to Oneself

It's now the highest priority to pursue what one most resonates with.  

I haven't been honest about what I resonate with, because I felt that I should sacrifice my own pursuits for the larger picture.  However, now that it's so late into 2022, I'm going to prioritize what makes me happy over the larger picture.  I've done my part to support the larger picture, and perhaps others can take it from here.  If others feel I am being self-centered, then so be it.  I actually am self-centered.  I am centered within myself.

My long-standing interest is to ground within Earth.  I value relationships with environments over relationships with people.  Environments such as natural settings and scenery, and even certain human-made scenery, are experienced as simultaneously unique and undefined.  Romantic relationships though - even though a part of me is interested in them, most of me is satisfied to be in a state of romance with environments.  

It's also one or the other.  It can never be both.  A romantic relationship with another person would get in the way of unification with environments, because the romantic partner would ask me why I don't pay her more attention and so forth.  

I'm not interested in twin flames, or anything of the sort.

The Light can come through - this is fine.  The Violet Flame is great to work with.  But what I'm truly drawn to is being one with environments.  This may sound bizarre to some, but 'it is what it is.'  

I can have professional relationships with other people, but I often prefer to be alone.  I could actually be happy never seeing another person again (of course only if food and shelter needs are perpetually met).  Ets are people too, it's true.  

Ralph Waldo Emerson had some good conversations with a small circle of friends.  Maybe I'm similar to Emerson.

I've also been continually attacked, and my dreamstate has been chaotic and disturbing.  The only thing that actually carried me through all the abuse over the years was to know that Earth is still here to support me.  It was my connection to Earth, and not 'the Light,' that allowed me to survive the harshest of attacks.  It is Earth from which I draw my Strength.  There is also the Light of the Sun, which nourishes Earth, so perhaps connecting to Earth is a way to connect to the Light, although indirectly.  Also, I suppose solid matter is made of condensed Light.  Others may draw their own conclusions regarding this matter. 

I heard the thoughtform early this morning possibly coming from the Light Forces basically saying that they would no longer work with me because I'm too compromised.  I admit, I have some seriously messed up thoughtforms.  I kind of figured that with all the claims about all the clearing that's been taking place that dark thoughtforms would have nearly been gone by now.  No, this hasn't happened, at least while doing what I've been doing.  So, maybe it really is time to do something... else.

To ignore one's own inner calling is to deny oneself.  Maybe in the future I will be different though.  Anything is possible.  But for now, and for quite some time, I've felt that I should focus on what's right in front of me instead of all this other... 'stuff.'

Victory of being true to oneself.

The Shift from Damage Control to Planetary Liberation

The world keeps running into problems, and then something is done to help reduce the severity of these problems.  For example, meditations were done to make peace between Russia, Ukraine, and NATO only after escalations.

Another example is meditations being done only after hurricane Ian became a super hurricane.

On the planet surface, there needs to be a much better system in place that predicts the moves of the negative forces long in advance, so that action can be taken long in advance to stop problems from ever starting.

I'm asking the question, "What are the negative forces planning next?"

This is a possibility:

"The Storm of the Century!"

https://youtu.be/uzTXUy8YQCM

Meditations need to shift from damage control to preventing any damage from occurring in the first place.  

Although there is advanced knowledge to prevent certain cataclysmic scenarios on the planet surface, the liberation of Earth probably requires full spectrum prevention of negative scenarios. 

The more influence the Light Forces have on the planet surface, the less damage the negative forces will be able to inflict.

The shift from damage control to damage prevention leads to planetary liberation.

The Violet Flame can maybe open the doorway for such a shift, so that no more 'shit' happens, along with the Divine Intervention Meditations.

The Greys and Their Commanders Could be Connected to Implants

This is again from Ananda Bosman’s The Unity Keys of Emmanuel.  The greys are mentioned:

“In the center of the negative side of the 4th color spectrum dimension, there will be one god being, certainly not the One Creator in the realization of All-Oneness, but one who calls itself a god commander.  He, in turn, would have many general-commanders, who are lower than it and who are partially plugged into its mind or dream-layout.  Each general-commander, in turn, has many sub-commanders, who are plugged into the general-commanders’ mind, so that they become lieutenant-commanders.  They in turn have group cultures plugged into their own minds, such as the small grey beings, some variations having big black eye lenses to adjust spectrums (the greys and many numerous other body types, are just dimensional interphase clothing modules).

There are 58-72 different varieties of humanoid animal fallen superspecie dream mixtures, or shape-shifters.  These have been observed in alleged extraterrestrial close encounters of the 3rd and 4th kind all over our planetary dream, by interacting into the conscious day reality dream of thousands of individuals.  The Vedic texts and other ancient eastern texts call these the Azuras, and the Nagas.  The latter are known as snake-skinned people who live underground, but who have the ability to appear as human.  The majority of these are interface bodies to our dimension – and thus act as doors of interaction, being on the edge of the lower spectrums of the 4th and 3rd density, and by translation, in some cases to the 4th color spectrum dimension.

However, some of the grey-type body forms are bred as permanent modulated bodies used by group programming by a higher commander, to perform permanent bio-robotic tasks in the 3rd density.  These are also utilized by the highest magician priest scientists of today’s secret societies and super-secret military forces, within the management of the gameboard of our planetary dream.”

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One of the particular problems I’ve been unable to overcome is the problem of the greys in the dreamstate.  I’ve been harassed for nearly two decades by having horrible dreams of them, although these dreams were not every night.  Sometimes months would go by before having another negative encounter.  Other times, I would have negative encounters more than once a month.

No matter what technique I would use, I’ve been powerless to free myself from the greys.  I would always be paralyzed and terrified of them in the dreamstate, unable to put up a fight.  The fact that they’ve been harassing me for so long shows that I’m either a threat to the commanders, or that the commanders seek to use me as a battery.

I’m curious about the link between the greys and the implants mentioned on 2012portal, which is why I decided to write one more excerpt from The Unity Keys of Emmanuel.  As far as I am aware, 2012portal has never discussed the greys.

David Wilcock and Corey Goode Exposed?

I've been doing some digging on them.  

Blue Chicken Cult EXPOSED! BOMBSHELL Information From #CITD2019 with Ryan Gable

https://youtu.be/L0RLuP7Hg_k

The Video Corey Goode, David Wilcock, AND the CIA - Don't Want you to See - 5TH INFO FOR THE COURT

https://youtu.be/uuBIHVcIF0A

The CIA has a program called Project Blue Bird?  Hmm, interesting...

The Beast Within Has Revealed Itself, Finally

In the past, the dreamstate was primarily used to abuse me.  Now, the dreamstate is changing more and more to reveal things about myself.  I may be putting myself ‘on the line’ for revealing this, giving negative forces ammunition to use against me, but I also know that I can access the Violet Flame to clear this at any time.

The dreamstate a couple hours ago was this:

I have some friends over to visit.  Some of them are people I know.  My room has a bunk bed, where I am sleeping on the top bunk, and a male and female friend are sleeping on the bottom bunk.  They keep making out with each other, and I put on earplugs because I am disgusted by the kissing sounds.  They are going to have sex because they think I am asleep.  The earplugs don’t help, and in aggravation, I surprise them when I tell them, “Get a room!”  The male friend is understanding, but the female is upset and feels that I have no right to tell them to leave.  They leave though, but I’m up and following them because the female keeps arguing with me.

Then, I’m alone in my room trying to go to sleep (trying to go to sleep when I’m of course already asleep), but the anger is overpowering.  I keep thinking about how I never get the girl and so forth.  I then do something I haven’t done in a while, which is to scream through my head really loud.  The screaming is a loud sound that goes through my physical brain.  It’s like an an energy surge of pure hatred.  The screaming energy surge is so intense that it’s a noise that no human can make.

Analysis of the dream:

When I was a child, the first girl I ever had a crush on rejected me over and over.  Then, later on as a child, this was repeated with a different girl.  I had a crush on this second girl throughout High School.  She always just wanted to be friends, and the thought of us going out with each other repulsed her.  She even said so once sometime around the 4th grade.  I remember the last day of my senior year of high school, when I was driving a Geo Metro, and she was with this other guy, kissing him next to his sports car.  There were also many other instances of male friends of mine who were with their girlfriends in High School, while I was alone.  I did have a girlfriend once, but at the time I wasn’t attracted to her, and others thought she was unattractive, so I pretended to cheat on her in order to dump her.

In adulthood I would be at parties and I would like a female, and she would end up going home with another guy who was treating her like crap.  The main point is that my main experiences in childhood and adulthood were rejection from the opposite sex.  And then, ‘less attractive’ females would be attracted to me when I was not attracted to them.  To make matters worse, other gay males would be attracted to me, and at one point I even tried to become gay, when I don’t think I’m gay.

I then watch other people start families when I’m always alone, the ‘odd one out.’

The dream revealed that I have a very deep anger for being left out.  In my childhood I was also not allowed to do things the other ‘big kids could do,’ so my ‘life story’ is to be left out, and what greater thing is there to be excluded from, than having a significant other and romantic love?  This is why I strongly adopted the ‘lone wolf’ mentality, and sought occult abilities and powers to make up for being so left out.

Being left out of romantic relationships crossed over into being left out of having finances as well.  I would keep having scenarios where I would watch other people ‘make it big’ and be financially successful in life, while I would be pretty much broke.  Others would have successful careers and/or monetary success while I was always at ‘rock bottom.’

My entire adult life has been one of enormous suffering and anguish.  My hatred runs much deeper than I realize.  I am extremely angry as I am writing this, but I also have I Am presence coming through enough to be able to remain calm enough to be coherent.

My ‘mutation of consciousness’ now makes sense.  Everything makes sense now.  I was left out in life in the most extreme ways possible, and then I explored the occult to make up for this, and then was metaphysically abused in the most extreme ways possible, but then I had a higher aspect come through, and I wanted to do something good by assisting planetary liberation.  It’s not all bad.  It’s just that I have some… issues.  (Maybe one way the negative forces attack is to try to mutate those who may be a threat to them into identifying with their perspectives over the course of their lives.)

These realizations about myself may be coming through as a result of the implants being cleared.

I am one angry, ANGRY individual.  I’m probably one of the most angry people on Earth.  The anger is so intense that it just exploded out of my brain, physically, a couple hours ago.

When I see people become wealthy, I hate them.  When I see people who are in romantic relationships, they disgust me when they make out, and I hate them.  I know it’s not right to hate them, but I’m just being completely honest about it.  I’m not going to deny my feelings. 

(I know that hating successful people is, in many cases, 'biting the hand that feeds me.'  Many successful people create technologies that I use, such as this computer.  I look at this from different angles, but the feeling is still there.)

Underneath the anger is a broken heart and feeling like the most victimized person on the planet.  Again, maybe I shouldn’t feel this way, but I’m not trying to control the feelings.  I’m being brutally honest about how I really feel.

I feel better now that I’ve written this. I’m more at peace now.

This was actually quite liberating.  Now that I know the cause of why I am the way that I am, the only direction I can go is... up.

(I've been eating flaxseeds recently, which have clearing properties.  Those who give flaxseeds a 'bad rap' could maybe reconsider their 'findings.')

I hope I’m not looked down upon for revealing this.  Maybe there are those who feel that I’m unfit to be doing lightwork when it could be easily argued that I have signs of being anti-Goddess.  I don’t know where I belong, but I do know that there are massive clearings taking place.  Maybe my anger can change.  Maybe I don’t have to be so left out in life in the future?  Or, maybe I want it to be this way, so I can access different states of consciousness that feel more unique, being much more connected to environments instead of people.

Either way, I look forward to clearing more and more with the Violet Flame.  When the energy can be felt physically, something truly monumental is taking place.

Central Suns Around Central Suns Eternally, and Surpassing the Cubeoctahedron

This is planned to the final, and probably most important, highlight from Ananda Bosman's The Unity Keys of Emmanuel.  I'm currently only about 1/4th the way through his book.  There will probably be many more sections that I find to be noteworthy (this material is exceptional beyond anything I've ever read).  Maybe others will also choose to read his book.

“You shall discover that in your body, your molecules never end.  However greatly you advance with material technology, you shall never find an end to substance in the microscopic scale, and indeed in the macrocosmic, you shall never find an end to the omniverse.

For once you are out of the universe you shall discover that is just one cell which is emitting one color of a color spectrum.  Yes it goes on.  You shall discover you are in a larger body, you shall realize that body is just one color, one color spectrum. 

So you realize that your progression is infinite, that you shall never find the complete answer, you shall never find the complete end.  For a period you will think you have mastered everything.  Once you have gone from the black, through the colors to the white, you will discover a new set of colors.

That space around which the colors are is but one color block of the whole color spectrum.  You shall discover – as many of you already know – that your Sun is but a Sun riveting around a Central Sun.  That Central Sun is riveting around an even far greater Central Sun, and that is exactly what it is doing around an even larger one, and so it goes on.

But, indeed, everyone is so unique in nature, is so different, that we would take literally hours just to explain one small area of another solar system or body.  But we can only give you comparisons of the larger whole so you realize how really you are one with all.

Locally all of the photons that are the magnetic fields, and comprise all of the elements, are modulated according to the gravitic interception geometry called the cubeoctahedron.  This is the shape of the first verse of Genesis, and is a holographic insert of hierarchy, as the ancient gameboard computers for light modulation.  Whoever is at the top of this geometrical alphabetic hierarchy, which includes the wave form shape of all languages, or to the DNA itself, and the flame of the hologram of chemical soul consciousness – has all the awareness’ who reside within this light computer grid, in a system according to their directives.  These are the maintainers of the dream.

It is only in spontaneous thought, through the Vortexijah by the Christ Self and Oversoul, that one can bypass these thought adjusting dream character animation stations consciousness libraries, or morpho-genetic species overpattern index firings.  

The emerald green in the rainbow is the only color that is neutral – where equal light is infusing and defusing.  It is through the aligned heart, through the aligned green to the light – emerald, that all the other colors can use it as the elevator to the Christ Son/Sun - their Source, as the word and Unityverse for this universe.  The 4th density is the dimension of the heart – the green elevator to the All-Oneness.”  

(Summary from Starlight: The emerald green awakened in the heart can surpass the maintainers of the dream/cubeoctahedron of hierarchy-illusion.)

I wonder what in nature can be emerald green.  Hmm...