Dentist Disaster

I've always taken pride in being able to take care of my teeth (I'm not into teeth whitening or anything silly like that).  I took pride in knowing that I have strong teeth and gums.  This pride resulted in me not thinking I needed to see a dentist, and so hadn't been to a dentist in 15 years.  A year ago this changed because two of my wisdom teeth (I allowed all my wisdom teeth to grow in on their own) were causing serious trouble.  Despite my best efforts, one wisdom tooth in particular became a very serious cavity.  So, I finally went to the dentist for this to have it removed, along with another that was somewhat problematic.  

The visit a year ago (and subsequent visits) went well.  I had the two wisdom teeth removed, and the dentist found just 3 cavities that didn't need crowns; just some fillings (the wisdom tooth was one of these 3 cavities).  However, it was discovered that I have periodontol disease, which is a gum disease where gingivitis becomes severe enough to where there can be bone loss.  There were subsequent treatments for this, which I agreed to undergo.  I was given a special mouth rinse which I've been using as suggested, and I was happy to learn from subsequent visits that my periodontol disease was on the road to recovery!

Then, I visited the dentist yesterday to learn that my periodontol disease was even worse than ever before.  The cleaning was very painful, and I was told that my periodontal disease was so bad that I needed to see a specialist.  The only idea why this has happened is because I started eating crackers as my main carbohydrate source.  After I got back home from the dentist, in a rage, I ended up throwing away all my crackers.

I was so pissed off over my teeth that I went zero carb most of the day yesterday.  I've modified my diet to go gluten free and dairy free, and am reducing my simple sugar intake even more, probably under 10g per day.  I'm also still going low carb until noon every day. 

I dreamed this afternoon (I take several naps per day unless I'm at work.  I take naps on my lunch break at work because I'm so fucking tired all the time) that I collapsed on the job.  I then had another 'energetic seizure' after I collapsed in the dream.  This was probably metaphorical for the clearing of the underground bases.  I'm in a total state of collapse.  I've been fighting it like crazy, but I just don't care anymore about the mission, or anything at all.  I don't care if I die.  I don't care if the world gets blown to bits.  Nothing matters.  

Work is a living hell.  There are not nearly enough workers at the store, and people keep calling in sick all the time.  My manager goes for 12 hours without a lunch break, and then (understandably) puts guilt trips on me to work more hours.  I hate working the hours I already have.  My job is a huge distraction from doing the meditations.  If people don't want to get jobs they can just starve when the grocery stores shut down from a lack of workers.

It is taking far too long to clear out the chimera.  To put it mildly, I'm out of patience.  I keep getting these stinging/burning sensations.  It feels like the meditations to remove the chimera are doing nothing at all.  Right now I'm so done with it all - 100% BURNED OUT.  Fuck everything.  

Hopefully this is just a phase though, and I'll get over it.  There are many times when I give up completely and let go, only to come back later full force.

I'll be back.

Regarding Death and Decay For Humans

Occultists who want to help humanity, and occult groups of this nature, have very powerful systems.  I part ways with the occult regarding death and decay for humans though, and probably always will.

The main two reasons occultists believe death and decay are necessary for humans are as follows:

1. If people didn't grow old and die, they would become corrupt.

2. In order for new life to exist, old life must die, because if not, there would not be enough room and resources for new life.  Nature balances old life with new life through death and decay.

Addressing the first reason, this is not true if there is always something new to learn and improve upon, which there always is.  Everything seems to be crammed and compressed into a very short life.  Many people who are at advanced ages feel as though they are just getting started with their lives, and they don't understand what happened.  "Where did all the years go?"  "My life is over so quickly."  "There's never enough time."  Then when someone dies of old age, life has to be started all over again, from scratch, with everything forgotten.  I don't agree that this is the best way.

Self-improvement is pointless when in a state of deterioration, starting approximately in the 30's age range, and there's really no such thing as 'aging gracefully.'  How is someone supposed to self-improve when they are in a state of decline?  At the very least, people should have healthy, ageless bodies for hundreds, if not thousands of years.  The only exception would be those who are a net drain on the world, who enjoy hurting others.  Those who enjoy hurting others should age, but 'good people' should be allowed to live as long as they please.  If a good person grows tired of physical existence, then by all means, it's fine to leave to another plane of existence.  But under the current paradigm, there is no choice in the matter, and life really is far too short.

Addressing the second reason, this is true only under a closed system.  If the proper technology existed, which hopefully it will very soon on Earth, other planets could be terraformed.  In fact, entire galaxies could even be created.  If so, there would be no need for nature to continue to cause aging for humans.  This is why although I am a huge fan of and even somewhat of a practitioner of occultism, (I use the occult to program the subconscious for desired manifestations and to perhaps change aspects I don't like about myself), I also am a part of the Cobra blog, which is open to possibilities occultists are not.  I don't judge occultists for not being open to these other possibilities.  I myself might even be more effective in my own manifestations if I honed in all my focus on the occult, and left Et's (Pleiadians and so forth) out of the picture.  Et's and the occult don't really mix well, but to have a life span of my own choosing, which is what I very much desire, I am open to the possibility of connecting with Et's who are said to have mastered technologies that can control the aging process (this is not the only reason I am interested in Et's - there are many other reasons).  I want to be clear that this is not to be confused with trans-humanism though.  It's obvious that trans-humanism destroys the soul and everything else in its path.

There have been people who believed in the Age of Aquarius since the 70's.  People who believe in Et's are regarded by occultists as new-agers, with all the rainbows, unicorns, and fluff and so forth.  Many times, this can be the case, but the Cobra blog is different.  The Cobra blog does have some new-age type ideas, but also has very advanced astrology and intel that cannot be found elsewhere.  The Cobra blog is one of the few exceptions to all the new-ager stuff that's out there.  And now, physical proof exists that the Cobra blog is authentic because of the earthquakes in the Congo that happened a few weeks ago, which is exactly where, for several years, the Cobra blog has stated the main underground bases exist, that are currently in the process of being cleared.   

Although I have mentioned various occult material on the Cobra blog in the comments many times over the years, these occultists are not associated with the Cobra blog in any way.  I hope they don't mind me mentioning their material there. 

Anyway, this is where I currently stand regarding death and decay.

Summary of Eating Plan to Feel Better

My Eating Plan to Feel Better post turned out to be quite a bit of reading, so I'll summarize what to do here:

- Drastically reduce sucrose/fructose (sweet foods).

- Go low carb until noon.  Not eating at all until noon just made me binge eat later on in the day, so I'm not doing the whole 'intermittent fasting' thing, at least for now.  Protein by itself in the morning gives me satiety later on in the day.

- If eating meat, the meat should be high quality and as tenderized as possible for optimal digestion.

- Reduce dairy intake.

- Avoid crackers because they stick to the teeth and gums like glue, causing cavities and periodontal disease, even when brushing and flossing adequately. 

Not a Smart Move on My Part

Thinking further regarding my blood donation in April of this year to get the silly free antigen test, they can do some really horrible things to my blood as an attack.  They probably have some of my old blood on file, but giving them a fresh pint like this definitely was a stupid move.  Of course I wasn't thinking of what they would do to my blood when I donated, distracted by obtaining the pointless antigen test results.

Now it makes sense why my health deteriorated after the blood donation.

Yes there is a they.

Nothing's more powerful than the Central Suns though...

Eating Plan to Feel Better

This is a reply to Sherman on the Cobra blog.  It's such a long reply that I decided to turn it into a blog post, as I've been wanting to make another post about diet.  I will talk about my dietary experiences and what I currently do, and this will possibly help, as those who are attacked with scalar weapons and so forth possibly have similar dietary needs.

Veganism never worked for me either.  I don't digest plant foods well at all.  Raw vegetables are the worst.  The only fruit I eat is one apple per day.  I discovered that I had to really reduce dairy and am doing (cooked) egg whites and poultry for protein.  (It's said that poultry isn't the best for hormones, but my experience shows that, for now, it's having no ill hormonal effect.)  I haven't had any dairy in over a day now, which has helped dramatically, with the only exception being a small amount of butter in canola butter spread to get some fats in.  I try to also not go too high in saturated fat.  In the recent past I was doing just bread and cheese and this was absolutely terrible.  It was very hard on the kidneys because of the inorganic phosphorus that's particularly found in dairy, which wreaks havoc on the kidneys, causing energy levels to plummet.

Regarding maple syrup and honey, it's the fructose in sweet foods that makes sweet foods taste sweet, and a small amount of honey and/or maple syrup contains a high amount of fructose.  Although honey and maple syrup are said to be healthy alternatives to high fructose corn syrup and regular sugar, just like high fructose corn syrup and regular sugar, the fructose in honey and maple syrup is toxic to the liver when consumed in excess, and can create what's called "non-alcoholic fatty liver disease."  Stevia is a good sugar substitute, but Splenda (sucralose) is a very unhealthy sugar substitute.  

It's impossible to completely eliminate fructose from the diet.  Small amounts of sugar is added to starches like bread, and many other foods that are believed to not have added sugar.  The very small amount of fruit I eat per day has fructose.  It's not about eliminating fructose, but reducing it down to consuming a total of  maybe 10-15g of fructose per day, which equates to 20-30g of sucrose (simple sugar).  To know how much fructose is in a food, divide the total sugar on the label by 2, as sugar is 50% glucose and 50% fructose.  This is per serving though.  Most foods have multiple servings per container.  There are 'treat foods' I eat from time to time that have more sugar, but I try to make sure the sugar is low in these treat foods.  Here's a useful video regarding nonalcoholic fatter liver disease and fructose:

 

Another rule I follow is to go low carb until noon.  This boosts the metabolism and so now I'm finally losing the extra 10-15 lbs around my belly that just wouldn't come off any other way.  I've tried some fish as well, although it's a tougher meat, in the morning.  An air fryer is great for this.  Here is a useful video regarding going low carb until noon:  

 

Update on 06/26/2021:  Not eating at all until noon is possibly more healthy than going low carb until noon:

Update 06/27/2021: I feel better going low carb before noon instead of not eating anything at all before noon; will have to experiment further.

There are some important observations I've had regarding vitamin C and magnesium.  Vitamin C makes me extremely tired.  If I take vitamin C before bed (just a small amount of buffered vitamin C, like maybe 50 mg), I will go to sleep easier, but the next day I'm extremely drained of energy.  The one apple I eat per day is only to prevent scurvy, and apples seem to help 'pass things through.'  I've heard many people say to get more magnesium, but supplementing even with small amounts of magnesium makes me extremely tired as well.  So, I avoid foods that are high in vitamin C and magnesium.  I avoid nightshades, such as bell peppers, as nightshades cause all kinds of problems.  Bell peppers are also very high in vitamin C, so no way.

So, what do I eat?  Per meal, it's around 20g carbs from starch (carbs vary based on how much I feel I need at the time, sometimes having more than 20g, sometimes having less than 20g), from white bread (organic white bread lol!).  (Gluten-free has no positive effect for me, and whole wheat can cause inflammation over time.  Other starches like corn have similar substances to gluten anyway.  All food is basically poisonous, whether naturally or artificially - it's just a matter of reducing the poisons to feel better.)  I get a few grams of fat from the canola butter spread per meal (less than 1 tablespoon).  Protein is only 5-10g per meal from poultry or egg whites, but I vary this amount, maybe eating more, or less, depending.  I have these meals every couple hours starting at or starting after noon.  I eat less protein at night, as advised in the video above regarding carb timing.  I've also discovered that eating meat allows me to not eat for longer periods of time if chosen, without getting hungry.

 

The poultry I eat needs to be as tender as possible for easier digestion, so I buy store-bought (but a higher quality brand) chicken nuggets.  Maybe the pink goo from Mcdonalds isn't so bad after all, as, in my case, tougher meat causes heartburn and indigestion.  I tried ground beef not long ago, and this was terrible for me because it was so tough from not being ground finely enough, or I was unable to properly tenderize it.  In the future I may try beef in place of chicken when I figure out how to properly tenderize it.  All chicken nugget brands, regardless of quality, are very high from added sodium, so I alternate with egg whites, which contain no sodium, to balance this out. 

The main supplement I take is 5000 IU of vitamin D in the morning.  I'm considering reducing this to 1000 IU to avoid possible toxicity, as I've been supplementing with vitamin D for years.  For anyone who starts supplementing with vitamin D though, 5000 IU is probably fine.  

Regarding the ethical concerns about eating animal products, I have no other choice.  I've tried so many different ways to go vegan over the years, but I cannot digest most plant foods.  I buy higher quality animal products that are (allegedly) humanely raised.  Of course the real solution is a food replicator.

The Great Clearing

 

Message to Benjamin Fulford

Benjamin Fulford, you have great news lately, stating that the cabal are being removed.  If this is true, then why are these domestic terrorists in the US media still fear mongering like usual, saying that for the unvaccinated, the delta variant will 'get you?'  Fauci (I thought he was supposed to be gone) spewed his mouth about this recently.  Why is it that on television (yes, I like to watch certain shows on television every now and then, in moderation) just about every commercial break there is an ad trying to get people to get vaccinated?  Why is it that on youtube there are all these ads trying to get people vaccinated?  Also, even at my job there are ads for getting vaccinated.  This is basically harassment.  One would think that if the cabal was really being removed from power, the media would start changing its tune, but it's just business as usual.  One could argue that it's just the cabal's last desperate hour, but I've been hearing this argument for several years.

I do notice though that people are not discriminating against those who are unvaccinated.  People seem to no longer care, at least in the US.  The cabal's plans are failing because the public just isn't really listening to the media much, because if the public was, people would be going frantic about getting everyone vaccinated, and grocery stores would start asking for people's vaccine card for proof of vaccination.  These horrible scenarios are not happening, so I'm not saying that it's all 'doom and gloom.'  However, still, for once, just once, it would be nice to see the media shut the fuck up and/or start telling the truth.  I'm not seeing any reports about daily covid deaths in the US going below 200, and daily cases going under 10,000, according to the 'official numbers.'  All the media focuses on is their domestic terrorism campaign against those who choose not to get the vaccine.  

Who are the ones at the top, 'running the show' in these media corporations (CBS, NBC, CNN, and so forth)?  Again, if the cabal is really being removed, the domestic terrorism (I keep using the term 'domestic terrorism' because that's exactly what it is) from the media should be coming to an end.  Hopefully this time it really is the cabal's 'final hour,' but again, we've all heard that a million times before.  *Sigh I guess time will tell. 

*Sigh even if the media stopped with the domestic terrorism regarding vaccines, I notice that the media just picks a different topic to spew their poison, such as pushing climate change propaganda, or pushing their genocidal marxist critical race theory BS.  The trash is really starting to stink.  It's long overdue to be taken out!

Once the underground bases in Eastern Congo, Rwanda, and Burundi are cleared, the cabal running the media can be removed, so clearing out the underground bases is priority #1.  If there is extra time for those meditating though, the violet flame can be used to help cleanse the media, and/or reduce the media's negative effect on the surface population. 

Keep Moving Forward

Symptoms of scalar attacks, described by 2012portal.blogspot.com, aka Cobra, have been physically experienced by myself in the form of stinging, burning, and another form of pain that hurts but can't be easily described other than just being called 'pain.'  The physical pain from scalar attacks is unpleasant but isn't intolerable, probably because the pain isn't constant, as it comes and goes.  The primary location of the pain is in the lower legs and  feet, but can also be in the arms, hands, top of the head, and back.  

There is another scalar attack, or possible scalar attack, experienced in the dreamstate.  An extremely harsh and loud auditory noise has gone through my head many times in the past in the dreamstate.  This noise is like a scream, only the scream is amplified so much that it severely distorts the sound.  That's the easiest way I can describe the sound.  This sound is physically experienced as energy blasting itself through my head.  There is a syndrome called "exploding head syndrome," which is a noise experienced when asleep that causes some people to wake up suddenly, but this syndrome does not fit the description of this kind of attack, because the sound/energy lasts longer than being just a simple short blast of sound.

Furthermore, there have been many times when I am dying in the dreamstate, but am also possibly in physical danger of dying.  I have to force myself to wake up, because if I let go and not fight to wake up, I strongly feel that I will die.  When someone has a fever, there can be a 'pulsating' sensation in the head.  I will have this same pulsating sensation during this kind of attack.

The scalar attacks most likely have a mental aspect.  I often have unwanted and evil thought-forms, and I then wonder if I am an evil being who was 'created wrong.'  I don't advocate the line of thinking of 'it's all the devil's fault' and so forth.  People need to take personal responsibility for what they think and do. However, a great way to attack someone is to give them evil thoughts and make them think these evil thoughts are their own.

I also almost feel as though something inorganic is being placed inside myself.  I get these 'inorganic feelings' in the stomach area that are very unpleasant.  I feel as though I'm being forced to feel what I should not feel - feelings that do not belong in the human spectrum of emotion.  I cannot describe how this feels.  All I can say is that it's not meant to be at all within 'this realm,' or, at the very least, it's incompatible with the 'human template.'  Perhaps this is related to subquantum anomaly. 

Another attack, or possible attack, relates to my heartbeat.  I can no longer go on jogs because my heart starts skipping beats.  Any form of exercise causes my heart to skip beats, including weight lifting.  Even getting upset causes my heart to skip beats now.  My heart will also skip beats at random times.  This is accompanied by unrelenting fatigue.  I can barely work at my job because I can barely stay awake when I'm working.  I have a dietary plan in place to help with the fatigue, but all of my previous dietary attempts have ended in failure.  I will continue to try though.

Sidenote: I didn't remotely have the heart problems and fatigue until I donated blood on the 7th of April, 2021.  They give a free Covid antibody test for Covid when donating blood.  The antibody test is done on the blood itself, and there is no PCR testing requirement, so I figured, why not?  My test results were negative, meaning I've never had Covid before April of 2021, at least according to the test.  I wore a face shield to donate blood, but one of the people at the blood donation site walked over to me carrying a face mask (the blue asbestos kind) and told me I had to wear a face mask when donating blood.  I figured that I would only have to wear their face mask for 10 minutes, which was about the time it actually took, so I put on their face mask.  I don't tell people anything because they will probably think I'm crazy, but it's entirely possible that either Covid or some kind of nano-fiber or harmful bacteria or a combination of these was in their face mask.  At first I figured that I just need to regrow my blood cells to feel better, but after over 2 months, the palpitations and extreme fatigue remains, so their face mask may have been what caused my heart problems and extreme fatigue.  (Interestingly, before I donated blood, the American Red Cross website stated "a face covering is required."  After I donated blood, the ARC updated their requirements, stating that a face shield is not allowed unless a face mask is worn under the face shield.)  If their face mask is what caused me harm, I request that immediate and drastic justice be enforced against those involved, as my health has been severely damaged.

Protections from scalar attacks don't entirely work, but may help reduce the severity and/or frequency of the attacks.  I've tried just about everything regarding protections, including the Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram and the violet flame of Saint Germain, but attacks still come through.  

 

All these attacks are to get me to shut down, feel like a victim, and hate the light forces for not protecting me from this seemingly never-ending torment.  Fact is though, it's not the light force's fault. My suffering is extreme, but the suffering of those in underground bases is far more extreme, so they take a higher priority.  This is what I keep reminding myself of when I am being attacked.  I also understand that as soon as all the underground bases within Earth are cleared, the attackers will cease to exist, and the light forces will come to the aid of those who have been routinely attacked for assistance with healing.  I felt this very strongly when reading the latest Cobra update at the time of this writing.  I also felt tears welling up.

I will continue to do the meditations to liberate the underground bases, and I have a very positive outlook!  I suppose I'm the kind of person who can get knocked down over and over but get back up time after time.  Here's an inspiring clip regarding this.  It's an old favorite of mine:

 

The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows currently, but when Earth is liberated, the possibilities are endless.  Victory of the Light :)

Asking Questions in Hostile Situations

An advantage of being alone most of the time is that a loner is capable of being much more open to possibilities.

A disadvantage of being alone most of the time is that there is a high risk of becoming self-absorbed.  This is because for the most part, the only one a loner ends up paying attention to is oneself because no one else is there! 

Many spiritual people and groups promote going within.  Yet, there is such a thing as going within too much, which can cause an obsession with oneself, having far too much focus on oneself's wants and needs.

It can be quite the vicious cycle.  Someone will want to be only spiritual, and only go within, but the more this someone goes within, the more this someone becomes self-absorbed and toxic.  To alleviate this toxicity, this someone goes within even more, making the toxicity even worse.  Most people don't go within enough, which creates toxicity of a different kind, but for the spiritual seeker who is an outcast, there is too much going within and/or self-reflection.  

Going within is a 'yin' characteristic, and looking outside oneself towards the external world, and participating in the external world, is a 'yang' characteristic.  Both yin and yang aspects need to be balanced.  Too much of one or the other results in toxicity.  There are exceptions, as with yogis and so forth, where these yogis and advanced mediators are able to achieve and maintain higher states of consciousnesses through being primarily yin.  There are also many natural hermits.  However, not everyone is intended to live in isolation like this.  For the vast majority, chronic isolation is unhealthy. 

Those who are into special knowledge and groups focused on special knowledge are often outcasts to the rest of the world.  These outcasts are of course very much alone, and therefore can develop the problem previously mentioned.  It can easily happen to the best of them.  It's not that they are bad people and so forth.  It's just a typical problem that shows up with those who have awareness of certain knowledge that most do not possess.  There's often no one else to relate to, so they can only relate to themselves.  They are supposed to be more spiritual and therefore more good-natured than the rest of the population.  They don't want to admit that they have these toxic characteristics because doing so means they failed to measure up, so they project these toxic characteristics onto each other.  Thus, they have been known to lash out at one another on various special knowledge online forums and blogs.

There is also the issue of developing narcissism among those who are more aware, which goes along with being self-absorbed.  Even though 'people are waking up,' the number of people who know that the media chronically lies to the public is still in the minority (outcasts), or are at least made to feel this way.  Narcissism can result from feeling superior to those who are less aware.  It's difficult to resist this sometimes, especially regarding those who have gotten the vaccine and continue to wear masks, wondering when they will have 'permission' to take their masks off.  The vaccinated are akin to a donkey following a 'carrot on a stick,' with the vaccine being the carrot (that the donkey finally was able to eat) that allows them to 'get back to normal.'  It's understandable to be disappointed in the public at large, but it's also important to not allow this disappointment to fuel narcissistic personality traits.

When someone behaves in a toxic manner, instead of retaliating, the question can be asked, "What caused this person to have these toxic characteristics?"  Also, the intent can be made of oneself to gain new awareness of one's own possible toxic characteristics that are being overlooked.  It's not easy to take a step back and ask questions 'in the heat of the moment', but it's well worth it.  Getting into the frame of mind that asks questions instead of retaliates can bring much greater awareness to hostile situations.