Wrapping It Up
I asked myself, "How does one go about disconnecting from "personal evil?"" I then came up with this post:
Clearing oneself from personal evil entails:
Taking your worst inner 'demons' and fueling them to something creative/constructive/positive. Regardless of what the problem is, or how messed up it is, any and every type of inner distortion can become fuel for evolution. Let your worst aspects fuel your greatest aspirations.
Some examples:
– Envy of others can be fueled into asking oneself why one is envious, and what one really wants. Then, action can be taken toward greater personal abundance.
– A porn addict can actively remind him/herself to fuel their lust into creative pursuits every time it tries to overpower them. With their energy no longer being wasted on porn/excessive masturbation, higher functioning becomes hyper-activated. And, amazing and undefined bliss is experienced from the kundalini no longer being stuck in the lower chakras. (What is and is not excessive sexuality is of course up to the individual.)
– Anger can be fueled into taking action. Instead of being hateful and imagining ways to get revenge, the anger can fuel various projects for positive change.
– Guilt and shame from past mistakes can be fueled into a strong resolve to make better decisions in the present and future. One can also say or think, "I'm so grateful I'm not screwing up like that anymore."
– Depression and a feeling of pointlessness can be fueled into creating one's own unique meaning for oneself. This unique inner meaning need not rely on the external world and its geopolitics being 'perfect.'
– Rumination is a mental fire. Left uncontrolled, it burns the person. But if given fuel and direction through structure, creativity, or problem-solving, it becomes persistence, depth, and even genius. Rumination can become a powerful mental laboratory if the loop is directed toward problem-solving.
There are many other examples. What can judgement from others be turned into? What can fear be turned into? "How do I go about transforming (fill in the blank)?" Any and every destructive aspect can be transformed into the constructive. People can be creative with ideas for how to do so.
Self-help always says to develop higher potential, but rarely is it said to use one's shadow to be the greatest catalyst for growth and development. This guy, however, does excellent work:
"This Demon Has Been Possessing Your Emotions For Years"
Just as sewage/waste can be used as a form of energy by Ruggero Maria Santilli's hadronic mechanics, so too can inner darkness be transmuted into light. Perhaps the more intense the inner darkness, the more intense the light when it is transmuted.
Experimenting with darkness was the original 'cosmic error.' In many cases darkness did not return to the light. Now that the 12:21 portal is permanently open though, all darkness returns to light.
Powerful Observation:
ReplyDeleteI went to a family reunion recently, and I helped with various tasks there. During this time (about a week) my darkness vanished. I felt like I had a higher purpose. Yet, when I returned home from the reunion to my isolated hermit lifestyle, the darkness returned with a vengeance.
Conclusion:
It's absolutely essential to have a higher purpose in life. Without a higher purpose, one defaults on lead instead of gold because there's nothing else to do.
The higher purpose can't only be doing lightwork while life possibly becomes dysfunctional in other areas. The higher purpose needs to have physical manifestations.
It very well may be that the biggest weapon the dark forces use against lightworkers is nihilism itself.
I found out I have a sort of "neurosomatic core weakness" syndrome that's moderate to severe. It explains everything I've been experiencing since a couple of years. It's extremely difficult to treat or heal fully, and cannot be treated "conventionally", so I made a post on my Maya Social Center blog about it.
ReplyDeleteI'm doing what I can to manage. I can still be happy and disabled for now. I believe my soul path has chosen this for now until the time comes where I no longer require this type of experience.
Is it one of those issues where the brain tells the body there is pain, and then it gets conditioned to tell the body there's pain when there's not? At mayo they have this program where they try to retrain the brain with tai chi and so forth. Mayo suggested this for one of my family members to reduce constant excruciating pain (long story).
DeleteI get to be in a stronger state when I avoid fruits and vegetables, because my system can no longer handle them. And, white bread is better than whole wheat if doing carbs. Whole wheat gives me really bad indigestion and heartburn. Internal workings of many lightworkers have become so weak that they can no longer digest most plant foods.
It's not exactly physical pain. How I describe it is that my higher self was constantly screaming at me to use something for a while because it's become chronically very uncomfortable on many layers for me and draining to put all my energy in my full body all the time. I possibly have CFS too, and I told this to both my GP and a nurse at his clinic.
DeleteMy blog post explains it. I don't know what else to say. I got a wheelchair prescription for my mother's insurance today.
I think I can't allow myself to always transmute for a whole collective anymore.
I listened to my body and soul and do what is needed to regain recentering. I'm done with hiding and repressing for the sake of fake normalcy. I have four different diagnoses that explain my fluctuating mobility limitations.